#borderline traits

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd + bpd traits culture is PLEAAASEE LOOK AT ME AND RECOGNISE THAT IM NOT OK!!!!!! please look at the songs i listen to and be concerned and please pay attention to the way i behave and acknowledge that something is off because i dont know how to ask for help but this is me trying please help me please look at me - 🐍🕊️

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[shameful-sinful-sensual-sex]

The way yall keep acting whenever I say some real but mildly uncomfortable shit about cluster b disorders, I know for a fact yall bullied classmates, got bullied and took it out on siblings, abused friends and romantic partners, and probably worse that’s not worth mentioning for the sake of vagueness. Even if you didn’t hit them; a few of you definitely did or continue to; Please remind yourselves that emotional and psychological abuse is disgustingly perpetrated online and yall need to knock it off. It is inherently narcissistic to take advantage of someone by definition, and start remembering that most people mean it as an average personality trait, they don’t know about the actual disorder. SO THEY AREN’T FUCKING TALKING ABOUT YOU! And even if they do, stop flooding abuse victims spaces and policing them. They truly aren’t far off with their understanding, and you bitches are overstepping when you do that. If you are actually suffering with a personality disorder and you see strangers doing that on your community’s behalf, tell them to knock it off! And stop using therapy words to shame or silence abuse victims! I hate niggas who do that evil shit specifically.

[jiraigiyuu]

Introduction Post

(main acc; @hammerhead-bridge-arbiter) (I try not to follow back jirais with this account, so if an alter like @let-you-down is following you then that includes me)

(in-sys friends; @warding-fox, @love-love-super-dimension-mix, @let-you-down, @mistociation, @purgatorial-guide)

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I'm called Gregory or Grégoire, often shortened to "Greg". I'm a Giyuu introject/fictive from a mixed origins OSDD system. I find comfort in identifying as a jirai-danshi and a hikikomori. I'm mostly shut in and isolated despite going out occasionally with a few friends, otherwise my system is socially inhibited.

(!!: Bodily 20, self diagnosed with C-PTSD + AuDHD + OSDD.)

I'll just post thoughts, daydreams and my mood on here. If you want to interact, you can treat me like my source, it might be a bastardized "ask [character]" experience though.

And sourcemates of any type would be nice.

No strict DNI, just know I don't like radqueers and I also don't appreciate darkship content. I don't try to touch syscourse often, but I'm definitely pro endogenic/willogenic.

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If you're looking for any responses to asks, I tag them with; #☆.jiraigiyuu response for simplicity.

[r04dk1lld0g]

hellooo

my ask box is open for questions of any variety, im feeling attention seeking right now and just want to talk about myself but i need prompts

can be questions bout un/dead stuff, music, anything!! anon is on so dont be shy

please ᥫ᭡

[bpdbean]

thought i was symptom-free for months but jk i’ve been splitting on everyone

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

NPD + BPD traits culture is freaking out about everyone going silent after I oppose them a little too much, but then remembering that they are lucky to be in my presence at all. Who do they think they are for keeping me waiting? Tick tock, don't keep me waiting for much longer. These people have a lot of strikes already and I fear my patience is being tested a little too much.

-👽🐦‍⬛

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[shameful-sinful-sensual-sex]

I hope you'll be hung in the streets you fucking piece of shit

I mean shit they might do it because I’m black, but some cringey mentally ill freak from tumblr is as good an excuse as any to lynch someone. Keep in mind I told you guys to stop doing stuff like this and blaming it on your disorder. Ohhh ohh ohhhh and I called you stupid, tone deaf, and ignorant for perpetuating abuse, harassing abuse victims, and spreading misinformation about mental illness and abuse just to get away with the abuse you obviously dole out.

And you are in fact a freak because no disorder is making you constantly send this shit. You’re doing it because you’re empty and insecure. Most of us are and don’t do this stuff. I don’t respect cowards either. You said this on anonymous. Say it to the parents who traumatized you. Say it to the kids who bullied you. Say it to whoever fucked you up. And say that shit with your chest.

Otherwise, keep doing this until it makes you feel better, or bored. And you’ll add to the reasons you already feel shitty. I’m not suicidal and I’d never kill myself, I’m too petty and spiteful. That means you won’t feel bad about those messages if I just “disappeared”, but you will look back and cringe that you let some objective truths about personality disorders get to you this bad. You let a stranger who doesn’t know or care about you see how desperate you are to feel something interesting.

That’s almost worse than if I were to “kill myself” or get “hung” because I’m gonna let you know right now, you guys are far more inclined to do it than I ever would’ve. And I can tell you actually have a few people who might piss on your grave. Multiple people who can easily forget you. And I don’t lose sleep over corny losers who hide and throw rocks, randomly dying or hurting themselves. People accepted that I’m an imperfect person and they still respect me. Do they respect you, or do you need to send another vulgar message to mask?

[memoir-of-the-girl-who-lived]

What is Quiet BPD?

Although not currently list in the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders), Quiet Borderline Personality Disorder is recognized as a subcategory of Borderline Personality Disorder. Quiet BPD is an internalized disorder, while BPD is an externalized disorder.

So what is the difference? Someone with Quiet BPD will "implode" rather than someone with BPD, who will "explode". Someone with Quiet BPD feels all the same emotions that a person with BPD would, but they internalize the emotions and feelings, masking it as best they can, and take the hurt out on themselves rather than lashing out as other like someone with BPD would. A person with Quiet BPD can, on a surface level, appear calm, successful, and or even happy. However, below surface level they can be plagued with deep fears of abandonment, toxic shame, and sever anxiety of conflicts.

For the reason that someone with Quiet BPD masks these symptoms so well, mental health professionals can often misdiagnose, or completely over-look, this disorder.

What are some signs and symptoms of Quiet BPD?

Calm demeanor on the outside even when suffering from extreme pain on the inside.

Extreme mood swings that seem to come from nowhere.

Hiding anger, sometimes to the point you don't know it when you are angry.

Tendency to blame yourself for things even when they are not your fault.

When relationships end or conflicts arise, you immediately assume you did something wrong.

Outward image that appears 'normal', calm and successful.

Feeling like there is something defective about you.

Mentally retreating and can become dissociated when stressed.

Continuous feelings of being empty or numb.

When someone upsets you, instead of seeking clarification or confronting them, you immediately withdraw and may end the relationship without speaking to the person.

You feel that you are a burden on others.

It is believed that people who develop Quiet BPD do it in the response to their early caregivers teaching them that seeking connection from the outside was pointless, or could even be dangerous in some cases.