The way her true self slowly revealed itself post crash. Pre-crash Jackie was upbeat and always painted with a smile (unless she was alone). The only time she smiled post crash was with Shauna, trying to comfort her. Her facade came crashing down and she didn’t have to keep it up anymore. She didn’t need to be anything for anyone but Shauna…until she didn’t have to for Shauna either and after that, all her hope and motivation was lost. She wasn’t built for the wilderness, her heart was too pure. All she knew how to be was a teenage girl. The one that always shows up for people. The team captain. And then that wasn’t enough.
“I’m being serious! You were close to that girl, I hate it!" Jackie said angrily while kicking the soccer ball. You knew how pissed she really was because the ball completely flying over the goal.
“Fuck!” Jackie yelled annoyed with herself. She's always been the jealous type since the very first date. “Baby, all we were doing was talking. She asked me where Coach Scott’s office was!”
Jackie rolled her eyes and still didn’t look up to you, still focusing on the field before her.
She crossed her arms and frowned. “And why were you so close?!" Jackie said clearly still jealous. She hates it you talk to other women.
God she can’t stand it! The thought of another girl talking, thinking, looking at you is beyond frustrating.
Jackie huffed, keeping her arms crossed over her chest. She looks to you before quickly averting her gaze. “Why are you even friends with her?" She said.
You’ve always known her jealousy was a problem for her, but it’s been worse lately, she’s been extra clingy. She knows she’s being unreasonable, but she can’t help it. She gets super possessive if a girl even glances your way, Jackie feels the need to grab your hand or throw herself onto your lap when other girls are around.
Jackie let out an annoyed huff. “Girls are naturally flirty. Why was she being so smiley?” Jackie kicked the ball again before looking to you. “Did she say anything to you? Did she try anything?”
I laugh to myself, the whole situation was honestly really funny, Jackie knew nothing happened she heard the whole thing unfold.
“No, Jackie. She didn’t. I only have eyes for you, Love.”
Jackie gave you a hard stare. “You sure?” She questioned, raising an eyebrow.
“Because you looked happy to be talking to her.” She said, looking down at her shoes still feeling unsure.
I walk closer to her and making her look into my eyes. “I love you.”
Jackie’s expression softened slightly when she saw your eyes. She still had her arms crossed, but she wasn’t looking away now. She knew that look in your eyes. It was the one that knew how to make her weak.
She sighed and wrapped her arms around your neck. Her body pressed against yours, and she leaned up to rest her head against your chest.
“Just don’t get close to that girl again.” Jackie mumbled against your chest.
“I promise.” I say as I kiss her head. “Now come on show me what soccer moves you got, Taylor!”
a/n: first writing post? basically me projecting cause I am Jackie and Jackie is me
kpopstan!jackie whos ult girl group is twice after she accidentally stumbled upon the cheer up music video and fell in love with it. Her biases being nayeon and/or jihyo because she loves their confidence and how they're not scared to be themselves.
kpopstan!jackie who forces you into stanning/picking a bias in every group she likes (if you already don't stan them).
"come on please, just pick one" she whines all pouty. You sigh "okay, I like them....I guess" pointing at the first member that caught your eye.
kpopstan!jackie who sends you pictures of your biases saying "this is literally us y/n."
kpopstan!jackie who hates boy groups with the exception of ones she finds really cute or ones she loves the concept of (e.g. nct wish, zb1, enhypen).
kpopstan!jackie who takes you on album unboxing dates, and if you pull her bias she begs you to trade and if you don't give in (you do) she plainly just steals it from you next time she's at your house.
kpopstan!jackie who likes to dedicate time to lay her head on your lap and watch new content her faves posted while you play with her hair, and listen to the occasional giggles she lets out when someone does something funny.
kpopstan!jackie who shows you pictures of her biases and talks about how pretty they are just to make you jealous so she can kiss it away when she notices how pouty you get.
kpopstan!jackie who makes the rest of the yellowjackets learn choreographies during sleepovers, assigning each of them a member.
kpopstan!jackie who loves watching edits of her favorite idols.
One time you catch her giggling and kicking her feet while staring at her phone, you look at her confused eyebrows furrowed "what are you giggling about?" She looks up, slightly startled by your voice "oh, you know....just this nayeon edit" she mutters barely above a whisper, patting the spot next to her. you give her a 'really' look and take a seat next to her. You both sit there, jackie leaning into you, your arm wrapped around her shoulders as you both watch edits together.
let me know how I did because I feel like I write like a six year old that just learned how to write
you guys do realize shauna was never gonna actually go to brown right.. i don't think her parents could afford it, i think the show establishes she grew up middle class and wasnt rich like jackie and she would not ask for them to pay that much bc going to an ivy league does not outweigh being close to jackie she would not STAND not seeing her for 4 years. their codependency is insane. funny thing is i don't think they would've worked as a couple even then :) not only bc jackie would not come out of the closet but the level of toxicity between these two is DEADLY they have a deep fucked up spiritual romantic psychosexual crazy jealous connection and both are emotionally constipated in their own ways. jackie literally killed herself before having a mature conversation with shauna. hahahaah isnt that funny :) they really are doomed ahahhahshandfmjwohe´´ew im totally fine thinking about this guys :DDDD
