One of the worst things I hate about being nd, experiencing chronic fatigue and executive dysfunction is how often I'm unable to show up for my friends......
I see them being sad / posting sad things and I want to reach out and talk to them but then the realization kicks in and my brain goes - "girl, look at yourself rn. What words of comfort can you offer them, when you can't even comfort yourself? What if you say something that ends up making them feel worse? And then you end up feeling worse too because of it? Besides, can you even handle what they might say rn? "
I feel so selfish at times like these. And it makes me realize that maybe that's why I have so few friends. Because who would want to be friends with someone who has so little to give? And barely there at any given point of time?