#simonkin

[fictionkinfessions]

hello everybody my name is fishiplier and welcome to trying to figure out what the fuck my body looks like

- Simon, Iron Lung, #🃏💜💗🤡

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[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

alright listen. i totally get that what i did was messed up and i know i should've told you guys what was happening instead of giving in to the blackmail but you know what? fuck yall. out of all of you the only person who had any right to be mad was abby. leah, you are not entitled to me. im sorry you were upset i didnt love you but me being gay isnt a problem to "deal with", as you put it. and you werent entitled to me coming out to you before abby. i mean shit, look how you reacted. (1/?)

(2/?) why do you think i didnt come out to you? you guys watched me and ethan get publicly humiliated by those asshates whos names i cant remember and you just sat and watched, you didnt even bother to see if i was okay afterwards. you all abandoned me during the worst time of my life. i had just been forcibly outed, and you left me with no support system. fuck all of you. you weren't my friends. - Love, Simon.

[support-your-local-kin]

For Simon Seville from Alvin and the Chipmunks

[With punk-geek themes, music, glasses and space.]

[fictionkinfessions]

i understand the impulse, i do, but something about these "fix-it"s some people keep trying to put me in just doesn't feel right. guys i don't know how to tell you this but i was torn to smithereens by a living ocean made of blood while undergoing the effects of severe radiation poisoning and also experiencing ridiculous amounts of hypoxia. even if i did somehow make it to the surface, i would have been dead in minutes. just being realistic here.

if you're gonna have me come back, at least do something fun with it. turn me into the fish or somethin', c'mon now.

- the convict/simon (iron lung) 🩸🌊

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[fictionkinfessions]

i get so fucking wired any time people bring up my mother. even if they're not saying anything bad about her, even if they're just bringing her up in reference to talking about me i'm just so. explodes, y'know.

i think it's just residuals from uhm. canon events is what we'll call them. idk the implication that she was a bad mom and/or that she would be disappointed in me was definitely something that people used to control me (or at least tried to) back then and just thinking about it makes my skin crawl. she wasn't perfect, no mother is, but whatever criticisms i have of her are for me and me alone. you don't get a say in that. (is how i feel. i know that in actuality that that's not true but that's the *problem*, isn't it?)

i really am such a momma's boy. i don't mean this with fully positive connotations, i completely realize that there is a part of her that's just like. deified in my brain, and i know that's not a good thing. but i love her. i love her a lot, if that wasn't obvious. and i miss her so so much.

- the convict/simon (iron lung) 🩸🌊

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[fictionkinfessions]

i think we collectively kin the convict/simon from iron lung but like. we already have a fictive of him. is simon just double convict now???? /joke

#♾️🌲

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[fictionkinfessions]

My roommate and I are each kin from Project Hail Mary and Iron Lung (in the respective places). It hasnt lined up for us to be in those shifts at the same time,, until now. Now lets see how well Ryland Grace and Simon "the Butcher" actually get along.

(Aside: we are best friends, so it will go fine, but oh my god this is wild that it actually lined up like this.. or I'm just making a big deal about it because I haven't been in a Simon shift since January, and I feel this underlying boiling anger.. which makes sense for this shift I guess =_=")

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[fictionkinfessions]

gripping the arms of my chair a really normal amount. no it's fine. it's like totally fine that people found a ""morally okay"" person to ship me with and now it's all they ever fucking talk about. it's really fine that it's to the extent that i can't even scroll the tag for my own damn source without having to scroll through walls of blocked posts when i'm on mobile. it's so so so fine that people are sexualizing both me and the guy that they're shipping me with (who is!! more canonly aroace coded than i am for the record!!!!) in a way that just makes me feel icky and gross. it's fine. like it's never been more fine like ever, y'know.

- the convict/simon (iron lung)🩸🌊 (who's so fucking tired. i /like/ p.hm too, a lot actually, which is the agonizing part. like love that guy (as a character) and i do understand the appeal of it all but also. can i please stop having to see people making me and him kiss all the time, it's getting on my fucking nerves.)

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