#jee mains

[donyangie]

officially deleted tumblr off my phone (this is from my laptop btw), hadn't realized that i scroll this much😂 previous bad week has kinda bled into this one, i guess. i have at least four more of those 2 hour video lectures to finish, and i was supposed to be done with them today, but now i have no idea how i am going to do that. really tired right now,i really can't wait for jee to be over, yet i'm still so underprepared. hope this week gets better from tomorrow.

been listening a lot to:

[casiocalculator-fx82ms]

thinking about how 11th grade me could never imagine me actually enjoying the degree that i was forced to do; that even in this place of wrath and tears, you can find people to call your own, places where you are heard, and things that you've made that bring you joy.

to anyone currently going through the worst of our education system, keep faith. it does get better. keep calm and study on.

[history-nerd-science-major]

today i was standing outside my centre and i realized that i forgot to bring passport sized photos and i was like ohhh shit, so i asked a lady for her phone to call my mom [because phones aren't allowed] and obviously she didnt pick up, she was driving and i was like welp, thats my exam gone

so i went and asked the guard, i was like hey man i have my photo on my admit card but i dont have a passport sized one separately, what're we doing? and he told me to get it taken from that stall they'd set up nearby, so i went there and while i was on my way, that lady and her husband saw me and we like hey kid, you got money for that? and i was like no lmao [no cuz i was literally laughing, teeth and all; i was like here goes my exam hahaha]

as i reached the stall, they too got there with their kid and told the men who were operating the printers to print my photos too and i was like yo?????? and i told them no no please you dont have to, i'll manage somehow and the woman just took my admit card and handed it to the person at the stall

the photos were 10 for 60 rupees and i was like please, you really dont have to but both wife & husband told me its fine

i asked her for her number a billion times but each time i was shut down and i was having trouble believing that people like this still exist??? theyre helping me??? in 2026???? how is this possible

the husband paid for it in cash and i asked them if they'd be coming after the exam and they were like yeah but you wont be able to find us, it gets very crowded at that time [which is true]

the woman was like if you were my daughter, what would i do then huh?

in the end, i profusely thanked the woman and lowkey ran away [i didnt thank the husband 😭😭thank you my guy]

later, i told my mom this and she was like cool cool, i can pay the money back on the number i got called on and i was like ???? oh my god thats so right wHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT

[uselessbiscuitsoul]

Seeing the sheer amount of people I know who're preparing for competitive exams (JEE NEET) and used to be just average at and uninterested in those subjects scares me. I'm not calling them inferior, I'm saying they should go into stuff that they're actually good at, stuff I've seen them be passionate about. I'm so scared of what'll happen if my friends who spent lakhs of rupees going to coachings to prepare specifically for these exams don't get a good rank. Because the exams are fucking difficult, and the NTA is full of shit anyway. I don't wanna see my friends' mental health get destroyed over this, but that's what happens

[littlenerdstudies]

Major life update: Gonna take a drop year to prepare solely for my JEE exam

[shankhachil]

Countdown to JEE (Main): Week 2/33

I've done a lot this week! Hit almost all the topics I wanted to. You'll notice that there are some topics I've covered but not solved questions for — these are the ones I studied for the first time and/or made notes for.

Other than that, I have my school unit tests from next Wednesday, so there's that. Sadness.....

Test results:

Test at physics tuition center: 116/120, rank 1/67! Yay!

Aryabhatta National Mathematics Competition: score unknown, result expected on 10/07/2024.

Topics covered:

Physics: Potential and Capacitance; Electromagnetic Waves, Waves on a String; Modern Physics; Gravitation; Electromagnetic Induction (6/3)

Chemistry: Chemical Thermodynamics; Atomic Structure; Chemical Equilibrium; Halogen Derivatives; Solid State (5/3)

Mathematics: Differential Equations; Area Under a Curve; Applications of Derivatives; Determinants; Complex Numbers; Ellipses; Hyperbola; Binomial Theorem; Functions (9/3)

Questions solved:

Physics: - FIITJEE Electrostatics* module, Assignment section — 56 questions, 52 correct - Allen Potential and Capacitance module, O1 and O2 — 88 questions, 77 correct -FIITJEE JEE (Main) archives, Electromagnetic Waves — 12 questions, 10 correct - Allen Waves on a String module, O1 and O2 — 67 questions, 59 correct - FIITJEE JEE (Main) archives, Modern Physics — 40 questions, 34 correct - Allen Gravitation module, O1 and O2 — 61 questions, 55 correct Total: 383/60 questions, 287 correct *FIITJEE includes Potential and Capacitance under Electrostatics, while Allen does not.

Chemistry: - Allen Chemical Thermodynamics module, S1 and S2 — 40 questions, 37 correct - R. N. Sarin, Atomic Structure — 18 questions, 18 correct - R. N. Sarin, Chemical Equilibrium — 11 questions, 11 correct - Allen Halogen Derivatives module, JEE (Advanced) archives — 24 questions, 22 correct Total: 93/60 questions, 88 correct

Mathematics: - Allen Differential Equations module, O1 — 30 questions, 25 correct - Allen Area Under a Curve module, Do Yourself 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and O2 — 51 questions, 46 correct - FIITJEE JEE (Main) archives, Applications of Derivatives — 45 questions, 39 correct - FIITJEE JEE (Main) archives, Determinants — 22 questions, 17 correct - Yellow Book, Complex Numbers, single-choice questions — 20 questions, 17 correct - Pink Book, Ellipses, single-choice questions — 16 questions, 14 correct - Yellow Book, Binomial Theorem, single-choice questions — 15 questions, 12 correct - Pink Book, Hyperbolas, single-choice questions — 21 questions, 18 correct - Allen Functions module, O1 and JEE (Main) archives — 48 questions, 44 correct Total: 268/60 questions, 232 correct

GRAND TOTAL: 744/400 questions, 607 correct

Upcoming tests:

23/06/2024 (next Sunday) — Allen monthly test. Topics: Kinetic Theory of Gases; Physical Thermodynamics; Electrostatics; Potential and Capacitance; Current Electricity; Electromagnetic Induction; Alternating Current; Electromagnetic Waves; Waves on a String; Sound Waves; Ray Optics; Wave Optics; Circle; Functions; Differentiation; Applications of Derivatives; Indefinite Integrals; Definite Integrals; Area Under a Curve; Differential Equations; Matrices; Silicates; Molecules That Do Not Exist; Coordination Chemistry; Metallurgy; Electronic Displacement Effects; Halogen Derivatives; Atomic Structure; Chemical Equilibrium; Solid State; Solutions; Chemical Kinetics; Chemical Thermodynamics. Yeah. I've no idea how I'm going to finish the syllabus in time, since I haven't even started Coordination Chemistry, Metallurgy or Alternating Current — they finished the classes in Allen before I even joined the batch. Anyway, let's see.

That'll be all till next week — see you again!

[eveningview]

life was good when we knew AIR as hawa and not as All India Rank :(

[spacebetweenheartbeats]

...and i fucked up my jee.

i quit, man. im giving up on god and im so tired of my efforts never giving fruit and im so tired of constantly asking and never receiving and im tired of spending 18-20 hours to get this as my result. im going to kill myself, frankly.