Hi so long story short shipping jesslupe and the way its made me imagine my butch4butch dreams for the first time is making me realize i for sure want to get sober bc ive been numbing out bc i haven’t been being myself and i wanna explore being my #trueself while im actually mentally present for it but addiction is a thing sooooooo im going to rehab later this week
And i decided im gonna become a contributing fandom member fucking finally while im there lol
My resources are limited i will not have internet access for a while
But theres still so much i can do music, writing, art stuffs
So im gonna keep a running list of things i wanna try to work on while im there and im posting it to hold myself accountable
Plus representation fucking matters and my story as a jewish queerio child of queer mamas and person who’s been put away in the psych system and stuff like that is super valid and matters
Idk im rly nervous about going to rehab sorry im being a nerd lol just tryna psych myself up
But some things i would looove to work on are:
-drawings! And paintings! I rly just wanna try to art, i need to find pics probably and print them out for reference bc i wont have internet there lmfao *shows up to rehab with a giant stack of pictures of girls playing baseball nbd*
-a friends to lovers fic idk what genre yet but i just wanna ok
-a song about how jesslupe has awakened this ferocious butch4butch energy in me lmao nobody can stop me
-a fantasy au fic! Idk what yet maybe crossover maybe just witchy vibes but something spoopy and fun :))
-a fic with a song in it that im gonna write that one if them writes about the other in the ficverse NOBODY CAN STOP ME FROM BEING THE EMO BITCH I AM DEEP DOWN🖤
-i kind of want to write a fic about them meeting in a psychiatric setting is that so fucked???😬 like i dont wanna inflict that on u all but i feel like it could be rly healing to write idk if i will publish this one lol
-fic where someone is coaching someone else on how to flirt with girls, with the obvious undercurrent that they are both in fact girls and so maybe theyre actually just flirting with each other? this is inspired by my bff and ex who i was talking with the other day and had this dynamic with and we were laughing about it and i was like lmao im writing a jesslupe fic about this so now i have to so i can show her😊
-pwp idk what yet but if im gonna dive in might as well be on the deep end amiright🤷🏻
-gender stuff of any and all mediums just like all the butch/enby feels are gonna get artified
-a personal essay about aloto and my experience watching it with my mamas and realizing so much about my own queer identity but also still having so many questions
-a jo/maybelle fic that is deeply emotional but also gratuitously porny sorry not sorry😂 (what is this ship called bc i vote joybelle)
