I've never been able to interact with the Until Dawn kin community because every single one of my sourcemates I met have been uncomfortable acknowledging their parts in my sisters both dying.
Hannah and Beth died for nothing. Over nothing. And it was all our faults.
We were shitty, messed up teenagers, me especially and I take full responsibility for my negligence and for not being able to stop what happened. What happened was horrible and the past can't be undone, but I refuse to act like nothing happened, I refuse to disrespect Hannah and Beth like that.
Believe it or not, despite the anger, I do still miss all my friends a lot. I just wish they'd understand where I'm coming from instead of demonizing and vilifying me. All I want is them to apologize and take accountability for their actions and mistakes. I want us to all heal and grow, to be better, to never treat anyone as poorly as we treated each other.
I hate you all, but I miss you and love you just as much too.