It’s been 2 years since 2 years. I was celebrating something I thought I was so happy about. I was dating a guy, I thought he was my everything, but I was giving my life up to a boy who only wanted me as a trophy. I was a novelty, a pretty face. Why I spent so long in a relationship, where I wasn’t valued as a person and appreciated for my personality, I’ll never know. A healthy relationship values each other’s dreams and aspirations. That relationship was far from it. Now, I’m living with nathan. I’m so happy. I knew from the first week of being with him, I’d never want to leave. I have never felt so comfortable and secure. That’s what I was looking for and I’ve found it. My heart doesn’t flutter and my palms aren’t sweaty. Love isn’t being nervous and trying to impress your significant other. Love is being familiar with each other’s true self. Love is when you can be 100% and they love every bit of it. I watch Nathan and in every moment it makes me fall deeper in love with him. I love his good as much as I love his bad. He supports me and helps me better myself. So it’s been 2 years since 2 years when I wasn’t for sure of myself. 2 years since I was dependent on someone validating my every move. I wouldn’t change any moment in that terrible time because I learned what love wasn’t. And after a few more months of that relationship I learned to let go. I learned to accept that I am a person. I learned to be independent and to not “stay in my place”. When I stepped out, I stepped into a whole world with unpaved opportunity. I am my own person. To make it better, I have Nathan who loves every step I take and accepts and supports the decisions I make. There’s never time wasted, there’s just time to improve.
