ok ladies " I'm not good enough for you " means I'm in a very dark place , I got a self destructive behavior ultimately I might hurt you physically or / and emotionally if you keep coming aroud
I know I’m posting a lot tonight but literally five minutes ago when my husband’s alarm went off, he woke up and realized I hadn’t gone to bed yet. This is against the rules. He wasn’t happy.
And he started to give me shit for it but then realized that I was anxious and asked what was wrong. I explained to him I was having a trauma response to a trigger. And he immediately started comforting me.
He adjusted for my trauma trigger. He calmed me down. I felt safe.
He told me I wasn’t in trouble and he understood.
People like to say he’s abusive but he realized that I was in distress and I didn’t even safe word and he backed off. (I hadn’t decided if I wanted to safe word yet. Sometimes the trouble helps ground me. But this shows he was paying attention and was concerned.)
So, he didn’t punish me. He just helped me feel better.
And then he accidentally hit me in the eye reaching to stroke my hair because we were in the dark and then he felt like a monster (which is what inspired my last post 😂). I joked that I got punished anyways, and we laughed and he went to shower. Now I hear him arguing with our dog. And I’m sitting here laughing at how ridiculous it is hearing him argue with the dog. And I’m thinking about how loved and happy I am. I’m also thinking that this feeling here was worth sticking around for and I’m glad I didn’t succeed in ending my life all those years ago.
There’s no real point to this except that I feel I have a place I can share these real life parts of our dynamic because I think a lot of people don’t realize that it isn’t just sex, beatings or all this seriousness. That’s kind of what you see in some fantasies people have, but it’s definitely not my reality. It’s compassion, patience, love and laughing for me too. It’s also, in my case, healing for me.
You don’t have to follow some preconceived ‘rules’ you have in your head about kink. I did that before. It didn’t work. I was unhappy. We’ve adapted this to what works for us. And it’s honestly really amazing.
I think tbosas' ending with lucy gray running away is so good and important for a number of reasons, but the main one is:
if you see the red flags, girl, run.
I've seen some weird takes on social media, on how lucy gray should've stayed, how coriolanus only wanted to talk, how coriolanus and lucy gray could've ended together living in D12... and honestly, I can't really think of an ending where he wouldn't kill her at some point. women are always encouraged to stay, to talk, to have patience, but if a man starts showing the red flags he was showing, don't stay, because your life can be in risk.
lucy gray didn't wait for her life to be actual risk. she ran away before she was his 4th kill. and honestly?
spider watching me flinch and cuss it out as I spot it on the bathroom door but is too scared to actually kill it and I can’t ask someone else cause it’s 3AM HELP
hey that's fred i've been looking for him all night plz don't hurt he's a pet
trained him to roll over n shit it was a lot of work
throwaway post but like
🤡 ''EYYYIIIIKKEESSS!!!'' (shocked blue emoji)
🎀 ''It might have been that Kaufmo rated the most popular restaurant in Toronto… When you mew over your freaky point?''
🤡''What.''
🎀'' I just lost my dawg… And my brother taught me how to chase the bag… the day he lost his soul, wish i could take it back.. ''
(Abstracted KSIfmo fucking body slams them out of his room with a lunchly box. Raggedy Andy is pinned to the wall while XDCC accidentally presses the wrong emote.)
🎀 ''Woah, Ksifmo! Listen! TO THE CAINE, TO THE JAX TO THE ZOOB TO THE KINGER… Wheres 👑 thats my bling 💎 always trouble when i reign 😈..
🗣️🗣️🔥SMASH THROUGH THE CEILING COZ IM REACHING FOR THE STAAAAAAAAA- ''
(Ksifmo interrupts her with a Viperslash fight sequence)
🎀'' Hey… Skibpomnidi?.. You think you can.. lower .. /Kaufmonster… How should I feel?/'s aura..? I understand if you skip ad, though.. ''
(XDCC tris to skip ad but gets a double ad and gets stunlocked.)
🤡'' FUCK.'
🤡'' ..I should of gotten an adblocker.'' (RUNS AWAY IN FNAF AGONY)
(Abstracted Ksifmo chases XDCC but trips over a lunchables, letting her get away with the quick time event.)
(Pomknee catches her breath and runs back to press E to interact with Ragaytha.)
getting the Gloinks
(Zestble screams in the hole. Theres a favorite mug down there.)
♟️'' Quick, Gayngle, summerize what happened off screen!''
🎭 '' GEDAGEDIGEDAGEDAYO TRAPPED US IN THEIR GEGAGEDIGEDAGEDAYO PRISON IN ROBLOX! THAT'S RIGHT! WE ARE TRAPPED IN THIS GEDAGEDI ROBLOX GAME! AND HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO ESCAPE! ''
♟️ '' So let me get this straight…Zooble's somewhere that's not what I would call Earth.. I'm seeing FREAKING dragons .. and - OH YEAH - I'm talking to a creeper
Yeah, okay, that is something I do now. I'll probably FLY NEXT! ''
🎭'' WE HAD A BLAST PLAYING THIS GAME AND THEN EVEN REVEALED SOME CRAZY GEDAGEDIGEDAGEDAYO SECRETS!''
(Zestble is ordering the among us potion from inside the hole.)
♟️ '' Boy (gender neutral), we're gyatt very goon at this, skibidi? ''
(Jaxass is seen running.)
🐰 '' Ugh.. Like the FNF song.. ⇨⇦⇨⇧⇩⇩⇦⇧⇨⇩⇨⇦⇨⇧⇩⇩⇦⇧⇨⇩ ''
♟️ ''JEVIN!! We dug up atlantas. ''
🐰 '' I like men.''
🎭 ''OH NO! ITS THE NUGGET, GEDAGEDIGEDAGEDAGO! AHAHAHA! OHH OHH!" AND WE SANG THE GEDAGEDI SONG OVER AND OVER IN THIS VIDEO! ''
🐰 '' Hows Ksifmo? He's doing great, In fact, I think he'S recording His new musIc video. In the sick of it, i Think. ''
♟️ '' Well, it's good to know he hasn't completely lost his ability to make music!''
(Distant 'im in the thick of it' in the distance and Jaxass reaches to covers his ears.)
🐰 '' He gyattually asked me to rizz you this.. '' (he throws the bowling ball backwards, causing all 3 of them to spin around and fll in the hole in accident)
(the scene cuts to them falling down at mach 5 speed before jax puts down a water bucket and saves them and also because im not writing all of that also Muffet undertales there)
♟️ ''An incell collection? ''
🎭 ''I JUST WANNA BE PART OF YOUR SYMPHONY 🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🌈💖🦄🐬🎀🌸🐬''