I had a Kami-Oshi and she really meant a lot to me. It sounds dumb and I never had this before with bands, stars or something like that so I really cried when I watched the graduation and felt like I needed to "move on". I don't think someone else will come who takes her place. Nobody made me ever feel so related even tho there's so little I knew. She was truly like a soulmate to me. I felt like she knew how I felt and she feels the same about a lot. There were creepy parallels in our lifes. It was like watching my younger self all over again.I don't know how to describe this, it's like talking to a person and knowing you will like him or her immediately.I always look back and even remember her graduation and birthdate to rewatch old stuff on these dates respectively.I went through a lot and personally, it helped me that there was someone like me out there. Someone who makes me happy when I feel down. It's ok if you can't relate, but don't judge like this, I'm not sitting there all day long and creep around like "uh she is gone ~ here is an altar ~ these are my rituals~ my life is gone~. NO. That's not it. That's why I don't talk about it. She just meant a lot to me and I hope she's happy now. Sorry if I came off creepy but I just wanted to say that so that some of you might relate better to this.
