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Journal I: The Wonders of Freud
SIGMUND FREUD was a prominent figure, in which Kael hearing since then even in the books he is reading, specifically, the Sherlock Holmes.
Interestingly, the great Sigmund developed Psychoanalytic theory, in which states that unconscious mind affects the personality of person as he develop; and under this concept, the psychoanalysis is produced, wherein, it treats mental disorder/illness of the patients. This treatment is actually beneficial for the mitigation of human suffering as it enhances the life quality of every individuals by reducing the risk of getting unfortunate diagnosis with regards the mental health. And if only Kael would have a chance to try this, it would be a nice opportunity—take note; psyche therapy is not only for mentally disabled people, you can also consult in regular basis to improve your lifestyle.
Furthermore, there are three levels, according to the stated proponent, of mental health. These are the (a) unconscious, the area where it prohibits a person to reflect but processes in mind automatically occurs; (b) precociousness, it refers to the unconscious memory recollection, in which a person can recall anytime; then, the (c) conscious mind, wherein, it composed of all thoughts, memories, and feelings—and is far from oblivion. Alongside this topic is the structure of personality: the (a) id or the primary component of superego and the source of all psychic energy; (b) superego, it consist of standardized morality obtained from the family and society; and (c) ego, the structure that ensures the impulses of id to align with the norms of the society. Additionally, the first structure is entirely unconscious in nature, while the succeeding ones have preconscious, conscious, and unconscious characteristics. As Kael internalized these concepts, his mind wonder and ask himself the essence of this confusing terminologies. "Not as if I could use it when dissecting human's organ", he thought himself. However, kidding aside, it is a substantial inputs to turn into best version of ourselves. Think of it, if humans would know this, they will probably know how to control their instincts towards the realistic and socially acceptable acts; however (again), it has the capability, if handled in improper manner, to transform a person into manipulative kind and may undergo in role crisis. Then, denials or defense mechanism will make its appearance—as the people avoid the naked reality.
Moreover, Sigmund Freud identified seven defense mechanisms that humans encounter on a regular basis throughout their lives. First, (a) repression refers to the storage of unpleasant memories. In this regard, Kael explained that it is the veiled trauma, wherein, the inner self of the person helps him to ease the pain of the experience. The (b) displacement or redirection of hostility from one source to another follows. Whenever Kael felt bad about something, this was his usual defense mechanism. "Yes, it seems so toxic", Kael's monologue. Back in the 9th. grade, his friend expressed something bad about him. And as a person with a genuine feelings, of course, it would ruin his mood and boil his temper. As a result, he vents out his rage at the quiz questionnaire assigned to him, where, at the time, no one received a single point due to the difficulty and restrictions. Then, the (c) rationalization—the poor justification of undesirable behavior.
Fourth, there is (d) denial, the practice of ignoring obvious reality in order to avoid tension. During the enrollment season, Kael was dramatically stressed. He was uncertain what would happen to his future after the universities he applied to turned him down. And the sole colleges he passed on was TIP, Saint Jude, and PLM, but he forgot to confirm his intention to enroll in the third one, so the slot for his desired program was forfeited due to his own negligence. "No nights are spent without tears that time", he recalled. he had developed insomnia, he ate less than usual, and he could not find enlightenment. He wants someone to talk about it, but he cannot just afford to let his friends worry about him. Thankfully, he discovered One Piece, he used to rant about it being long and overrated. But in fact, it empowered him a lot, as in big time. At night, he is spending his time watching it and choose to ignore the inevitable reality, while doing everything in the morning to find his track once again. "This is not the path I had envisioned for myself, but maybe one day, with my conviction and willpower, I will become what I want." With funny tears on his cheeks, Kael vowed.
(e) Regression, on the other hand, is the next defense mechanism that involves changes in behavior pattern from matured one towards the earlier stage of development. As a matter of fact, Kael knew someone who had gone through something similar. A guy named Edgar, he is a man who is using illegal wiring connections for a living. One day, he touched a high voltage wire or known as the 'live wire'. He fell from the electricity post down to the ground. After that, he lay low from his so-called business until we learned that his mentality had reverted to that of a five-year-old, according to his daughter. "No regret saying this, but I think it is a karma that would bring peace into his life", Kael's sentiments regarding the unfortunate incident.
Sixth, the (f) reaction formation or the foolish slash cringey-in-some-way defense mechanism, according to Kael, it is the display of behavior that is diametrically opposed to the person's true intention. The final one is projection, which is the unconscious absorption of unwanted emotions from oneself to another. In other words, this is the act of a suspicious person blaming his wrongdoing on someone else. For an instance, a famous childhood behavior with siblings; when Kael was young, he and his brothers could be seen redirecting blame to each other to avoid punishments, even though one of them was actually at fault.
The examples stated in the defense mechanism may sound not validating the seriousness, warning, it appears this way only in this blog. In normal circumstances, especially in a professional setting like clinics and hospitals, these are crucial concepts that require emphasis for proper diagnosis of mental disabilities.
The next psychological development proposed by Sigmund Freud is the Psychosexual Stages, wherein, every stage represents fixation of libido on different areas of the body.
On the (a) oral stage babies experience pleasure through chewing, biting, sucking, and breastfeeding. Aside from that, there is a Filipino myth that if a child grows up sucking nipples or pacifiers, he will develop stutter speech, also known as being bulol. However, a child who is overstimulated at this age, according to Freud, may become cigarette and alcohol dependent as an adult. Next, the (b) anal stage, wherein, "this is the weird stage", Kael's thought. The pleasure is directed towards the anus, and defecating is overemphasized. Nonetheless, once the child has grasped proper potty training, he is more likely to become an anal-retentive person. However, if he starts messing around and neglects potty training, an anal-expulsive behavior will emerge. The third stage is the (c) phallic stage, in which the pleasure shifts to the genitals and establishes sexual attraction for the opposite-sex parent—a father and mother complex, they labeled. They are attempting to mimic the pattern behavior of the same-sex parent in order for the child to learn gender identity. Besides which, the term oedipus was coined for a young man with a desire on his mother, and for the young girl with a desire on her father is called electra complex. "This is strangely educational, huh," Kael remarked again. The (d) latency stage would be the next to last, which Kael would most likely relate to. This is the stage at which sexual energy is channeled into schoolwork, hobbies, and friendships; friends will then serve as figures to strengthen sexual identity. The last one is the (e) genital stage, "to which I cannot relate by definition”. Children develop a sexual interest in the opposite sex and place a higher value on heterosexual pleasure.
Upon learning the Psychosexual Stage of Development, Kael would conclude that this is weird acknowledging these concepts, but as what his teacher advised them back in junior high school, they should get used to it because the real world and the essence of knowledge is not truly censored.
In an exploration of the unconscious mind in order to cure, a therapeutic process is implemented with five parts. First, (a) the consistency and regular meeting of patients with the therapist who is maintaining neutrality and objectivity during sessions. Further, the (b) free association of thoughts and feelings towards the therapist; then, it will lead to the emergence of unexpected memories. Then, the (c) interpretation phase, in which the clients are aided to broaden their sense of lives and consciousness. Moreover, the (d) dream analysis, wherein, the therapists, believes that traumatic memories are expressed through symbolic forms within a dream; and it composed of two content levels: latent or the hidden but true meaning, and the manifest, where it depicts obvious meanings. The (e) analysis of resistance, on the other hand, is the slowest part of the stated process this is the stage where the person refuses to recall the past for some reason. And the last will be the (f) transference analysis, in which the patient claims to assumes that the psychoanalyst is a person from his past, and her initial reaction is to protect his feelings; however, the positive outcome is that the client becomes aware of his emotions, enabling to progress to the next stage of development.
The goal of therapeutic treatment is to reveal the unconscious mind of the patient and enrich the defense mechanism to be able to hinder the difficulties from occurring as it strengthens the ego of the person.
INDEED, the wonders of Sigmund has been a substantial part of human study from then on. Kael commends this individual for being great and creating an impact even after his death. One day, he will stand in front of Freud's books, and vow to continue protecting the mental health of mankind.
I suppose, since I've already posted something not very related to my shop, I should just turn this blog into a little.. journal thing of some sort. I'm still new to this, so I'm just going to experiment and whatnot
Anyways, I guess I should talk about my day
It was lovely! I managed to study a bit more and learn some interesting facts! I also had the opportunity to introduce a new drink at my shop, as well as get rid of some since it was suggested we did so. They weren't very popular anyway here since the tea shop across the way has some really great drinks similar to them. (Go check them out next time! They seem lovely!)
I might go in again tomorrow and set up the stage! It hasn't been used in forever, and I feel like now would be a good time since it's the holiday season. Stay tuned for acoustic music on stage from yours truly!
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Therapy rant one
So I just got suspended for the remaining time of my freshman year. The entire story was I had been sitting at the lunch table; two kids to my direct left, four across from me spanning down the seating. One got up, to get a spork or something. I didnt like this kid much, but I really don't do anything about my dislike; just tried to ignore him for the most part. So anyway, his friend who was across from me to my left kicked his lunch box out of the way, almost over to the table to our right.
So this kid comes back, (lets call him Broody) and he must think Im the one who kicked it, because he takes his leg and simulates kicking me (keep in mind, this is all going on behind my back)
I see the group across from me react to something; natural curiosity gets to me and I question "What? What happened?" A boy on the end of the table across from me and to the far left (Lets call him John) goes "Bro he just tried to kick you." When Broody sat back down in his seat across from me, instead of immediately reacting, I decide to make sure this really happened and I ask "Hey, Broody; did you just try to kick me??"
Broodys automatic response was "Yeah, what are you going to do about it?"
I reached over and punched him once, clean; right in the mouth. The entire lunchroom responds, screaming at me and telling someone to "knock that bitch out."
Finally, the disciplinary walks in (Lets call her Nolet)
She brings me to the office, and decides to call the cops. Half an hour later, after the officer (lets call him officeer Heart) has gotten his reports from John, Broody and other witnesses that had seen it all go down, decides to let me go; i didnt lie, it didnt cause a disturbance to the school programs, and it did not have any cause for an immediate emergency response.
Keep in mind, Im no small woman; I stand at exactly six feet tall, two hundred and ten pounds and am a boxer, volleyball player, softball player, and basket ball player. And this is also not the first (physical) incident I have had at this school. No surprise, the disciplinary was sick of me getting physical with others.
She decided I needed to be suspended for the remainder of my fresshman year.
I honestly dont know why Im telling you this; nobone will see this, no one will care. I just feel better after having typed this all out. I will most likley be doing bi-weekly updates for myself, just so I can have something or someone know whats going on.
Journal #1
Although I get really sad sometimes, I have to acknowledge the strength inside me that I haven’t truly recognized before. All those times I thought I was alone, I was wrong; I have myself, my greatest companion on this journey through life. If I do not rely on myself, love myself, take care of myself, and overall nurture and promote growth within, how will I be able to make this world a better place or do these things for the people I love?
I’m going to start writing these little journals on Tumblr to get myself back into writing. The past few nights, I kept telling myself to write about how I have been feeling in my notebook, but I always find some excuse to put it off. Fuck that, I’m not going to put anything off anymore. I’m finding a way to get what I want and do what I want for myself and those I keep close to my heart.
May the month of November hold many happy days and many newly written words by yours truly!
Journal
Day One | 5/30/16
Memorial Day and as usual Vex was stressed out and avoiding people as much as possible, as Vex’s uncle and aunt on their father’s side show up every year but never gives a heads up exactly what day it will be. However, this year, one of their aunt and uncle on their mother’s side decide to show up to, and it was too much for Vex. That evening Vex’s mom decides to go visit her sister, brother-in-law, and mother, then invites Vex along, which they do to be nice. It was fine until the very end when Vex’s grandma decided to start a confrontation about how much Powerade Vex drinks. Honestly. I don’t understand how people can be so ignorant.
April 3rd, 2016 -11:21pm
This is my first journal. My first of many hopefully. I’m taking a break from my math homework to post this. I wanted my first journal to be special, but honestly that just wouldn’t be me. I want to be raw and uncut about my life and my days as I journey through life. This blog is mostly for myself so I can go back and read about how I felt on this day years from now and see how much I have grown. So lets start this journey.
Today was just another boring day. I sat on my bed watching Ghost Adventures and doing homework for pretty much the whole day. I took frequent breaks to watch my daily YouTube videos that I subscribe to. Todays focus on homework was math. Math is my worst subject. I’m more of the reading writing type. I am in no way a mathematician, I don’t think I will ever be honestly. My mood has been pretty up and down lately. I got really angry today for some reason I don’t even remember at this point. I need to work on that. Lashing out when I’m frustrated is not the right way to deal. Oh well, I can just talk to my therapist about it when I go see her in a few days. As I type this my house is making weird noises and I’m kind of freaked out. I’m pretty sure I’m overreacting to the wind blowing outside(I am watching Ghost Adventures sooo). Hopefully it isn’t a demon. That would be a bummer. OH I keep forgetting about the fact that I should be getting my FitBit in the mail soon, my cousin said he would put it in the mail earlier in the week, I’ve checked everyday since then and it has yet to come. Maybe tomorrow.
-Taylor