#is this like... a thing?

[childofpasithea]

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What's with all the ear cleaning?

[saturnsbugs]

I'm trying to be more outwardly positive, but its been difficult. I have a hard time expressing positive emotions. I can feel really excited or happy but all I can really say to express it is something like "oh awesome" or "yeah that's cool" even though I feel more than that. I have no problem expressing annoyance or worry or anger, which really bothers me. Why can I be so negative so easily, but it's so hard for me to actually physically show how nice I feel?

[knopperbrister]

echolalaphile replied to your post:Rule I’m struggling with atm: communicating with...

I often struggle with the counter to this rule, with respect to my kid: despite his distressingly precocious verbal development, strange noises may in fact be attempts at communication; do not dismiss out of hand. (in other news, brains are weird.)

I'm going to use this reply as an excuse to ramble a bit, sorry.

The rule in question is rule number five here. Generally, I think, I am pretty good with words, but when I'm trying to say something about my feelings or relationships or whatever, something that feels personal in some way or that I have some sort of emotional stake in, it often ends up as just unintelligeble noises of frustration, after like five attempts that all ended in "no, I can't say that." My therapist said I had to stop censoring myself. I think it's an anxiety thing, kind of. The point is that I am trying to let go and just say things, and I am getting better! But, ugh (see, I even do it in wrtiing!) it is SO HARD. 

It is super frustrating when I want to ask someone's advice on something, but I am unable to actually say what I want advice on, and just say "aaagh ghiblll meeeep" a lot and no one gets any wiser.