#introspectre

[cookie-nigel-dolan]

Depeche Mode  -  Playing the Angel (2005)

00:00 - “A Pain that I´m Used To”

04:12 - “John the Revelator”

07:56 - “Suffer Well”

11:46 - “The Sinner in Me”

16:44 - “Precious”

20:55 - “Macro”

24:59 - “I Want it All”

31:10 - “Nothing´s Impossible”

35:33 - “Introspectre”

37:18 - “Damaged People”

40:46 - “Lilian”

45:37 - “The Darkest Star”

[hiddenhomerecords]

New Artist for your Ear Holes: A Very Special Episode

Seeing as Hidden Home is now run from the East Coast, we decided to mark our territory and put out an artist from our operating region. Please put your hands together for our best buddies and the band that has seen me more intoxicated-er than anyone else: A VERY SPECIAL EPISODE!!

My NY band played our second show with AVSE in October of 2018, when I still knew practically nobody here. They were dressed like the kids in Good Charlotte’s “Predictable” music video, and boy-oh-boy did they rule. I ran up to them after their set to tell them that I “don’t usually like goth bands” but they were amazing and blew my mind. They responded by telling me that they weren’t actually a goth band, and then - true story - invited us to a goth-themed Halloween party. It ended with their drummer Chayse half-demonstrating a “running 69” and a giant man ever so casually but matter-of-factly telling me that I’m a “very hot ginger.” Me and the band have been friends ever since.

Mike visited NYC, met the band at a group hang, and we all got along gingerly (no pun intended). When I sent them their record, he was like “Woah, this is really good!” He wasn’t surprised - he just liked it a lot. Their new record is called Fix Your Hearts or Die, and not only does it rule, but it’s coming out later this year via us and EWEL Records.

Their new single, “Introspectre,” comes out this Friday. To celebrate, they’ll be premiering a live stream set through bandNada on Saturday at 9 PM EST - that’s 7 for Idahoans and 6 for Californians ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. Pre-save the single or pick up something on Bandcamp to be notified when it comes out.

AVSE sounds different than anything we’ve released before and I’m stoked to change it up. They push musical boundaries, care deeply about their art, and are a creative force that genuinely excites me. I hope they excite you too.

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[emastering]

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Some months ago we mastered this EP. Proud to be part of it! This second track named Le Lac is such a beautiful musically song.. Come on.... check it ASAP!! :-) #Repost @emaelcloud with @download_repost ・・・ Introspectre EP out May 31 on all platforms. The EP will be a seamless experience meant to be played from front to back. 🌀Thanks to @rosiewaddell for lending her art to the cover. • #introspectre #emael #emæl #newmusic #avantgarde #strings #cello #synthesizers #piano (bij eMastering) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByR9Gz4HI4e/?igshid=hwqa01zuiqtb

[pictresque]

Touched by the deep, abstract, dazzling beauty of talent...how it is possible and how it must be answered...

[leiathoughts]

aphorisms on afterwards

I am scared of the product of this narcissistic notion of metamorphosis — that it will be mediocre, rendering the process meaningless. The future is now means that we are valued for our possibility not our achievements (or is this the value of all achievements: their promise) It does not matter if I have created, if I cannot create the same way for ever again?

Is it pretentious now to wonder of meaning?

I have convinced myself it is the striving for perfection. Naturally, failing to attain it can the act of striving be enough? But some attempts are more elegant than others. A hierarchy of attempts! -- but futile because Mozart died a beggar, and Hitler has never not gotten his way apart from his testicle defect. Futile because for 2 months straight in my striving I ceased to be happy while those who had given up were free? Even if retribution or reward necessarily arrives in the appendix, futile for the religious because to reach heaven they have to deny the only material life; futile for atheists because having gorged themselves on life they die without hope. A holy self-denial is consistent because it is done in anticipation of total absolution of such desires. But then again if the passage to eternal life automatically shaves those off, why bother? And does liberation herald happiness? What are we if removed from our needs, vulgarity that allows beauty, excesses, shortcomings, desires: dead. 

Everyone wants to maximise their existences so everyone is a consequentialist. The deferral into another life was an eternal penance and excuse before it was ever imbued with morality. I can’t seem to deny that god existed but I can affirm my indifference to his ostensible purported way.

So, I will accept all that overlaps, but not attribute it to Christianity; anyway, I know myself, my conflict-centredness, the general horror. Catholicism will not accept all of my depravity, which I still want for myself.

I too was born with the tremendous desire to revere something but she has always been a woman. 

[leiathoughts]

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[leiathoughts]

“I don’t like my singing voice” / I lived on the sound.

[leiathoughts]

visions fugitives

I always imagined perfection to be an edge. Not to exist within the boundary of some contained sphere of happiness, never that explicit, or immersive - like Plath who cannot escape the melancholy even of an immaculate state; for me the cusp, the brink overlooking— is fundamental. “Lost and left behind” is a line I’d used to describe the discard: function(al) dinners dead-lines that sad Durkheim disconnect and rush hours…

all obscured with this detachment, the buildings still sharp to the eye but inconsequential like a vague apprehension. The planes flying overhead in their exact intervals and filling our ears with tremendous shock each time. How we kissed at that edge fringing the unreal sky, the changing sea.