The homophobia has been very very present in the fandom this past week. Yk what’s funny, when I joined in January from watching the show, I thought there’s no way there’s gonna be racism or homophobia in a fandom where we’re all here because of this show which discusses these exact topics. I’ve been played in my face ever since.
I find it hard not to always empathize with H, because with him being biracial, and the possibility of him being bisexual, it has shown me how others perceive him of never being “enough” for any community. Too white, too asian, too straight, too gay. I’m constantly reminded that people aren’t there welcoming him with open arms and he always has to stay in this weird middle of not belonging. Also read Martyr which he recommended and yup, again described this feeling perfectly.
To everyone who has and continues to make him feel this way, being such a bad person has never made someone a winner
Well, I'm glad I've stayed out of any fandom space lately. It can be very triggering, in many ways. *patiently waiting for a Hudcon reunion in my tarot bubble*
I'm so sorry... It's terribly disheartening but not uncommon, unfortunately. There's a lot of internalized racism and queerphobia but there's a good share of the externalized kinds as well.
That reminds me of former co-workers who used to praise shows like The Boys when I knew damn well what their political views were about...
Like, do you even understand what you're watching? Do you actually grasp the themes and the positioning of the showrunners?
I find it hard not to always empathize with H, because with him being biracial, and the possibility of him being bisexual, it has shown me how others perceive him of never being “enough” for any community. Too white, too asian, too straight, too gay. I’m constantly reminded that people aren’t there welcoming him with open arms and he always has to stay in this weird middle of not belonging. Also read Martyr which he recommended and yup, again described this feeling perfectly.
THIS. People do not realize AT ALL how hard it is to be in such a situation. It is a huge hurdle. A constant battle with yourself and other people. Even the ones in your close circle. Family. It messes with your senses of identity, belonging, legitimacy, your self in its entirety. It can really fuck you up. Not trying to be the parasocial final boss but it's probably one of the reasons he chose acting as a career too.
There are many books which tackle this actually (Martyr is a great one), it's a fascinating subject, whether you're personally affected or not.
Thank you for sharing this with me <3










