Okay, so I know that no one (besides me) really cares. But in honor of it being four years since I first started posting "I Don't Want to Live on the Moon", I wanted to do some reminiscing, and talk about some of my favorite things from that story!💙💙
This is probably gonna be a long post, where all I do is just talk about my own fanfiction and/or writing. So I'm just gonna add a cut here, just so that I don't accidentally eat someone's dash or something. lol
Okay. SO, for anyone who doesn't know, "I Don't Want to Live on the Moon" (IDWtLotM for the sake of my sanity while typing this) is the first fic in my SG1 AU "Seeing Down Alternate Paths". It can be read as a standalone fic though, I think. It wraps up nicely, if you don't want to read the whole series.
IDWtLotM is one of my favorite things I've ever written. (Although there are things that I think I could definitely do better now, but, hey. WHatever.) And I have so many thoughts on things that no one ever mentions.
Until now.
First up, a couple parallels!! These were intentional things that I just love.
In chapter one, Jonas wakes up in the infirmary alone before Jack finds him and talks to him. Then, in chapter nine, the rest of SG1 took turns sitting with him in the infirmary so he wouldn't wake up alone... then Jack sits with him and talks to him when Daniel runs off to get Frasier.
>> This is one of my favorite parallels in the fic, just because of the way it shows how much Jack has always cared about Jonas. He went to check on him after the surgery, and was never going to leave him alone. Admittedly, this parallel is pointed out in the fic itself. (The situation in chapter nine is referred to as being "very familiar",) But regardless, I think that it's a fun one.
In chapter one, when Jonas mentions the possibility of Daniel coming back it's in Jack's POV and he thinks "Daniel, back?" Then in chapter five when they find Daniel again he has the parallel thought of "Daniel, back."
>> This one is pretty basic, too. I just love how the most important part of it to Jack can be explained in two words. Daniel. Back.
In chapters one, five, nine, and ten, Jack gets slowly more fed up with trying to convince Jonas that he's a wanted part of the team.
>>Okay. Admittedly this is less of a 'parallel' and more of a 'running thread'. But I just really love the way I wrote Jack being annoyed with Jonas and his inferiority complex.
Next I have a few different quotes/scenes that I'm really proud of!
From chapters four and nine, the times that Jack lists bad things that happened to SG1 over the years,
“No Goa’uld. No Ancient diseases. No brain tumor visions. No radiation poisoning. Nothing dangerous or exciting at all. Why can’t every off-world mission be like this?” — Chapter four 'Calm Before the Storm'
“Every. Time. I am done dealing with this. Being taken over by rouge goa’uld, anything with that Ma’chello guy, light that causes suicide, that tv show they made about us, radiation poisoning, ancient diseases, prophetic visions. And now this. I’m done. Bubble wrap for everyone.” — Chapter nine '*cough* *cough* I'm sick *sniff*'
>> I may just be a sucker for a good moment with a list. I'm really happy with those. From what I remember, those were some of my favorite moments to write. They make me giggle. :) :)
From chapter three, Jonas' thoughts regarding Daniel, and the first mentions of "loyalty and capability",
Jonas looked up at the ceiling, his thoughts drew back farther than they had in a while, to Dr. Jackson. He didn’t really get the chance to know the archeologist, but he felt like he knew him well through the impact that Dr. Jackson had on the SGC as a whole. Even in Jonas’ own life, Dr. Jackson made a difference. Without Dr. Jackson, Kelowna would’ve probably blown itself away, and Jonas never would’ve become a part of SG1. He never would’ve been a member of his team. Jonas owed Dr. Jackson his life for that. And in a way, that’s why he did what he did, that was why he left his planet, and came to Earth. — Chapter three 'Pennies'
One of the perks of being from his homeworld, was that the ideals of loyalty and capability were ingrained into him from a young age. Kelownan culture looked at those two things as the models of a perfect society. And now? He was unloyal to his own planet, and incapable of even keeping his own fish alive without help. — also Chapter three 'Pennies'
>>Part of me just really loves writing Jonas angst I'm pretty sure. I'm really proud of the way I described his almost parasocial relationship with Daniel. And also. Everything about "Loyalty and Capability" started with one little line about him feeling bad about his fish....which then ended up becoming the entire ideology of Kelowna lol.
And the first conversation with The Void from chapter ten,
Jonas walked on, aside from the two strangers, the Base was seemingly deserted. “Where did everyone go?” He asked, hoping for an answer from someone.
“The question is rather, why are you here?” The Void responded.
“I haven’t decided to leave. Not yet.” Jonas tried to defend.
“But you did. Don’t you remember? Silly little Langaran. You went back to help your people. You left Earth, and never came back.” The Void chuckled at Jonas’ forgetfulness. “So, the question remains. Why are you here?”
“I’m here because I want to come back.” Jonas answered.
“I see.” The Void seemed to nod at him. “Why is that?”
“Because Earth is my home. Just as much as Langara was, Earth was too.” Jonas said, trying to convince the Void to let him come back.
“If it is permission you’re looking for, I cannot grant it to you Quinn. To return is something that you must do for yourself.” The Void told him. “You must lie in the bed you make. How you make it though, is up to you.” — Chapter ten 'What's Next?'
>>I won't lie. The Void is probably the most interesting character that I've ever made up for a fanfic. It isn't one that I use a lot. But there's just something special to me about the way I wrote this first conversation.
Tbh, I don't remember a whole lot of the thought process that went into writing this fic. (Because it was four years ago.) But I do remember that it was one of the first fics I was really excited about actually completing. This is the first fic that @deaths-true-mortal-enemy ever betad for me. And I owe a lot of the fics I write now to this one for being such a big deal at the time. Even if it is only ten chapters, and eighteen-hundred words. It's my first (and only) completed "longfic".
This is probably a silly post to make. And I know I'm getting a tad bit sappy here at the end. But even still. I just wanted to point out that I'm proud of myself for making at least one pretty good fanfic.
You'll never convince me that Jonas wasn't touch-starved to some degree after 3 MONTHS of being isolated in the SGC when presumably most people did not like him very much.
Do we ever get confirmation (in the show or otherwise) that Jonas is alive and well after the Ori conquered his homeworld? Or is it never brought up again?
(also if anyone has any fan theories about what he's been up to feel free to share them)
