Ok, I keep seeing Astarion x Tav/reader fanfics where Astarion dreams of Tav getting kidnapped by Cazador and I'm over here like, "...well, where's the fanfic where that actually happens?"
*looks around. crickets*
"No one? Too evil?"
*met with silence*
"Do I gotta do it myself then? Fine, I'll be the bad guy. Geez, I just wanted a more intense hurt/comfort with the boy. He's so sweet."
So, there may be an astarion fanfic coming soon lol. Keep in mind I haven't actually played the game, because my equipment doesn't support it lol. However, I've done my research lol. No promises that it's coming out any time soon, but I'll try lol
I finally get to cover Steven Universe again! And the next episode isn't until summer (at least we got an announcement) and Comcast is making Cartoon Network part of a premium package. (Sarcastic Yay)
I'll try my best to keep up with SU (and the Dragon Ball Super dub because that's on Toonami which is part of Cartoon Network...) despite the change through other methods.
But, anyways...
They tried to trick us into thinking this would be a fun episode with the summary of "Steven helps Pearl find her cell phone." They made us think "A Single Pale Rose" was something about S./Mystery Girl. But, no. We got a giant bombshell.
Steven suddenly gets ominous texts from Pearl's phone like "I want to tell you but I can't" and this pink flower. But, Pearl isn't doing this and she can't easily access it in her gem. So, Steven goes into her gem.
The Pearl inside of Pearl's Pearl tries to go through her organized OCD-style storage to find her "cellular phone". But, it's not there. (We also got to see these papers with writing, one with a lipstick kiss on it. No doubt from Mystery Girl...)
Steven needs to check on the other Pearls in the gem to see what's going on. They're all connected to her past. The Pearl inside of Pearl inside of Pearl's Pearl is from around the time when Rose decided to have Steven. She's afraid of losing her. This Pearl doesn't have the phone. Steven goes deeper.
The Pearl inside of Pearl inside of of Pearl inside of Pearl's Pearl (I'm tired of typing Pearl...) is from the Gem War. She tells of a bright light before it was all over. Shards of gems litter the ground. He goes to the next layer of Pearl's past.
The Pearl inside of Pearl inside of Pearl inside of Pearl inside of Pearl's Pearl is kind of hidden. Steven sees his mother... or so he thinks.
He sees the eyes and the gemstone. It's Pearl. Pearl shattered Pink Diamond. But... she's also holding Pink Diamond.
Steven goes further to the final Pearl, talking with Rose. They're discussing the plan to shatter Pink Diamond. Pearl will do it in Rose's place in Rose's form because...
"Well, I can't just shatter myself!"
Rose turns into her true form and creates shards to fake the shattering. The gemstone turns and it all becomes clear.
Rose Quartz is Pink Diamond.
She wants to take on a new identity. As she put it, "It's just Rose now."
It makes sense. The clues. The similarity of the gems. Rose calls Pearl "my Pearl" in "Rose's Scabbard". The old theory wasn't nonsense.
But, now we have to deal with the consequences of the reveal, as shown in the new episode preview. It is entirely against what Garnet was told. She splits apart. Sapphire can't handle being lied to...
I need to vent about my relationship and felt it too personal for Facebook and too unprofessional for Twitter or my Blog so…here it goes.
It seems like the only things I ever need to rant about (besides work recently) are about my love life.
This spring my boyfriend joined the Japanese military the same time I decided to move and change jobs. Both big changes in our lives that unfortunately we had to deal with on our own…seperately. I emphasize SEPERATELY because not only did he join the military and had to be confined to the military base, but the base he joined is in Sendai and I’m in Chiba. In
Texas terms that’s a lil bit further than from San Antonio to Dallas. I mean looking at the big picture we are at least in the same country again compared to the year when I was back in Texas.
Except this isn’t the life I was hoping to have when we came back together. While we did spend time getting closer together last year it was only every other week or so, and now he has set us back again. Being LDR in the same country is a little bit worse I think. We are close considering the distance before and yet neither of us are able to visit each other because of various reasons. I was hoping to be able to start speneding more time together and helping each other through tough times and stress. But yet again, he can’t be with me when I need him.
I have gotten so lonely lately that even masturbating only makes it worse. I bought new toys and found sweet and realistic Japanese adult videos, but I end up sobbing right when I go to climax and have an anxiety attack and start hyperventilating.
Also happened when I got to talk to him on the phone last night. I had told him when I would be available and he had said he could talk within a certain time frame. I was anticipating it so much that I became worried that I would lose it once I heard his voice. Well when the time came for him to call I was finishing up a drama and waiting for the call. 10 minutes then 20 minutes past the time he said he would call. The last episode of the drama ends and I’m already having feels because the drama has two of my fav celebs and is about being with your destiny or fated to be with person and getting married. He calls during the ending credits and I told him about the drama I had just finished and that suddenly I felt so much more lonely. And to that he says very blunt and kinda out of character “しょうがない” which is basically like “oh well” or “it cant be helped” Recently I have been putting pressure of marriage on him and such which I think is the reason he ran off to the military. My reasoning is that he wants to have a stable career with benefits and also be stronger to takr care of me for our future plans. He hasn’t said that directly but I think I know him enough to figure out.
Anyway, I dont know why he said it like that but it really hurt. I tried to play it off and change the subject to ask where he currently was. He kinda bats around the question until I get him to tell me that he’s in the restroom of the base. I figured he would have called from outside or like maybe he had a day off to spend at his grandparents because final basic training testing was over. But then I could hear guys talking probably out in a common area. I realized he went off to the bathroom to call me real quick. The call ended up being only 8 mins where he ended the call suddenly by saying “I have to go now” and was hurriedly telling me bye while saying he hopes to see me soon and I’m trying to make my voice strong enough to say “I love you” through streaming tears. The call ended and I’m hysterically crying on floor trying to catch my breath.
I feel like I would have been a lot more ok with all this if he had joined at a base closer to me so that we could meet when he had time off. But now it is a pain and take so much time to come down here that he can’t really get away. And me working Saturdays and off on Mondays doesn’t exactly line up with his break day if he has any. Also, I’ve never been to Sendai and wouldn’t know my way around or where would be a good place I could stay. Another sucky development is that even though basic training is basically over, he said it is most likely that he’ll be stationed in Tohoku area for at least 2 years. 2 EFFIN YEARS!! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! I’m just so freaking tired of being alone and want to spend more than three consecutive days together with him. (Yes we’ve only spent 3 consecutive days “together” while I was job training in Tokyo when I first returned to Japan.) I’m fed up with this LDR crap.
