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Confession #7

If you really knew me, You would know that I'm not one to hide my thoughts and feelings from my best friends. I've learned to let go of a certain mentality I used to have, where I agonized over what people thought of me. While I still do have insecurities, I've gotten better at not giving a fuck about what others think. Especially people that aren't all that important in my life. I've learned to be open and honest with those I call my best friends. Sure, I may not be 100% transparent about everything, but I get pretty close. And I love that I can say what's on my mind and know that they don't judge me for that.

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If You Really Knew Me | Demi & Jensen

Demi sat in the common living area of the condo she now shared with Jensen. She never minded it when she was by herself in a condo because sooner or later she knew someone would be assigned to be her roommate. Right now, she was just having a laid back day and enjoying some free time to herself. The singer always appreciated the moments when she didn't have to be all over the place. Sometimes it was just great to sit and watch tv or mess around with her guitar, which is what she was doing. She had her guitar nearby and reached for it. 

She adjusted in her seat, resting the guitar on her lap. Demi didn't even know if Jensen was in the apartment or not. She figured that she would find out soon. While she knew who Jensen Ackles was, she didn't personally know him. Demi wasn't even sure if he knew her but either way she was hoping they would get a chance to fix that and get to know each other better. She started strumming a few chords and humming along as she played one of her favorite Ed Sheeran songs, Give Me Love. It had been a while since she sat down and played just for the hell of it. It felt good to have a break and relax for a while.

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If you really knew me: you'd know i have no friends, just fake people who pretend to care

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If you really knew me: You'd know im depressed. as fuck.

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If you really knew me: You'd know im not as happy as i seem

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#9

If you really knew me, you would know that I was sexually harassed by a boy in my gym class in seventh grade. His friend, who was a girl constantly encouraged him and as he would dry hump me in order to get me uncomfortable. I did not have any friends in that class, so I sat there and took it and hated him, hated myself, hated that class, hated everything. The year passed, and all is behind. 

Today, this boy is known to be a really nice guy and best friends with someone who used to be one of my really close friends and who is still one of my friends. She doesn't know. No one knows. I wonder if he still remembers. 

His female friend -- well...she's known to be a bitch still. 

I want to say I forgave them, but I still struggle to know if I really did or not. Its not that events of seventh grade that bother my conscious, but the simple fact of if I forgave them or not -- for I truly do not know.