#juliansbennet

[bxstvrd]

✉️ : ))))))

send me a ‘✉’ for five times my muse didn’t text yours, and one time they did.

february 19, 2017

[UNSENT 11:32am] everyone likes you. it’s so fucking annoying. can you... do less??

september 3, 2018

[UNSENT 01:49pm] what did i do to make you hate me? you must hate me. otherwise why the fuck would you have made me look so stupid? i’m not cool or effortless or graceful like you, and we all know it, but of course, you couldn’t just leave it alone. you had to rub my nose in it, and in front of orson no less. well. it’s a two way fucking stre

march 28, 2019

[UNSENT 08:37am] if i was nice to you, would you be nice to me back? i think the answer is yes. and if the answer is yes, i’m a terrible fucking person.

august 31, 2019

[UNSENT 06:30pm] your family sounds like they love each other. maybe that’s why i hate you so much. well no i don’t hate you. i don’t know how to breathe around you. you take up all this space and air, and i want it back and it’s been less than twenty four hours, and i can already tell that living with you is going to make me feel like shit about myself all the fucking time and that’s not your fault, but it’s easy to make it your fault and i’m sorr

 october 1, 2019

[UNSENT 11:46am] yes. i was crying. no. you don’t get to ask me why. we’re never talking about this again.

november 23, 2019

[UNSENT 04:13pm] am i a bad person?

february 4, 2020

[DELIVERED 09:21pm] [giantshowercurtain.png] [DELIVERED 09:21pm] thoughts on hanging this up in the middle of the room when we get back so we never have to see each other again?

[pvlmer]

malcolm and horatio

@aldysfool

malcolm: what does honor mean to you?

“i think honor is...” jason’s voice trails off for a second as he tries to think of a way to eloquently describe such a complicated concept that he’s not quite sure he’s ever gotten the grasp of. “i think honor is trying to live your life as honestly as you can and working as hard as you can. honor isn’t really about the awards and the praise, it’s about the work that goes into everything. honor is about giving it your all.”

horatio: who do you love the most?

“nate,” jason answers almost as quickly as the question is asked. it’s like second nature to him. “i mean he’s my brother and as much as i resent him sometimes, he’s my family. he’s the only who can make me laugh after a bad day and he’s the only one who gets what it’s like to be raised by our parents. of course, he doesn’t really get it the way i do but still...he’s like my best friend.”

[teddynewell]

Lab Partner/Elevator/McDonalds Trainer: Mathias, Chandler, Nate

lab partner: chandler. there’s something about these two that just screams “power team” when they are together. they could get straight A’s on perfect experiments or burn down the whole school. there’s no inbetween.

elevator: nate. do you know all of the things these two can be up to while locked in an elevator for hours?! one thing’s for sure, there won’t be a dull moment while they’re in there.

mcdonalds trainer: mathias. teddy would be too scared of him, probably. but he will listen and take in every word, write down every detail. lest the french fries aren’t crispy enough.

[harryzhangs]

leading man, temptress, & understudy

THE LEADING MAN: if you could play anyone in any form of media, who would it be and why?

“beatrice in much ado. i don’t know, i’m just drawn to those kinds of outspoken heroine roles. and much ado was the first of the comedies that i ever read, so i’ve got a soft spot for it. i know the shakespeare choice is predictable, but if my dream role isn’t shakespeare, then i’m at the wrong college.”

THE TEMPTRESS: what trait are you most proud of?

“i’m a good fucking actor. like, i know i am. but i don’t feel a need to take up the spotlight, really. i thrive just as well when attention isn’t on me-- which, let’s be honest, is most of the time-- as when it is.”

THE UNDERSTUDY: who are you most envious of—real or fictional—and why?

“i was super jealous of the american twin from the parent trap who got to live in that amazing mansion in napa where her dad owned a fucking vineyard. i still want that life. i’m not sure who else i can say here, since i don’t really get jealous in real life-- that’s just not my thing.”

[saffijackson]

comic, stuntman, and utility

THE COMIC: what's the most ridiculous thing you actually attempted thinking it would work?

“Being in the closet. You think I’m joking? I really did try to be a cis boy in public for like, half my life. Me? A cis boy? I have to laugh.”

THE STUNTMAN: are you an optimist? why or why not?

“No. I wouldn’t say I’m a pessimist either, though. I’m a realist. Unlike some people, I’ve actually lived a normal person, unsheltered life, so I know what the world is like. There’s no point in making it seem any better or worse than it already is.”

THE UTILITY: do you usually instigate arguments or do you try to diffuse them? which would you prefer?

“Instigate! I love to start shit!”

[teddynewell]

What is the greatest accomplishment of your life? Would you like to be famous? In what way?

teddy smiles. at last, a question that he likes. “playing orlando in as you like it,” he answers, thinking back on his very first lead. “it was just a lot of fun, you know?” simpler times. when teddy had orson’s favor. “as for being famous, you know... i never cared so much about that. i don’t even have an instagram account. as an actor, i would just like to have a steady job. being able to do plays that challenge me and that i enjoy. making theatre available for others, taking away this pretentious vibe that seems to follow our art. if i’ll ever be famous, i hope it’s because of those achievements.”

[ofmadsle]

❥, ♡, ꕤ

❥ What is an instant turn-off for you?

“Being a slob. If someone’s got dirty finger nails or looks- and smells-like they haven’t showered in a week then gross, I will be swiping left. Even if it’s in person.”

♡ What is an instant turn-on for you?

“Get me a drink first! Haha, just kidding. It depends but a killer smile really does it for me when I’m first looking at someone to determine if I’d be into them like that. That, and if they can match my wit of course.”

ꕤ If you really love someone - would you ever lie to them about something? About what? Why?

“Maybe nothing too big- I don’t think hiding some personal stuff that I’m not comfortable sharing counts as lying exactly. But a small white lie here or there that’s relatively harmless, sure. I can lie a lot if I need to but if I love you then that meets you’ve gained my trust so I wouldn’t feel the need to lie with you for big things. You know?”

[harryzhangs]

What is your most treasured memory?What is your most terrible memory?

most treasured memory.

“i don’t know if this counts, because it isn’t just one memory. but growing up, my grandparents would always host a big family celebration for chinese new year, and those are some of my favorite memories-- making dumplings with my grandma before the rest of the family got there, helping her clean and decorate, being so stuffed with food from the various courses that i could barely move by the end of the night. my cousins and i used to sneak upstairs to compare how much money we’d all gotten, since we weren’t technically supposed to. and i’d make everyone watch me perform whatever shakespeare monologue or scene i’d memorized that month. we still do it every year, but it’s been at my aunt’s house since grandma died, and... it’s just not really the same, i guess. plus, i’m usually at school for chinese new year now.”

most terrible memory.

“sitting in planned parenthood by myself, waiting for them to call my name so the nightmare would be over. i mean, the procedure itself wasn’t as terrible as i was expecting, but the waiting... i’ve never felt more fucking alone in my entire life than i did that day. i’m usually pretty good at getting things done on my own, and i kind of prefer it, but not that. it was just the absolute lowest point in my life and i never want to re-live that feeling.”