#ironlungkin

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hello everybody my name is fishiplier and welcome to trying to figure out what the fuck my body looks like

- Simon, Iron Lung, #🃏💜💗🤡

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i understand the impulse, i do, but something about these "fix-it"s some people keep trying to put me in just doesn't feel right. guys i don't know how to tell you this but i was torn to smithereens by a living ocean made of blood while undergoing the effects of severe radiation poisoning and also experiencing ridiculous amounts of hypoxia. even if i did somehow make it to the surface, i would have been dead in minutes. just being realistic here.

if you're gonna have me come back, at least do something fun with it. turn me into the fish or somethin', c'mon now.

- the convict/simon (iron lung) 🩸🌊

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gripping the arms of my chair a really normal amount. no it's fine. it's like totally fine that people found a ""morally okay"" person to ship me with and now it's all they ever fucking talk about. it's really fine that it's to the extent that i can't even scroll the tag for my own damn source without having to scroll through walls of blocked posts when i'm on mobile. it's so so so fine that people are sexualizing both me and the guy that they're shipping me with (who is!! more canonly aroace coded than i am for the record!!!!) in a way that just makes me feel icky and gross. it's fine. like it's never been more fine like ever, y'know.

- the convict/simon (iron lung)🩸🌊 (who's so fucking tired. i /like/ p.hm too, a lot actually, which is the agonizing part. like love that guy (as a character) and i do understand the appeal of it all but also. can i please stop having to see people making me and him kiss all the time, it's getting on my fucking nerves.)

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i'm absolutely being silly when i say this because i obviously know they're not talking to me specifically but i can't lie, i do find it funny when people feel the need to remind others that i was a convicted criminal. like i get why, some people tend to woobify me and act like i had done Nothing Wrong In My Life Ever which is just factually untrue, but to me it's like.

yeah man. i was there. i don't really remember the actual committing the crimes part very well (because of several conditions culminating in repression and staggering memory loss) but i definitely remember the being imprisoned and put to death for the crimes part. wasn't great, honestly. didn't love it. don't need to be reminded of it, myself, if i'm being straight up with you.

- the convict (iron lung) 🩸🌊

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canon disabilities:

PTSD and ADHD were the big heavy hitters then, honestly. maybe i had other stuff maybe i didn't (i wouldn't, for example, knock out the idea of having religious OCD or anything considering my upbringing, and even disregarding the whole SM-13 thing i'm pretty sure psychosis was something i experienced pretty regularly) but i knew about the ADHD from youth (trust me, when i suddenly started having to ration meds after the rapture things got REALLY hard) and the PTSD is just like. obvious i think.

there is also the missing left arm but idk if i can really count that since i literally died like... 5 minutes after losing the arm, y'know. just not rlly smth i had to live with for very long compared to the other stuff.

- the convict (iron lung) 🩸🌊

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i love there being a non 0 chance of being on the receiving end of microaggressions when i try to look at stuff for my source. i love that people just don't know how to be fucking normal about the place i grew up in to the point it just feels like character assassination. i love that we are just ignoring that i am a man of color who moves through the world in a very specific way because of it, written and directed and acted by a man of color whose experiences are inextricably linked to how my character was written, because i'm hot and have anger issues or whatever.

we get it, i'm a terrible person and i grew up in a really fucked up society. i know that. i'm not even mad that they're pointing out i'm a terrible person who grew up in a really fucked up society, we all know it's true. what i am mad about is the fact that i just have to sit here and watch these fuckers be racist about it and just not fucking reflect on that at all because all they can focus on is my tits or how fun it'd be to make me suffer or whatever.

i should be allowed to start throwing bricks.

- the convict (iron lung) 🩸🌊 who's been real sick and tired of this shit, i won't lie to you chief.

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[fictionkinfessions]

didn't think I was going to kin and then the crossover ship got me. youre right mark. i DO want to curl up in ryan goslings arms - simon (iron lung)

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seeing all the bloodymary stuff is so weird to me. me and my grace were/are so incredibly aroace that it makes me kinda sick to see everyone shipping us. i just want to look at art of me and my best friends without kissing jumpscare. i see fanart of us cuddling (which we did often, we were both incredibly touch starved) and its all ship stuff.

maybe im overreacting and it doesnt really matter but :/

-simon iron lung

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