Journal 35
I mean, god forbid something like that does happen to me and Trent, I couldn't end it with him. I couldn't do it, I love him more than words can say. He's my rock. I know it would be hard to do but I would stay with him we would make it work and I would do EVERYTHING I possibly could to find my way back to him. I hope that's what Adam and Jesse do, to find a way back to each other somehow, whether it be Adam comes back or Jesse goes to him. Which I don't understand why he didn't but that's none of my business so.
But I just, I wish there was more I could do. Trent and I will be there soon, I do want to talk to Adam one on one and try to help, however I can. I'm gonna try and help him find a way back if it kills me. Those two...I know Jesse hates me and I dislike him, note I said DISLIKE, but those two...they need to be together, Trent was on the phone with Joey today and he was saying that Jesse was happiest when he was with Adam. I care about Adam, he's my friend and is helping me deal with the Terri situation and my relapse. I don't know what I'm gonna do yet...but I'm gonna help him...somehow.
I'm just gonna cuddle with Trent now. After thinking about this whole thing...I just need to be in his arms and just know he's not going anywhere. That's what we're doing tomorrow, just cuddling and staying together we'll watch some movies I just...I thank god everyday that I have him. Maybe that's why I'm in Ohio of all places...to find him. I'm just gonna go now.
