#intristic

[lozsa]

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[the-night-remains-blog]

The Contortionist is so perfect

[69turningpoint-blog]

Damaged goods.

"We accept the love we think we deserve", the quote holds some truth. You love me selflessly, and all I am is selfish. Why do you think my love to you is deserving? I just feel like it's not a fair trade. I'm damaged, I can't open all my heart to you yet and you still treat me like a princess. It's an internal battle with me, I want to show you how much love I have for you and make you feel like you make me feel but idk. I just put up this shield like something in me is like "No Noelle, remember the last time you gave someone your all, loved them deeply and unconditionally, YOU GOT YOUR FUCKING HEART STOMPED ON." Like fuck, I don't harbor anger for Caleb but why'd you have to fuck me up??? I just want to yell and punch him for making me like this! "Why'd you fuck me over again and again!?" And now that I'm with someone more then capable I know of dealing with me, like he's my BEST FRIEND, I tell him everything, why can't I love him like he deserves. I was the one who always told him the girl he got with would be so lucky and now I'm her so why can't I show him that I appreciate EVERY LITTLE THING HE DOES AND PUTS UP WITH ME?! Why do I have to be so damaged?? ): Hector is everything I could ever ask for, I just want to show him I care. I'm not always an apathetic bitch.