#it's shit.

[bellemorte180]

Harry Potter Fans?

Just curious, what is your opinion on the Cursed Child?

[malandi]

some of you unironically stan the chimera ant arc? seriously?

[slurrmp]

one word prompts: past. for ana & chris. based on episode two.

it was nerve wracking standing in front of the door. this had been lorca’s ready room almost three weeks ago, the memories that sat behind that door were a lot less ... pleasant than what ana had hoped they would have been. a deep breath in, the brunette lent over and pressed the button and almost instantly she heard the distant sound of come, then the doors sliding open and the lieutenant was standing to the side giving michael a warm smile as she stepped past her.

hands lightly brushing against each others before ana stepped into the ready room and the door slid shut behind her. the stark white uniform that she wore felt extremely too bright and all of a sudden ana wanted to turn tail and run out of the room.

“ lieutenant. ” pike greeted and her green eyes focused on him, more importantly to the bandage wrapped around his torso, which he had gained from jumping on top of a phaser and almost getting himself killed. again.

sounds like someone else i know. ana thought to herself, before her hands clasped in front of her stomach.

“ you called ? ” she finally found her voice and pike looked up at her, a faint smile pulling across his lips. ana felt her heart skip a beat and almost berated herself for it. she was entirely too predictable - falling for someone who was entirely out of her league.

“ i did. and please don’t make me laugh. ” a frown fell on ana’s brow and she stepped closer to his desk.

“ i’ve never been able to make you laugh. ” a stifled huff escaped his lips, before he winced and placed a hand against his bandage. “ sorry. ” she let a grin pull at her lips. for pike, the start of the conversation was almost like deja vu but for ana - it was the most nervous conversation she has had in a while. the brunette came and sat down in the chair on the other side of the desk, a welcome change to the emptiness that had been lorca’s ready room. “ i like what you’ve done with the place. ” she started.

pike glanced around his room and nodded his head. “ so have i. ” ana snorted and tilted her head to the side. “ well, i mean ... who doesn’t sit ? ”

“ that was gabriel. ” ana mumbled and looked down at her hands. slender fingers intertwining with each other once more, nails picking at the beds before she looked up.

she hadn’t been a part of the landing party, but she had helped doctor pollard treat the captain’s injuries - all the while trying to keep herself in line. the past was a tricky thing. her academy days were something she wanted to forget - lord knows her and jim seemed to get into all sorts of trouble but well, appearing in quarters that weren’t her own from basically nowhere was a little hard to explain. pike, to his credit, didn’t seem slightly phased that a woman who was wearing 21st century clothing had just appeared in his living room.

it had been almost a week of paradise. ana was surprised that a captain wasn’t bringing her in, it could have been because she had begged him not too - at least not until she figured out where the hell she was and what the hell she was going to do. they had gotten close, almost too close - but it wasn’t until she was apprehended by starfleet one day (while out having a walk), well it was more like section 31 had gotten wind that there was someone on academy grounds that shouldn’t have been. which now meant that ana was under the watchful eye of everyone who knew the ins and outs of the black ops section of starfleet.

she was taken away from pike and was forced to stay in the brig for almost a full week, before anyone had come and told her what was happening. in times of crisis, they called upon the time traveler for help on missions. but when it was realised that ana was unable to return to her own timeline, those higher up in starfleet allowed her to enter the academy under a false name and fake date of birth, one even saying that she was more useful to them when she learnt the ways of the future.

which meant - she was back on christopher’s porch, knocking on his front door - almost five weeks after she arrived. he had been given the task of making sure that she didn’t make a mess and that she passed classes with flying colours.

“ how are you feeling ? ” she questioned, trying to pull her head out of her thoughts. the past needed to stay in the past, no one was to know about her work with section 31 - let alone the fact that she was from the past and the future at this point. even how close she had gotten with the new captain of the discovery, especially with everything that’s been happening - a missing spock (who she knew but of course he didn’t know her) and the war just barely being over, ana knew that digging up old agenda’s (and crushes) didn’t have any place at their current time.

“ sore. ” was his reply and ana smiled down at her hands once more. “ what about you ? ” ana looked up once more.

“ captain ? ”

“ i read the reports, ana. ” her frown deepened, but she leaned forward and rested her elbows on the desk. placing her chin in the palms of her hands, she shrugged her shoulders. “ our lorca was never one to be aggressive. ” sniffing slightly, ana shrugged her shoulders again. this universes lorca had been dead for a long time. ana didn’t even think she’d be able to tell the difference. “ plus, it looks like it’s going to leave a nasty looking scar. ” green eyes flickered to the side, out the window and the bandage that was covering the wound above her right eyebrow felt heavy - though she knew that it was now going to match the scar on her left eyebrow.

“ oh, well - ” she started pulling back and sitting straighter in the chair, almost wanting to pull her legs up and underneath her - just like they were back on earth and none of this had happened yet. the war hadn’t started and the only reason she was freaking out was because she had to learn at least three new languages in the span of five days. “ it hurt like a bitch. ” another huff of laughter from the captain and he frowned. “ sorry. it’s fine. i managed to get in a few hits before he knocked me out. ”

“ in other words, ” pike started as he shifted in his seat himself. “ you’re fine. ” her left brow raised, before she nodded her head and huffed out her own laugh.

“ you could say that. ” the room was silent for a couple of seconds, before ana did bring her legs up onto the chair, shifting so that she wrapped her arms around her knee. “ i’m really glad you’re here, chris. ” ana smiled, though this time it felt real and genuine. “ everyone really could use a captain like you. ”

christopher heaved out a sigh and ran a hand through his hair. “ i really do hope i’m that kind of captain, ana. ” the brunette had a feeling the next couple of months were going to be tough. but a lot of fun.

[windsroad]

wow they really did just kill that guy right off huh

no hint at shiro having any kind of significant other, three minutes of “oh he has a boyfriend” and then the next mention of him is to kill him off

WOW

WOW THAT’S REALLY BAD HUH

THAT”S REAL REAL BAD

[bewitchedbunny]

"You already have ONE happy gay ship; why would you want more?"

Oh. So I guess Masayoshi+Goto, Nezumi+Shion and Kusakabe+Sajou doesn't exist, huh.

What a pity.

[bicker-bird]

I can't sleep cause then I have to wake up and face the fact that I got fired and I don't know what's going to happen again and I don't think I'm strong enough to do that but I am strong enough to pull an all nighter

[nateorade-w-blog]

Desiigner -- Zombie Walk

        “Get out my way, get the fuck out my face… No control.”

Whew. I’m really pushing it with this one, particularly because I adore this song, and it’s only got select lyrics out of context that apply. Essentially, this is more of a song Nate would listen to, perhaps while roaming the hallways. But it’s basically about a badass, and while it’s super derogatory and terrible, I primarily listen to rap, so I couldn’t help myself. It makes him feel empowered, on top, and exempt of all restrictions.

Brand New -- Jesus Christ

        “But with nobody in your bed, the night’s hard to get through... Well, Jesus Christ I’m not scared to die, I’m a little bit scared of what comes after... I know you think that I’m someone you can trust, but I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up... I know you’re coming for the people like me.”

This song is actually something that I grew up on. Anyway! Nate was used to the calmness of being around his mother more often than not. When that was taken away, it was difficult for him to sleep. And while he’s got fears that could last for years to list out, he’s afraid of dying and not being the ‘celebrity’ he sees in his head.

The Devil Wears Prada -- Louder Than Thunder

         “What would it take for things to be quiet? I don’t think I deserve it; selflessness, find your way into my heart.”

What would it take to get the emotions and pain to stop? The damage of growing up in the community with a skank for a mother wore Nate fairly thin, so it’s difficult for him to feel like he can breathe. What Athena did while she used him will haunt him for the rest of his life, even if he never understands. Nate doesn’t feel like he can grow close to people because of what happened with her. Therefore, when people are selfless, he believes he doesn’t deserve it, and all of his emotions are constantly conflicted, contrary to what he shows on the outside.

This Wild Life -- Ripped Away

           “Was I lying right through my teeth when I said I was trustworthy? I’m turning into everything I hate. I can’t be anything you want me to be.”

When Nate first came to Serenity he lied a little bit, and sometimes he even lies now to protect himself. However, he knows who he is and knows that no one should trust him, which is why he’s so bad at making friends. A part of him doesn’t want to hurt anyone else, and he’s tried of having to keep people at bay before they get to close -- i.e. Laurie, David, Peter, and Emma. He’s turning into everything he hates subconsciously. In so many ways he’s like his mother -- not in the whore sense, but the controlling “I’m better than you” sense. He also knows that, he’s not going to be the son -- or daughter, that his mother really wanted, so this song is more in regards to Nate’s life experiences. His mother’s hatred and betrayal, and all of his convoluted emotions. @peterwhitmanshrp @lauriekxller @emmakeller

Crywolf -- The Hunger In Your Haunt

             “I’ve been alone in a million places and I’ve seen God in some dirty faces and All that I could think about was you.”

A song he used to listen to at the little watering hole his mother used to go prance around at night in. He’d sit at the bar with a glass of water -- and as he got older, beer -- wondering what else could happen while being in the community. He knew the only way to salvation was by being the leader of the community, which was why he was fighting so forcefully to claim it.

Hearts & Colors -- Lighthouse

            “Looking back when we were younger. Remember that the police been chased us. We  can’t turn back now.”

Before losing his friends entirely to his own stupidity, Nate saw them as the light among the community. Sure, they didn’t always get along, but what’s a little light without a bunch of darkness? He was caught by the police with them, and not too far beforehand, he’d lost the respect of all of them, while also losing respect for them in return for what they did when they turned David against him. 

Jesse Ruben -- This Is Why I Need You

         “There are too many options, far too many unknowns... Cause you make the darkness less dark.”

For my beloved Vic who writes Elana. The first night Nate met Elana he fell apart in her arms and she offered up sanctuary in her office. While he is dreadfully afraid of losing her, and also getting hurt by her, she’s by far the only person in Serenity that he trusts. And without that, he would feel pretty utterly alone. Which is why he needs her. @doctorelana

Astrid S -- Paper Thin

         “There’s no hiding now. I’m paper thin.”

This is actually for David! LOL! Or my lovely Wendy. While David is an asshole and this song is a bit more lovey-dovey, I totally ship Nathaniel x David -- Daniel. Patton knows a lot more about Nate than anyone else, and he’s the only one that really gets to see him vulnerable, besides Elana and Scott. So, while he’s not actually in love with David (yet) he’s exposed to the older boy and that’s what makes him even more nervous to be around him. @davidpatton

Echos -- Gold

       “All I feel is emptiness here... I’m terrified by their eyes when they stare. Nobody knows who I am.”

It pisses Nate off that literally everyone in Serenity doesn’t know who he is because he basically sees himself as a celebrity. He’s Nathaniel Whitman, why wouldn’t people recognize his name? So this is a somber take on that frustration in the form of a song.