to those of you that have ever lost someone, you know how they've impacted your life. well, i'm losing one of my choir family members this week. she's being put on morphine either tomorrow or wednesday to slow the pain of her body shutting down. i only met her in october. since then, she's become one of the most important people in my life. not only has she made this quote a reality in my life, but she and only she has personally accomplished this. she'll be gone by this weekend. and i don't know how to deal with this. i don't know whether or not i'll be able to handle it. i just know that she wants me to keep smiling. so i'm gonna smile everyday. i'm gonna try to smile. she doesn't want me to be sad, so i'll try. for her i will try. but if you know me personally please don't tell me its okay. because i know it is. i just want you to treat me like normal. that's what's gonna help me. i know i'll see her again. and i know that she'll be watching over me. and i know she's always with me.