this is pure fluff. gender neutral reader. he calls you love and you call him bunny. enjoy xoxo.
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You were strolling through a casual side quest on your favorite game, the world blocked out by your headphones. Your eyelids started to get heavier right before you felt a light touch on your shoulder. You paused the game, allowing your boyfriend to remove your headphones and wrap his arms around your shoulders.
“Done with the game soon, love?” Hyeongjun asked, his breath and long strands of hair tickling your neck. He placed a kiss right at the neckline of your shirt before you nodded.
“Was about to call it a night”, you replied, leaning into Hyeongjun a little.
“I put the kettle on”, Hyeongjun said, kissed your cheek and pulled away.
You shut down your devices and followed him to the kitchen.
“This one okay?” Hyeongjun called out, holding two mugs and a pack of tea you had stocked up on just yesterday.
“Perfect”, you replied, making your way around the space to find honey and oat milk.
Soon enough, you sat on the living room couch, holding a mug of tea in one hand and Hyeongjun’s delicate fingers in the other. Every now and then, you had to let go to stir your drink, and Hyeongjun would use the opportunity to do the same.
With a few sips left in your mug, you reached out to Hyeongjun and pushed a few strands of hair behind his ear. He turned his eyes from the series neither of you were paying attention on to you. His gaze was weighted with sleepiness, and you cupped his cheek gently.
“Tired?” you asked.
Hyeongjun gulped down the last of his drink before giving you a small nod and leaning back into your touch.
“Let’s get you to bed”, you said, took his mug from him and got up to bring it to the sink.
You both were silent while you got changed, washed your faces and brushed your teeth. Afterwards, you met in the bedroom, crawled under the covers and snuggled up in each other’s arms. You rested your head on Hyeongjun’s shoulder, able to hear his heartbeat and the slow pace of his breaths.
“Any plans for tomorrow, bunny?” you whispered into the fabric of Hyeongjun’s t-shirt.
“Stay like this all morning and get up at noon?” Hyeongjun mumbled against your hair. You tilted your head to kiss him before wishing him sweet dreams and allowing his steady heartbeat lead you to the next morning.
I have the biggest head canon that while junhan isn’t the most physically affectionate usually sometimes he’s just so overwhelmed with how in love with you he is and he just wants to hold you and absolutely cover you in kisses until you’re both giggly blushy mess
Puppy love Jun Han!
~Xdinary Heroes soft hours~
• I definitely agree! Jun Han is so gentle. Although he might seem quiet and reserved, that quietness is more likely patience, thoughtfulness, and I think you can see fondness in his eyes even when he isn't talking.
• However! Behind closed doors that fondness definitely gets externalized. (Not all of it because if you were to hear how much he thinks about you and how much he adores you in his head you'd probably faint.) Compared to the amount of thoughts he has in his head, his words are scarce... He'd probably say something like "you mean so much to me" but then no words would come out next so he'd have to show you it, showering you in kisses, clinging to you like you're the only safety he'd ever feel. I feel he'd also have a few thoughts of insecurity, of disbelief like "I can't believe you've chosen to give me your love every day." Being so observant, Jun Han definitely sees all you do for him, all the compliments trying to boost his self esteem, all the acts of service, all the compromises you make so you'd have time to spend together... And he'd have to express this gratitude somehow.
• He'd bury his face in your belly, gently running his hands down your sides and humming, almost like a car purring. When he'd look up at you you'd see sparkles in his eyes and the softest smile. Alternatively he'd also love to pull you close, drape your legs over his lap and lay your head on his chest. He'd lay kisses on the top of your head, on your forehead, on your temples, play with your fingers, and when your eyes would meet... He'd let out a shaky breath and say "do you know how cute you are?" making you giggle.
• I feel like Jun Han would also have moments of 'weakness' when meeting you, when he wouldn't pull away from a hug. He'd bury his nose in your hair and hold you, and after a while you'd begin to sway gently so the hug doesn't get too awkward.
• Sometimes he'd tackle you with affection too... Hear me out. You're debating something (I feel you'd do this a lot in the relationship since Jun Han is very smart.) and none of you want to back down.
"No it doesn't." Jun Han refutes.
"Yes it does." You don't want to back down.
"No it doesn't." He repeats, moving close to blow a loud kiss into your neck, making you fall onto the bed giggling.
"Yes it does!!"
"No it doesn't." He says, still gently, but with a smirk on his face as he begins to kiss you all over your face, until you feel his lips everywhere and you turn into a giggling mess.
"Fine, fine, you win!" You give up, and Jun Han flops on top of you and you've already forgotten what you were arguing about.
• Also he'll wrap you in blankets when watching a movie and get cuteness aggression watching your face peek out from the burrito you're wrapped in.
Hi hi hiii I love your work sm! You’re such a good writer!
I was wondering if you could write a story about Jun Han coming home late from practice and he finds the reader curled up on the couch asleep because they tried to stay awake for him? The way you write Jun Han is so sweet :(
No pressure if you don’t want to write this! I know requests can get overwhelming. Take care of yourself! 🫶🏻
sweet dreams
author's note. aaaah thank u sm :”( finally some xdh reqs, you don’t even know how happy i am hehe!! and thank you fmwmsbwiwnwm someone saying that i write an idol well is really my favorite thing to hear,, it’s just important to me to portray them well. so knowing that i succeed at that just makes me <3333 i hope you’ll enjoy this one!! :D
word count. 377, sorry it’s so short :(
pronouns . gender neutral
normally, the sound of front door opening would draw your attention.
jun han entered the room, slowly and as quietly as possible taking off his shoes. the guitar on his back gently rocked because of the movement so he took the case off, leaning it against the wall.
then he looked around, rubbing his cold hands together. he should’ve listened to you and brought his gloves. speaking of which… the light was on in the living room. maybe you were watching something?
but it was so quiet. the soft sound of his feet paddling against the wooden floor echoed through the room.
his eyes softened upon noticing your silhouette on the couch, blanket draped over your shoulders.
it was 2am and to be frank – he told you he’ll finish quickly. but one hour turned into two and then suddenly: into four.
jun han stepped closer and smiled upon seeing your cheek squished into the pillow. guilt washed over him for making you fall asleep in such an uncomfortable position.
your boyfriend kneeled down and poked your cheek gently, watching endeared how your eyelids opened slowly. then, your sleepy eyes lit up upon seeing him.
“ah, you’re back! i’m sorry for–” you started but were interrupted by a yawn ripping out of your body. jun han shook his head and reached his hand out.
“i’m sorry, baby. the practice stretched out… you shouldn’t have waited” he sighed and helped you stand up. his heart melted upon seeing how you clutched the blanket.
“but i wanted to” you grunted and rubbed your eye, letting him lead you to the bed.
“you’re so cute” he mumbled, placing a tender kiss on your forehead.
“how did the practice go?” you asked and let jun han tuck you into the warm, soft bed.
“amazing, sweetheart. i’ll tell you more tomorrow, hm?” he murmured and quickly went to the bathroom, changing into pyjamas.
once back, he didn’t even have a moment before your arms wrapped around his waist. jun han let out a cute chuckle and tucked a stray strand of your hair behind your ear.
“sweet dreams, baby” he smiled softly. you only hummed in response, going back into sleep. of course your dreams will be sweet with him by your side.
Han Hyeongjun x Reader
Word Count: 1,022
THIS FIC IS NSFW, MINORS DNI!!!
Warnings: Soft dom!Jun Han, fingering, biting, a little bit of voyeurism, Jun Han gets a bit mean with the teasing, implied round 2. If you think I missed any warnings, let me know!
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Fic is under the cut.
It was the last concert of Xdinary Heroes’ tour, and you couldn’t have been more excited. Not only did you have the time of your life traveling with your boyfriend and his bandmates, but you also couldn’t wait to get back home and have some quality time with Hyeongjun. Sure, the first thing the two of you were planning to do with that “quality time” was have sex, but it was still a relief to know that you would be able to go back to your apartment after the show instead of a hotel room or tour bus.
Every time you watched your boyfriend perform, you found it impossible to tear your eyes off of him. Hyeongjun had the kind of charisma that just drew you in whenever he was onstage, and you loved it. It also didn’t help that you tended to get distracted by how gorgeous you thought he was. It was obvious to anyone that saw how you looked at him, to the point that even his own bandmates teased him sometimes because they could see how in love the two of you were.
One of the things that you found really attractive about Hyeongjun was his hands. Just watching the way that he moved them as he played had your mind swimming with inappropriate thoughts more often than you wanted to admit. He always looked sexy when he played, and you loved showing him just how sexy you thought he was after every show.
When Hyeongjun made his way backstage, the first thing he did was look for you. When he found you in his dressing room, scrolling on your phone, he said, “I have some things I have to do before I can leave. You should go home, though, you deserve some relaxation. Ok?”
“You got it, honey,” you responded, quickly gathering your things so you could leave. Once you were home, you stripped and waited on your bed for Hyeongjun to arrive. Waiting for him when all you wanted to do was rip his clothes off and let him have his way with you was agonizing, but you did your best to be patient. After all, you knew that he would give you everything you wanted and more when he got home.
While you waited, you let your fantasies run wild. You thought about Hyeongjun’s hands, and how sexy they looked whenever he played guitar. As you thought about him, you couldn’t help but slide your hand down to where you wanted his hands the most. You slowly inserted one finger into your pussy, imagining it was his. After a few minutes, one turned into two. After a few more minutes, you could barely contain yourself, bucking your hips up and crying out in desperation. It felt good to have your own fingers inside of you, but nothing could compare to Hyeongjun.
Your solo playtime was interrupted by Hyeongjun clearing his throat and asking, “Well what is this? Poor baby got so desperate waiting for me she couldn’t help but touch herself?”
“’m sorry, Junnie, I just started thinking and couldn’t help myself.”
“Oh, really? What were you thinking about, sweetie?”
You looked away blushing and mumbled, “Your hands.”
“What was that? I couldn’t hear,” he responded with a teasing tone.
“Your hands,” you said, slightly louder. He laughed a little bit when he heard your answer. In response, you quietly said, “What? I like your hands.”
“Well then I guess I should put them to use, shouldn’t I?” You nodded, and Hyeongjun joined you on the bed. He gently moved your hand away from your pussy, replacing it with his. You let out a moan of satisfaction when you finally felt his fingers inside of you, loving the way he curled them as he fucked you. As he fingered you, you felt his mouth on your neck, biting and kissing every inch of you that he could reach.
Hyeongjun loved fucking you with his cock, but he loved fucking you with his fingers even more. You were significantly more responsive when he used his hands. Every time he got to see how much more responsive you were, it did wonders for his ego as well as his libido. The way you bucked your hips up in your desperation for more was adorable, and he loved how you sounded in bed. Hyeongjun would never tell you this, but he held the sounds that left your lips during your most intimate moments together in higher regard than his favorite song.
Your moans grew louder as Hyeongjun started to move his fingers faster. You knew that you wouldn’t last much longer, so you warned him. He stopped kissing your neck and you whined, but when he grabbed your chin, forcing you to make eye contact, the frustration you were feeling quickly turned to nervousness and arousal. It was almost too much for you to handle, and when he looked you in the eyes and said, “Cum for me, sweetheart,” you couldn’t take it anymore.
Your orgasm washed over you like the sweetest tidal wave, and you held onto Hyeongjun for dear life as he fucked you through it. Once the aftershocks subsided and your breathing returned to normal, he kissed you with a passion that made your head spin. When you pulled away, you smiled and said, “I love you.”
“I love you too, baby.” You smiled until he said, “I knew you liked my hands, but I didn’t realize just how much.”
You blushed and hid your face in his neck, whining at the teasing. The embarrassment only lasted for a moment, though, once you remembered that Hyeongjun hadn’t gotten any attention yet. The idea of making your boyfriend cum got you turned on all over again, and you took advantage of your position by kissing and biting at his neck. He let out a small moan at the sensation and said, “I hope you know what you’re getting yourself into, love.”
It was going to be a very long night for both of you, but you were both too turned on by each other to care.
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How are stans of different Xdinary heroes members like? A tarot reading ✨
Hello villains! And welcome to this tarot reading/ social experiment. This is the Xdinary Heroes version of the reading 'how are stans of different members like". You can find the Stray Kids and Ateez versions in my Masterlist!
Requested by @oraclekleo
For this reading, I have asked my cards three questions per member:
What are the stans of the member like in general?
What do stans of the member all have in common?
What about the member's personality attracts his stans to stan him?
And then you guys let me know if I have read your energy correctly and if you resonate with the reading!
I must say this is probably the most fun I've had with this specific kind of reading before. It was a rollercoaster of different personality types and I truly enjoyed it! Some were really cute and emotional and some were downright hilarious :))
Disclaimer: This is for fun purposes only and should be treated as such. Tarot can absolutely be wrong.
TW: mentions of anxiety. struggles and insecurities (and my sense of humor should also be included in the warnings lmao)
Gunil stans: The ones who shine in the dark
How are Gunil stans like in general? // Justice XI
Gunil stans are people that have already went through somewhat of a transformation in their life. They've done some self healing, some self growth exercises, they've already searched their past for the lessons they were meant to learn. They might come off as seasoned people, wise, strong, confident, patient and self compassionate. They are responsible and trustworthy, for they believe in fair play, and practice teamwork with true kindness in their hearts.
What do Gunil stans have in common? // VII of Swords, V of Pentacles
Gunil stans were stuck for a very long time with the wrong people. Maybe it's cliche to say, but Gunil stans are different. There's something different in their step, in their smile, in their words, in their actions, doesn't matter. Something is just different about them. And it wasn't seen well by others, so they might have been outcasted or felt misplaced for a long time. But once they're allied with the right people, they become an unstoppable force. Their minds are quick and crafty - they really know how to think outside the box - and their ideas are a spark of genius. Clever, sly and with an adventurous craziness to them, Gunil stans will prove everyone their path is just as valid as everyone else's, even if it is different.
What about Gunil's personality attracts Gunil stans to bias him? // IX of Cups R
It seems Gunil stans feel emotionally soothed by Gunil. Maybe it is his confidence, his bravery to take pride in who he is, his persistence, and the fact that he knows he deserves good things; these could be reasons why - to Gunil stans who might struggle with being able to define their own worth without the need of external validation - he might be a breath of fresh air. Or perhaps he's the right motivation, the role model people needed in order to realize their true potential and start being more thankful and loving to themselves.
Gunil stans might have prominent Libra, Aquarius, Taurus, Pisces placements in their natal chart.
Jungsu stans: The angels
How are Jungsu stans like in general? // The Sun XIX
Jungsu stans have a very warm and healing presence. They are kind and highly empathetic, reliable and extremely loved by their peers. (As they should be!) They love to take care of people's feelings, so that not only they can solve their problems, but also move on with a healthy heart. Gentle, considerate, supportive beings, they elevate the lives of all their peers. They shine the brightest, when they wear a smile on their faces, when they laugh with geniunity, and when their heart is bursting at the seams with kind love.
What do Jungsu stans have in common? // V of Pentacles R
Despite the bright exterior and the seemingly endless well of love they carry, Jungsu stans have gone/ are going through a lot more than meets the eye. There were moments when they were so hurt, so insecure, so stuck, even taking baby steps in life felt exhausting. But most likely on their own, they got back on their feet again. They are brave, resilient soldiers who always, somehow magically, can overcome and heal anything. One thing's for sure, there's a lot more to them than meets the eye, especially when it comes to life experience and wisdom (which then they use to elevate others!). Jungsu stans are very emotionally developed.
What about Jungsu's personality attracts Jungsu stans to bias him? // IV of Swords
For his fans, Jungsu time is healing time. His presence is very comforting to them, like finally coming home, to peace and quietness. His energy, his healing power, it is a crucial part of his fans' process of comfort and relaxation, and he gets them through the toughest of times. (Literally: emotional support human.)
Jungsu stans might have prominent Leo, Taurus and Libra placements in their natal chart.
I'm not kidding when I say this, this was so sweet I almost cried. Jungsu is such an angel
Gaon stans: The wild hearts
How are Gaon stans like in general? // The Star XVII
Gaon stans are quite the non-judgemental and open-minded bunch. They embrace uniqueness and eccentricity and live a life aspiring towards being original and free-spirited. They are friendly and carry a gentle sensitivity, that leads them to be very aware of the happiness of their peers. They probably show how much they care through humor, making people laugh or acting aloof.
What do Gaon stans have in common? // X of Wands R
Despite their goofy appearance, Gaon stans actually care way too much about things, they are in no way as carefree as they appear. They are so caring, and so selfless in fact, that it almost becomes detrimental to themselves and they need to learn how to put themselves first more often. But alas, they are extremely loyal and ride or die, would take a bullet for their peers any day.
What about Gaon's personality attracts Gaon stans to bias him? // Temperance XIV
Gaon stans feels as though Gaon somewhat completes them. Maybe he's the yin to their yang, or maybe they're so similar they can just melt into one singular energy. In any case, they feel in harmony with Gaon, like they can be themselves around him. (Read as: they vibe with Gaon really well.) I also heard "he's my spirit animal."
Just to let you know, I am laughing so hard right now this is so funny
Gaon stans might have prominent Aquarius and Sagittarius placements in their natal chart.
O.de stans: The little gremlins 😛
How are Seungmin stans like in general? // The Star XVII, V of Wands
Seungmin stans have a certain duality about them. They are both the kindest, most giving and generous beings on earth, but they also eat chaos on toast in the morning. They love helping people and solving conflict, maintaining the peace, but they don't waste a moment getting competitive or going to war for something they believe in. This paradoxical, complex personality might leave some dumbfounded, but it is also a their biggest source of charm.
What do Seungmin stans have in common? // King of Wands R, The Devil XV
As previously stated, Seungmin stans have many sides and a certain complexity, however one of those sides is definitely being playful. Seugmin stans are quite the little devils, they love teasing people, pushing their buttons and playing around with them (harmlessly of course!). Life with a Seungmin stan will never be boring, as much as it won't be peaceful either 😂
What about Seungmin's personality attracts Seungmin stans to bias him? // X of Wands R
Seugmin is the ideal type of many of his stans. Or perhaps, he's taught some of his fans what their ideal even looks like. But wether they knew what they wanted or discovered it through Seungmin, it is clear he holds some sort of ideal. (I mean, he is kind, caring, funny, fashionable, and he can cook? I don't blame you. He can have the perfect boyfriend award.)
Seungmin stans might have prominent fire placements or Capricorn/ Aquarius/ Pisces in their natal chart.
Junhan stans: The otherworldly ones
How are Junhan stans like in general? // The Hanged Woman XII R
Junhan stans are quite rebellious and they don't like the norm. Normal is boring, they seek the things that break the rules and bring more excitement and eccentricity into this society. They appreciate the art of thinking outside the box, finding loopholes and unpopular opinions. They won't be caught following the masses as they think independently.
What do Junhan stans have in common? // II of Swords R
Junhan stans have often felt at crossroads with other people. Like they're surrounded by the wrong people, like they are misunderstood or that they're just build different than everyone else. Perhaps they struggled a lot to escape their outcast reputation.
What about Junghan's personality attracts Junhan stans to bias him? // VII of Wands R
This reading was very interesting. I could feel from the hanged woman and the two of swords that this energy was looking specifically for an energy like Junhan's because of feeling misunderstood and stuck in the wrong place, and they were searching for liberation, aka someone who can finally understand them. I feel there's a heavy emotional connection here 😊 So, as stated before, to Junhan fans, getting to know him was somewhat of an Eureka! moment. An, ah (sigh) finally. Junhan makes it feel okay to be different. He gives strength and courage to his fans as much as the needed comfort. They can finally stop the foolish pretending society "needs" and just be themselves <3
Junhan stans might have prominent Leo, Libra or Pisces placements in their natal chart.
Jooyeon stans: The Fierce Goofballs
How are Jooyeon stans like in general? // II of Cups R, VI of Cups
Jooyeon stans are lovable little goofballs. They're cute and somewhat childish (in a good way) and people seem to quickly adore them. They might also get attached easily, too, or be the types to become inseparable from their friends. They love playing around and enjoying their life as if they are a toddler all over again, and make amazing friends to be around.
What do Jooyeon stans have in common? // The Emperor IV
At first, I interpreted this as stubbornness. Jooyeon stans might be quite fierce to deal with! Rawr 😂 But then I also saw something on the idea of confidence or cockyness. Perhaps their attitude is also full of cocky charm 😁
What about Jooyeon's personality attracts Jooyeon stans to bias him? // King of Swords R, Wheel of Fortune X R
From what I can see here, for many the attraction might have happened before even getting to his personality. People seem to stumble upon him out of sheer luck, and then he begins to have some sort of power over them. Wether it is his voice, his skills, his looks (or his eyes?) he seems to magnetize people in. When it comes to personality though, I'm seeing that his ability to be in the calm center of the storm is very appealing to Jooyeon stans. He's very laid back even in the most stressful situations, and this lack of overthinking and go with the flow attitude could be both admirable and comforting to Jooyeon stans.
When it comes to the natal chart of Jooyeon stans, I got into a bit of trouble because I was literally given 8 astrological placements 😂 (which only shows how broadly liked Jooyeon is. ) I'm gonna go on a limb and say the probably would be higher with the cards from the first two questions, that being prominent Cancer, Scorpio and Aries placements. (But just know, Aquarius, Libra, Gemini, Pisces and Sagittarius were also there.)
From what I've gathered it seems when it comes to XH as well, the stans seem to take after the idol!
Once more, please let me know who you stan and if you found this reading accurate! Let's discuss <3
ALSO TIP: If you're an OT6, you'll probably be a mix of all the readings.
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💌: ok my last rb’s put xh in my head and now i am having nasty thoughts sry!!!!!!!!
it’s no surprise junhan is a virgin, after all who would wanna go anywhere near his disgusting dick? everyone knows he’s a pervert bc he’s been caught watching hentai in class multiple times. he’s delusional and convinced that the pretty bimbo in his ap chem class is in love with him, wants nothing more than to ravage you in the middle of class so people know you belong to him. knocks your things off ur desk so he can stare at ur pussy when you bend over to pick them up, wondering which panties youre wearing today.
when he offers to tutor you because he knows you’re failing, you accept eagerly, asking how you can repay him for being so nice n he has a couple of ideas but decides to wait til you warm up to him before revealing them to you.
when the time comes he tells you there’s nothing he wants more than for you to suck him off n you giggle to urself because that’s all he wants? and junhan’s embarrassed bc he didnt know he could ask for more. you’re surprised to find out he has such a dirty mind n even filthier mouth, moaning around his length when he grunts n tells you he’s “gonna flood your mouthpussy with so much cum” obviously it’s a line from one of his favorite hentai videos, spewing more and more filthy phrases while you gurgle around his cock n choke on his dickmilk
Do you have any headcanons for pegging Jun han. I want him so bad 😵💫
OHHH BOIIII . DO I . DO I HAVE PEGGING JUN HCS.
edit: sooo this nearly turned out to be an oneshot. hope you like it either way <3 (i Loved writing it, thanks for the request!!)
junhan + pegging thoughts 💭💫
cw: smut, fluff kinda?, pegging duh, usage of "good boy", strap-on (+ mention of other toys), first time bottoming, the slightest bit of crying (/pos), a single hickey,
wc: 2,7k
minors dni
so. he suggested it first
after he came across some confirmations that both of you would enjoy it. two of those being:
the time he was shuffling through your ~toy box~ for a vibrator and happened to find a strap on. he immediately turned scarlet, making you worry for a second
"baby, are you okay? do you want to stop?"
"no, i just... uh, you have a strap on?" he lifted the harness out of the box, his statement sounding more like a question.
"oh yeah :-) can you please get the purple vibrator though? we don't have all day >:-("
he very soon forgot about it, until the time your fingers went too low during a blowjob and he nearly jumped out of his skin (and came) at the same time.
"you okay?" "yeah, it's just. um. you're nearly in my ass?"
you furrow your brow, letting his cock rest against your cheek, "do you not like it? i'm sorry, i got kinda carried aw–"
"no, i mean, it's not that, i– i'm only surprised, i guess?" his quick hands on your face and his rushed reasoning makes you smirk. "what, never had anyone near it?" his cock twitches when he feels you stroking his perineum lightly, and you file the information somewhere in your brain. hyeongjun's face and neck are so red you decide to take pity on him, "i'm just joking, babe. do you want me to go back to sucking you off? no ass stuff, i swear." he chuckles, mumbling a yeah, and feeds his cock back into your mouth.
after those moments, he finds himself thinking way too much about it. the feeling of your fingertips on him, the harness stashed away in your bedroom, the dildos he knows you have, the time he got drunk with his friends and had to suffer through jooyeon's retelling of how he got fucked in the ass and how good it felt... the list goes on
but he never really mentioned it to you
so when you're watching tv on your couch and suddenly you have a lapful of your lanky boyfriend, burying his face in your neck and going "can i ask you something?" you're very surprised, to say the least
"what's up, jun?" you wrap your arms around him, softly running your fingers up and down his back. he takes a deep breath, and you can feel as much as hear his words against your neck: "would you peg me?"
the butterflies in your tummy turned into full on birds. you have a whole ass pigeon in your stomach
"is– is that something you'd like?" you stutter a bit, your head going haywire.
"if i didn't, i wouldn't be asking." his shoulders shook lightly as he laughed. "would you do it, though?"
you catch yourself a second before saying "duh??? ofc", and tells him a much more appropriate "of course, baby. whenever you want."
you run your hand through his dark hair, and he relaxes completely against you.
"mhm," he gets comfortable on your lap, "not today though. gathering up the courage to ask you made me tired. nap?"
and so the subject dies down for a while. until you're both shirtless on your bed, letting him kiss you silly.
"baby," hyeongjun starts, fiddling with the buttons on your pants, "do you want to fuck me in the ass?"
??? DUH
"are you sure? i don't want to pressure you." you whisper, holding his face in your hands lovingly.
"i wouldn't have asked if i wasn't," he smiles softly, and you melt.
he definitely notices how eager you are, if the way you immediately get off the bed to fetch the ~supplies~
the harness and a half empty bottle of lube are thrown into the bed. hyeongjun's cheeks are flaming red.
"uh, you wanna choose the dildo? i have a few," you look down at the box in your hands, trying to figure out which one he'd like more.
"oh. uhh. the smallest?" he nearly regrets asking for this whole thing fr
and so, a sparkly pastel pink dildo joins the harness.
you climb back on the bed, straddling him
his hands are creeping towards your bra when you very helpfully ask, "are you clean?"
he chokes on air poor thing
"of course i am! who do you take me for??" he reaches for your discarded shirt and throws it in your face out of sheer embarassment.
he didn't browse half of wikihow for nothing ffs
"i'm just making sure!" you put your hands up in defeat, not being able to supress a chuckle at his frustration.
"stop embarassing me and start fucking me, for the love of god!" he pouts, knees towards his chest and his face in his hands :-(
you have half a mind to tease him with a "not into humiliation, then?" but you take pity on his poor soul
"i'm sorry, baby." you kiss the back of his hands, in hopes that he'll stop hiding. "one last question, though."
he peeks at you behind his long fingers, "fine. what."
"are you going to be a good boy for me?"
now, you can hear him whimper.
you straddle him, gently pulling his hands away from his pretty face. "you like that? you'll be my good boy?"
he nods, and the room feels stifling with warmth again. you can't help but kiss him hungrily, running your hands across his naked shoulders.
by the time you pull apart, you've taken off his pants, leaving him in his boxers while you've only lost the shirt. it gives you a power rush, being almost fully dressed, on top of him, and knowing what comes next.
hyeongjun looks delectable. the rosy hue of his cheeks, the small pants coming from his kiss-bitten mouth, the expanse of warm skin... all for you to touch, all for you to love.
you settle your hands on his narrow hips, squeezing lightly. "can i take those off?"
he nods, following with a "yes, please". so polite.
and so, he's completely naked, hard and leaking against his tummy. you want nothing more than to wrap your mouth around his cock – and so you do.
his hands fly to your hair, trying to ground himself as you suckle on the head, tasting his precum. he whines when you sink a little further, letting his weight rest on your tongue and holding his cock firmly by the base. sneaky, your other thumb finds its way to his perineum, not too different from the first time you accidentally put the thought of ass play in his head.
he starts to shake slightly, and you know you have to get this show on the road before he cums down your throat. you let him go with a pop, gently caressing the top of thighs,
"get on your hands and knees for me?"
he mumbles a "yeah", and you leave him to get comfortable while you look for the lube in the crumpled sheets.
he's SUCH a good boy omg.
you turn to him and he's propped up on his elbows, watching you. he smiles softly when you catch him, adverting his gaze.
you squeeze some lube on your fingers, trying to warm it up a bit. your other hand glides along his spine in a comforting motion. "can i start?"
"please."
he shudders when you press a finger to his rim. the moment your fingertip enters him, you're rewarded with a whimper. you pet his thighs in an attempt to soothe him – you know he needs to adjust to the intrusion, so you let him do so, pressing kisses to his back.
it doesn't take too long before he starts getting antsy, trying to push himself back on your finger. you move, and his head hangs.
he's panting, and soon he very softly says, "add another, p- please?"
who are you to deny him?
after properly letting him adjust to the two fingers in his hole, you begin moving around, looking for the spot that will hopefully make him see stars. when you realize, his face is stuffed into the pillows, muffling his whimpers. his legs are shaking, barely holding him up, and his walls are clenching down on your fingers.
you consider adding a third finger – just to be safe – but hyeongjun said he wanted a fuck, and the dildo chosen is not very big; it's very begginer-level. he's stretched enough.
you slowly pull out, draping your body over him to kiss the back of his neck. he whines, but you're quick to turn his face towards you and kiss him deeply, swallowing his complaints.
your jeans are grazing the back of his legs, and he suddenly realizes just how vulnerable he is – naked, ass up, lube running down the inside of his thighs... god, he wants to hide.
he buries his face back on the pillows, and you can't help but worry a little.
"jun? are you okay, baby? do you need anything?" you climb off of him, laying by his side.
he's quick to mumble an unconvincing "i'm okay," finally stretching his knees to rest his stomach on the mattress. he startles a little as his cock comes in contact with the bed. "c-can i... uh, can you..."
you touch his cheek, urging him to stop hiding his pretty face. he turns to you, gives you an once over and settles your heart:
"can you take off your pants?"
you have to chuckle. you were so scared you did something wrong, while he just feels a little too naked. "of course, baby."
while you shimmy out of your jeans, he turns to lay on his back, looking intently at the harness thrown to the side.
laying down beside him again, you peck him on the lips, once, twice, and looks at him adoringly. "do you want to go on? we don't have to if you don't."
he pulls you onto his hips, straddling him once again, and smiles.
"i do. i want it."
mirroring his smile, you brush away the sweaty strands of hair on his forehead. "how do you want it? i'll do whatever you want, just ask."
"can we stay like this?" his cheeks color red, his hands softly coming to rest on your shoulders.
"of course. anything else?" you lean in, nuzzling his neck. he smells like faint cologne, sweat, and what you can only classify as him.
"take off your bra?" he giggles, sneaking his hands under the straps.
laughing along, you kiss him again, guiding him to the clasp.
once your titties are freed – and hyeongjun had not only traced his mouth over them but also given you a hickey on the top of your right boob – he sneaks another glance to the harness and dildo.
you catch the hint, and puts both on, his eyes never leaving you. when you're finally ready, lube in hand after slicking up the dildo, he's bright red again. you decide against playfully asking him if he likes the view; the way his eyes are shining and looking at you with utter adoration are enough of an answer.
"ready?" you ask, holding his legs by the knees, (much like he does with you <3)
"yes."
you lightly press the tip of the silicone against his rim, and squirts some more lube directly on his hole. no such thing as being too safe, i guess. plus the legitimate squeal he let escape his lips at the cold substance hitting his skin was pretty much a reward.
you push into him very slowly, not wanting to rush and hurt him. you thank the gods for the chosen missionary position, as you can see every shift in his expression.
his brows are furrowed, his mouth is open, his hands are on your shoulders, his hair is a mess of dark, sweaty strands and his eyes are closed shut.
once you bottom out, he already looks fucked out.
you cup his face, "good?" he nods, not trusting his voice.
quite an useless thought, since as you've barely finished uttering the words "tell me when to move," he's already squeaking out a "move, please."
and so you do
you start thrusting in a decent pace – not too fast to hurt him, not too slow to make him go insane – and soon you're punching little moans out of him.
his hands splay across your shoulder blades, nearly covering those with the delicious size of them. he wants to pull you closer, you can tell by the way he's almost making puppy eyes at you.
keeping the pace, you bend his legs towards his chest. the angle changes, and by the looks of it, you're hitting his prostate dead-on. his head is thrown back, before you release one of his knees to tangle your fingers in the back of his head, pulling him into a kiss that's more him panting in your mouth and you swallowing every sound he makes. his leg is in the position you left it in and you don't have enough free braincells – they're mostly going insane about how hot the whole situation is – to keep a brain-to-mouth filter, so you can't stop the "good boy" that's being whispered against his lips.
he whimpers.
his hands are no longer on your back; his left hand grasps the leg you released to keep it in position, and the right desperately snatches the hand still on his other knee, intertwining your fingers.
you pin your joined hands to the mattress beside his head. at this point, your thrusts have become faster, and hyeongjun's mouth can't produce any words except for the ocasional trembly "baby" and "please".
he looks close to cumming – hell, he's BEEN looking close to cumming.
you squeeze his hand, your other hand leaving his hair to jerk him off in the fastest pace you can, and delivers what's apparently the killing blow:
"my good boy, my hyeongjunie, my baby."
his back arches, his lips open in a sob and he's covering your hand in white.
you bury your face in his neck the best you can, helping him ride out his orgasm by slowing your hands and hips.
by the time he's calmed down and his hand is clutching your wrist to stop in overstimulation, you lift your head and see little tear tracks glistening on his skin.
you pull out, immediately kissing him deeply while he clings to you the best he can with his tired limbs.
you carefully wipe the wetness around his eyes with your clean hand, and he's looking at you like god sent you himself.
"was it good?" you whisper, cupping his cheek and already knowing the answer.
he only chuckles breathlessly, nodding with conviction.
you peck his lips again, detangling yourself from him, "i'm going to get something to clean you up with. i'll be right back, don't move."
you come back somewhat clean, with a damp towel and a bottle of water, to see hyeongjun in the exact same position you left him in
after wiping the lube and the sweat + making him drink some water + fetching him some boxers (as per his request) + assessing the state of your sheets, you finally lie down to cuddle.
your limbs are tangled, his face is pressed to your chest, and you're talking in hushed tones.
"was it actually good though? nothing bothered you?"
"it was perfect. i'd have no one else take my ass virginity."
"you're stupid, you know that?"
"mhm, but you said i was a good boy, so..."
"that was a great discovery by the way. next time, we're getting you a tail plug."
"a what?"
+ bonus:
"a tail plug, you know. to go with the good boy kink."
"baby, please shut the fuck up." he laughs, shifting in the mess of limbs. he slots his leg between yours, and has a terrible insight. "you didn't cum."
you pet his hair, pressing your lips to his forehead, "it's fine. today was about you and what you call your 'ass virginity'."
"no. i'm not leaving you hanging." he hooks his fingers on your underwear, "sit on my face, come on."
"baby, i'm okay, i swear. you don't have to–"
"you're so wet i can feel it on my leg. who do you take me for?"
a/n: thank you @k-k-kn1v3s for taking the emotional beating and beta reading for me
“Please never forget about me.” He can hear your voice echoing in his head as he shifts the guitar in his grasp. Taking a deep breath he starts to strum, getting the beat. A quiet melody carries out as he hums the lyrics. A breeze rustles the grass and trees that surround you both, reminding him that time isn’t standing still.
That time doesn’t sit still, it moves without care for what it brings forward. It moves without hesitation whether you’re ready or not. It came to a standstill only once for Hyeongjun. The day you told him the news.
“It’s looking like I have 5-6 weeks left. There’s nothing left we can do.”
For the first time ever, he had experienced time stopping. Nothing around him registered in his mind, not the people talking, the noise of the nurses and patients in other rooms, not even his own breathing, his heart beat that a second ago he could hear in his ears.
Everything was slow, he could see the quiver on your lips, the way your eyes filled up with tears that refused to break and slip down your cheeks, the way your chest heaved in a poor attempt to keep your breathing somewhat stable. He couldn’t say for certain if time had slowed down or sped up for the hours spent crying into each other's arms that day.
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The breeze brought Hyeongjun back to his senses, feeling the weight of the guitar against his body as his hair brushed across his forehead, “5..6..7..8..” Mumbling to count himself in, he strummed against the strings as he started to quietly sing out to you.
A song dedicated to you, to hopefully express his love for you like he never got the chance to, a love song for his lover that slipped away too soon. His voice never held such a strength in volume, but he hoped that this time it would carry out the emotions he held close to his chest.
“If I could just be happy by the end of this song. But if by the time you hear it, you’re already gone. I’ll just hold my love for you by the end of this life.”
His voice cracked looking up to meet your head stone, imagining you sitting cross-legged across from him, a small smile reaching your lips as your eyes closed to focus completely on his performance.
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As he finishes off, eyes raised to meet yours. “Hey Hyeongjun? When you’re a famous rockstar, please don’t forget about me.” You said it so casually, eyes shining bright at him. Why did you look at him like he held the sky and painted the stars just for you?
He remembers the warmth that raised to his face, red ears and a slightly high-pitched whine escaping him asking what nonsense you were talking about. He still can’t remember if he was questioning your belief that he’d really become a rockstar, or the fact that he’d even let the idea of you disappear from him. “I’ll hold onto my love for all of eternity, I promise.” He mumbled out as his lips brushed against a single bunch of white heliotrope flowers lay against your headstone, Hyeongjun hopes that his love will reach you still.
