if the conformity gate n byler are unrealistic...
Idk if I’ll ever be able to return to my once safe place called «Stranger Things» 💔
you can also speak out in the comments and reblogs: I’m here for you, I’m here. I love you. I believe 💛💙 let it be a safe space for you
for me, this is now the creepiest queerbaiting in history n I don’t know how to recover from it – it’s the sixth day I’ve been feeling a depressive episode and I don’t know how to get out of it. it’s like I’m stuck in my own head and I wanna cry all the time. I disappeared for everyone and I can’t even connect with my friends. I can’t even do my daily chores. I just feel terrible. I’d like to express my emotions in drawing, but even this is difficult for me: only one thing is spinning in my thoughts now
I’m so dissatisfied with a lot of things in the finale, considering a whole bunch of plot holes…
now I want to share my emotions about byler in more detail:
✨ I don’t understand what the dialogue with Robin about signals and the desire to meet Mike was about, if it didn’t lead to absolutely nothing. in adequate scripts, nothing happens just like that (otherwise it’s cut out of the plot)
✨ where did Will’s memories of Mike go, like in ep.4, when he talked to Joyce in ep.7? what did Vecna show him that he completely lost hope? why did he even hope?
✨whatta hell is going on at the interviews now? why are they talking about? it’s a nightmare…
✨ why were parallels shown in the show if they didn’t matter?
✨ why did Mike behave like that in previous seasons and couldn’t tell his girlfriend that he loved her when she needed that? I don’t buy it
✨why was Will made «just a gay who should accept himself»? doesn’t he deserve love? what kind of final is this? why couldn’t they break the vicious circle?
✨ why didn’t Mike find out the truth about the painting? why didn’t they have a normal soulful conversation?
✨why doesn’t Mike care? why couldn’t he touch Will after his coming out? why did Mike hug Will after Lucas and Dustin?
✨ what did they do with Mike’s character, whom I loved sm be4?
✨why was Will used again to save heterosexual relationships?
✨why Mike is hetero, if it’s not? the hints didn’t mean anything? we didn’t come up with anything: we’re deliberately shown this
✨why didn’t Will let Mike go earlier if they didn’t plan byler? why does my boy suffer even more? for what?!
✨ what happened to the plot after the first part? development has gone nowhere. I don’t understand anything at all anymore
✨ what was Will’s coming out for if it didn’t affect anything?
✨ why was it necessary to prescribe Will’s love for Mike? how could it be called «crash»? whatta hell is Tammy Thompson?!
✨ why was Will’s arch brought down to something?
✨what’s the mileven’s point if they didn’t have chemistry and interactions this season?
✨ what did Mike’s connection and friendship with Will turn into? why was it ruined?! for what?!
✨ only Will didn’t get mutual love (epilogue is just Mike’s fantasy), he was never kissed... did he deserve such a finale? Will needed it, we all know it
I still have a lot of questions, but I can’t talk about it anymore... I feel incredibly bad. maybe I’ll write a more detailed and structured text later, but in the meantime, let it be confusing
is it worth mentioning that now I feel even more like a mistake and finally lost faith that I deserve love? my «normal» acquaintances liked the final, and I’ll probably never be able to accept it. and it’s not just about byler. even destiel didn’t hit me so painfully. «Stranger Things» used to save me, and now it kills me. I bought a lot of official and fan merch from the series and byler, I’m also going to have a new fan merch now – what should I do if now it only hurts? how can I believe in anything at all now, if even here my hopes are not justified? how could it not be possible to make byler a canon?
I thought this series was for freaks, from freaks and about freaks, but now I feel betrayal and deception. where else to look for yourself? I only have «Shameless» left, gallawich and Ian Gallagher, close to me in character... my comfort character. but the pain from the finale of «Stranger Things» doesn’t cover anything yet
my mental health is already not in order, but now it has suffered even more. is this really the end?
