#its terrifying

[amy-lee-park-offical]

THIS STUPID FACE IS SO SCARY WTF

[audreyrosepromise28]

Heaven is actually terrifying. Christians talk about it like it's the most wonderful thing but if you think about it as a believer, the core of who you are would be stripped away. Inevitably there would be people that you care about that wouldn't make it to heaven with you so, the process of being in heaven would either have to brainwash you into forgetting they existed, or you would have to know that people you love dearly are suffering in hell and you would just have to be okay with it? no matter how you rationalize it you'd be a washed out version of yourself you would lose the very core of who you are, and to me that's more terrifying than any possible thing a fictional hell could do to me!

[harleyquinnisbi]

crazy the difference in demeanour of armand in 2x05 compared to dubai like I neeeeeeed more of armand being a little freak I need him completely unhinged

[tokkibean]

chapter one is out!!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

“He’s strong.” Satoru says carefully. “All of the windows––it’s rather impressive, if I may.” “Satoru.” He bites the inside of his cheek. “Apologies. I’m just saying.”   Satoru likes Yuuji. The first time he came here, fresh-eyed and fresh from the academy, he stumbled into those ugly stone gargoyles by the water fountains and shattered it within the first five minutes inside the palace—which was almost as terrifying as it was funny, the sheer amount of strength that Yuuji sent ricketing into stone just with a small shove. They’d spent the rest of the afternoon fishing soaked-grey pieces from the bottom of the pool, Satoru’s pants rolled to his knees, Yuuji apologising until he lost his voice and Satoru laughing so hard it hurt. He hadn’t laughed like that since—since. 

Yaga posts Satoru to Heian.

yeah its starting!! i honestly have no idea what to put for the chapter summary right now but yeah take that snippet!! this will be mildly important later i think heh

[autisticspirit]

😰 scary

[crqstalite]

yk now that im thinking about this post by @ebitenpura

zanya would probably never have kids but he also wouldn't want to always be the one on the frontline of the alliance. like by the time he turns like sixty hes probably been to enough therapy and through enough traumatic/formative experiences to go "yeah no this is enough for me actually. i am a whole person with wants and desires that are Not just serving my people. i have finally Done Enough" and actually give himself a more administrative role so he isn't constantly the one fighting for his life. a younger him would literally strangle himself for being that far out of control BUT it is a necessary evil. he has learned to delegate and step back when he knows hes out of his depth.

(i got really ill thinking about silver fox zanya for a second and then and then and then oughhh) (beating myself back with a broom)

but he'd probably take on an apprentice (NOT a padawan. hes still sith and will teach them as such) surely? like. with that extra time he'd have the brainspace and general emotional spatial awareness to do it better this time (he doesn't consider jaesa a failure, just a consequence of his young adulthood that he wishes he couldve rectified -- unlike cele and nadia who i will elaborate on much later). the alliance isnt just zanya regardless of how much they platform him, so maybe someone else would be open to becoming the head of it. that man would implode if he became a father but he does like the idea of guiding the future considering he did always want to change the empire for the better when he was younger. this is just his way of doing it. no longer even imperial but the idea is still there. now, at least, he has the experience to actually back up his plans of grandeur.

is this just an excuse for me to brainworm my way to another character MAYBE. i am very predictable and theres no shame to that. but the thought of zanya seeing himself as something akin to a teacher, being able to work through his issues with his father by becoming a mentor to someone else doing everything that he wishes that he had kinda just makes me soft on the inside. yeah this kid (loose definition, theyre probably in their early 20s) has not a clue what theyre doing but theyll learn. through the trials and tribulations that are admittedly probably a bit ridiculous because its zanya and good luck ever being zanya's student especially when he's that old and his "i absolutely know best here"isms are on full display, theyll grow into themselves and take on the same mantle he once wore with pride. he'll still be there if they need him as a fallback plan, but its someone he can say "you have this" to and trust them to actually have it.

idk i got really sick thinking about zanya older and happier and slightly mellowed out. he is no longer all that stressed!! still a little bit of course, but hes learned how to lighten that load and take care of himself. hes more well rounded! he has hobbies! hes not constantly watching over his shoulder! he knows the definition of safety and can close his eyes for a night without seeing every way the next mission could go wrong! hes grown and changed, but for once, he isn't afraid of it.

like hes still gonna have this kid running drills for hours until they get it right but at least hes helpful in fixing their form and reaction time. and he's surprisingly cocky still to an annoying degree of course, its zanya of all people. as much as this kid probably comes back from training wildly frustrated because their master is genuinely missing a few marbles, theyre certainly learning something. and theyre thankful for him taking them under his wing. he may be The Commander, but he can also be in someone's corner and show them the ropes and teach them how to handle the galaxy at its worst.

[fluffyhellspawn]

possibly my favourite thing about being a multiplatform artist is just how drastically different the "ecosystem" is on like... twitter compared to tumblr; like oh my god i have never been more weary of what i post on twitter compared to here because that is a new territory for me....its terrifying its also. beyond buggy and broken, but tthats fine

[thenight-comes-down-likeheaven]

There is nothing to add, there is no hidden message. Damocles speaks for itself. This song is so raw. It's just him. Just Vessel, and not the persona, just the guy. A guy that is carrying such an immense weight.

To want everything you've given, everyrhing you've worked for, to be remembered, but to not want to be known. To have this success, but to be scared that it could all just vanish. To feel like you have to constantly keep making things bigger and better than before. To fight those silent battles day in and day out even though everything is seemingly wonderful. To feel like you're not sure when it should end, or if it already has.

I hope he knows that we could never forget him. I hope he knows how we appreciate him, not just his art, but HIM. He puts so much of himself into his work, he has poured his soul into all of this, and we see that.

Vess, on the off chance that you're reading this, I hope you're okay. I know that probably sounds hollow, but for what little it's worth, I mean it. I was so lost, felt so broken and alone, and then I found Sleep Token. I found catharsis and community. I found strength I wasn't sure I had and it was because of you, and so many others feel the same. We will still be here when the river runs dry. Wherever this road leads, we will gladly follow, even if that is to it's end. You have done more for us than you can ever know. Please remember that. Please remember that you matter, beyond what you can give, beyond what is expected or demanded of you. You are so loved.