#just... problems

[obviouslybooks]

Reader problems meet moving problems: I have a library book due next weekend and have no idea which box I packed it in. The only clue I have is that it's NOT in a box marked "books".

[inevitablesurrender]

When you have several yards of black fleece, but it's all currently being used as packing material.  HAAAAAaaaaaaahhhhkjlksfuck  A JoAnn's visit sometime this week it is, then.  But they've got that 50% off remnant bin.  So.  ........Welp.

I don’t know, guys, I... made the chocobo feet... and legs... so much bigger than last year’s...  Part of me wonders if I shouldn’t put this on pause and downsize a little for what I intend to make for Desert Bus but.  Then again.  ...I’m real curious as to where this will go.  And there’s a reason I only make chocobos these days for charity or on commission, so.  ............I mean I already lost control of my life so long ago, but with every chocobo it somehow becomes more clear.

When I say Square-Enix ruined my life.  As much as it is a joke.  ...It isn’t.

Now health stuff and random bullshit.

I was actually finally hungry again today and it was just.  So good.  Good thing, hunger.  Good.  ...I mean better to sate hunger, but you know.  Easier to eat food when you.  Want.  To.  Had energy enough to make chili on Sunday too, so.  Like.  I’ve got hunger and food.  These are novel fucking concepts right now.  If my lower back would just stop doing whatever the fuck it’s doing, it’d be... better.  Got full range of motion back, but that doesn’t mean it’s always a pleasant experience.  Why, spine.  Or muscles or.  ...Fuck you, body.

The maybe-house is looking... good?  Like it might be a thing?  Kind of can’t really hope for too much yet but.  That’d be nice.  There’s talk of negotiation and contracts so that can’t be bad yet, right?  Still waiting to see what I’m going to be expected to owe this demon.  But hey, a demon you already know right.

Improvements.  Are good.  But it’s all still... a bit shit.  Having so many friends and chosen family going through shit right now and I hardly have the energy to do more than be there.  Which matters.  Fuck, it matters.  But boy.  It’s that whole.  Need to find a little time to rest to take it all up again, thing.  They key is... finding.  Time.  A place.  Haaa.

I’m here, I’m here.  I’m tired and annoyed but that is surely temporary.  I know I’ve got to get myself together before I can offer anything.  ...Doesn’t mean it’s not annoying as fuck, anyway.