#jonathanantoniolopez

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To my Surprise

I walked in to find

Rose petals torn

in my bedroom floor

a faded ruby red

with hues of earthy tones

along with a shade of scarlet

no longer breathing.

The tears falling from his face

without shame he embraces his shirt

to dry his tears, but

more seem to escape as he realizes

he misses you.

Preserved in his thoughts

your memory will be

his heart fought & lost

our lives meant to meet - destiny knows

A parting conversation

not fully aware

our last words, uttered

in silence

nothing could repair.

— Jonathan A. Lopez

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drink water instead

Coffee shop pedestrians looking to find their early "kick" full of airs, full of fantasies they're just getting coffee others go in for the silence & find none a creative outlet to vent out the smoke of their steaming head like a train in full force great smiles some to themselves to find a character to study I'd come back again each interaction simply cohearsed by a product let me find a coffee shop chill and with no bullocks.

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One on

Abstract art surrounds the temple followed his heart to where he wondered "stage center" Mind makes thoughts free or inprison them meditating on the meaning time is just an element to follow by When was he chosen til tears dry the brain keeps frozen New color comets space shall remain Eyelids meet til we court the heaven's again

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Tender Pencil Searchings

The paint brushes through the paper like a forgotten lover In his position; love is love there is no other Softness settles in the rouge of the cheeks

A visagé unknown to you searching for the lips of a tender apocalypse brushing my locks of the pitch-black kind No going forward but avoiding rewind

I embrace the palpitating of the restless heart Stars recounting the tales of lives past foretold

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Never knew

I never knew what i wanted I'm one of those guys that is terribly afraid of letting someone in I rather have my heart-broken - to being worshipped the lies i try to tell myself to make the days go by Getting used to feeling alone but secretly wishing you and me were on the phone talking of stars and planets, dirty laundry and promiscous thoughts late night and dinners when we played with our tank tops Off and on, was I interested dont play with people's emotions riding through the waves taking our daily dosage I'm obsessed with being with someone and yet afraid of someone loving me contradicting the body with the mind's plague Boys boys boys, what to do when they have you on your knees "I'm not about that" I say I'm not thinking much just you and I today I want my guy to know, I want my boyfriend to see that even though I'd be lost without his company I can be Today, tomorrow, perhaps in some eternity I can shoot myself to another dimension with your drug in my vein when will loving you cease the pain

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Guarded on emotions

Overthinking why do we do this to ourselves I yawn - tired of these pointless songs my favorite one I dont recall I will be honest, when I'm with you I dont know how to feel Not used to someone being all for me, hands and heels I dont want to believe that I am leading you astray trust me the less I do the less time to pay you ask for me and the time that I dont want to give I need space from everyone including you time for "my" thoughts and assessment of my emotions Thinking of space and the less air I taste you're great, you're full of sweet words your mouth is a water-fall of compliments that speak of thirst my skin is red; blush in certain places I walk with strangers, ohh so familiar faces I close my eyes lose myself and let my thoughts free afraid of the stories and who's walking back company you open doors with your beautiful eyes I close hearts afraid of my own truth forgive me young lover inexperienced i must be our acquaintance was of friendship didnt we agree now the deed is done your crushing on me I prayed for someone to help me, now were on a journey and i must leave

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Rotten Apple

It seems now I'm on this carousel ride I'm afraid, it may not be like this for long eventually it may turn into a roller coaster one with an expiration date If i had a choice to learn from this I'd choose a novel and learn from that learning and experiencing most often times get people hurt I know of touch I know of thunder with you my friend I've made a blunder No mistake nor an error A moment in time to teach me of a Pharoah I bit into you An illusion I may have given you Where have I learned this before Is it my fault, from a woman or a curse Pretty are the moments with you I foretell sadness and disappointment from and you I'm truly not one to bare or better yet cope - its time Fresh and fruitful your garden seems Have you met the snake that Eve came to see

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Will it be Lasting

You finally got it kid someone lusting for your love where is your heart he's interested, invested I might say I dont know I am afraid, or just unsure of how to handle such devotion I'm in disguise from myself hiding from all the commotion Its cute and its sweet I came to think about "it" happening I dont want it, I mean I do. I'm not ready. It needs to be different reckless abandonment of one's vices' should not be handed so easily serving it on a platter, have him court you so it matters Awaiting for the morrow for my heart and soul what shall they borrow a kiss, perhaps a touch of skin or just a tear from your's to him enjoy the space its your freedom from ectasy because when you return will it be long lasting or just a never-ending fantasy