#journalsofanaesthete

[stainedpoetry]

I really love the idea of romanticising life but not in a way perceived on social media where it all feels like a compulsion of looking cute, clicking cute pictures and loving things. Honestly romanticising doesn't mean any of that, it's not about loving things forcefully but about appreciating things. It's about finding beauty in the chaos and celebrating it instead of waiting for a perfect moment or a perfect place. The idea of romanticising life is more about finding moments of peace in your daily life instead of wishing to escape your life. It could be you just drinking a cup of coffee on a morning but without any anxiety in your gut, it could be the colourful sky at the time of sunset, it could be you journaling in your cute diary, it could be the whispers of gentle breeze, it could be a mere look at the sky. Romanticism saves people by actually filling people up with so much of gratitude for everything and everyone.

[whatsleftofdishaa]

If you could change one thing about yourself then what would it be?

One thing I could change about myself?? simple, my height. I am too short so I would want to be taller.

no wait, I would want to change the texture of my hair. Its too frizzy, I want it to be smoother and straighter.

wait sorry again but this is it, I would like to change my teeth. They are all zigzag and I really don't like how they look when I laugh.

okay I swear this is finally it, I would want my face to be symmetrical because whenever I click pictures my one eye looks smaller than the other.

Shit no...this one yess this one it's................honestly this is all false.

If I could change one thing about myself, honestly....I would want to forget all the trauma that I have ever gotten in my life. I would want to forget all the negative and mean things people have said to me on my face or behind my back that I obviously found out about. I would want my brain to stop overthinking. I would want to forget what anxiety feels like. I would want to forget the feeling of breathlessness you get in the middle of a panic attack when you are trying to stand but you keep falling because you can't find something to hold on. I would want to stop my brain from comparing myself with the people I see on social media. I just wish I would have been more kind to my teenage self.

[stainedpoetry]

I think the best thing that our generation has normalised is having "online friends" . The bond created with these people is not based on their looks or their status but on the basis of their likes, their personalities, their favourite fandoms and their interests. You might have never shook hands or hugged them but still you are more comfortable telling them about your stupid mistakes and stupid jokes. The best thing about these friends is you don't have to meet them regularly to keep your friendship alive. And it's also the worst part not getting to meet them regularly or even once a week or once a month. From meeting them in the comment section of a meme to listening to their rants to updating them about our lives, online friends become our forever friends. It's a different kind of friendship but it's the cutest no pressure of any sort just two people sharing bits and pieces of their lives with each other and supporting each other.

[stainedpoetry]

People don't look beautiful because of their looks. They look beautiful because of their perspectives and thoughts. They look beautiful because of the way they treat people, the way they talk about things, the way they care about their loved ones, the way they appreciate art, the way they share their stories and the way they listen to yours. They look beautiful because of the things they do, the songs they listen to, the movies they watch, the books they read and most importantly because of the things they say.

[stainedpoetry]

Poetry is the only way for me to scream without making any noise.

[stainedpoetry]

You probably don't believe this but there are a lot of people who silently adore and admire you. Who silently wish they could have your eyes, who silently love your hair, who silently like your smile, who silently desire to be as kind as you, who silently admire the light you bring along, who silently adore the way you talk and the way you think. They might shy away from saying this to you but the universe knows. Universe have heard things you haven't. And that's why universe has been kind to you because you have been kind to it's creations.

[stainedpoetry]

Writers and poets are actually insane. They write their truth and call it art, so no one knows about their insanity.

[stainedpoetry]

You are not just a person. There's a whole universe inside of you. A universe which is a collection of all the books you have read, all the stories you are to tell, all the sunsets you have admired, all the restless nights you have survived, all the compliments you have received, all the kindness you have given out, all the light and darkness you have seen, all the versions you have been, all the poems you have written and all the perspectives you have seen. You are a composition of the life you have lived and will live.