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[thebroccolination]

"RENEGADES" by ONE OK ROCK

A PRIDE EDIT OF SELECTED THAI QL SERIES

[craziestfangirl98]

AHHHHHHHHHHH!

Well. Now that I've got my brain fog out of my head, I wanted to say I'm coming from the future to talk about Be My Favourite! I mean, not really but I thought it'd be funny, cause you get it right? Anyway, silly jokes aside, I'm not coming from the future but I am coming from the middle of the night to talk about Be My Favourite.

I adoooored the show. Sososo much. There is so much of heart in it and kindness and patience. It has won over my heart. I don't know how I have missed it so far but honestly I am so happy to have watched it. It is so warm and forgiving, from the earliest to literally every one of its characters. It was like handholding people to do right by others and themselves. It was just incredibly meaningful. It is also about taking and giving chances.

Kawi, Pisaeng, Max, Pear are all so close to my heart right now and I wish I could treasure them. I had recently talked to someone about feeling stuck in my life because I have no self belief and trust, and about wanting to have someone who would at least be in my corner when I myself am not. The beginning of the series felt like an attack because although I wasn't entirely like him, I could see a future where I could be the old Kawi in the beginning. I tend to project a lot on characters and especially with how vulnerable I've been feeling it could make an appearance too. Anyway, it made me so emotional to see Kawi realise that all he can change was himself and how he dealt with things. Especially to stop running away. I loved how at every point in the show where they could've done the miscommunication trope the show flipped it over its head and communicated perfectly and how they also sort of made fun of it when they did. I find it so meaningful that it was not just about romantic relationships but about Kawi's relationships with Max and Pear too (honestly they were both icons). There's just so much that it did right and I am so happy for it for even attempting.

I will be honest, although I've seen SOTUS and enjoyed it, I've not gotten to SOTUS S yet. And as much as I loved Gawin in Not Me I've not seen him in anything else as far as I can remember. Both Krist and Gawin had produced such authentic and genuine acting that I am thoroughly impressed with it. Going into it I genuinely didn't go with many expectations except for someone I really enjoy reading from likes it and just wanted something to watch on the only weekend off. I'm glad it was this.

Ohhh also also also, I wanted to add some more things.

The parents? Such compelling plot lines for them that at every point I was curious to see how things would go. Definitely one of my favourite parts of the series.

Also, as much as I dislike Not, it felt very realistic his presence till the end. The one friend who you get estranged with as you grow up because you realise that maybe they are not a nice person and although you don't like them, but they exist in the peripheries of your life by nature of uni friends and friendships.

I love that in the midst of what is supposed to be a fantastical story, there is so much of realistic and thoughtful situations and reactions and it is so compelling. I think the resolution that the time travel brought to both the characters made so much sense and gave confidence that I thoroughly appreciated.

Every time they addressed Pisaeng's exploration of queerness and Max's role in the queer community I was so moved and touched. I am sure I'm going to be watching those again soon.

Anyway, these are the thoughts for now. If any come up, I might add them later or something.

[dropthedemiurge]

The pain of making decisions.

The pain of growing.

The pain of living.

The joy of loving. [ Be My Favorite fanart | Be My Favorite fanfics ]

[kristpsing]

Honestly just love the way Krist tips his head back ever so slightly here as Pisaeng is pressing soft kisses down Kawi's chest - it's just such a little moment that packs so much - just like opening himself up to more kisses, letting the gentle pleasure wash over him-

And after, that he feels so comfortable he just slips off to sleep ;-;

[paalove]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

At some point in the decade of Kawi's rise to fame and sink into depression, it gets to be too much for Pear. That sends Kawi spiralling.

Pisaeng is there, but whether he catches him is harder to say.

For the KawiPi Exchange of Flagrant Smut and/or Nuanced Intimacy (Official Title).

[thebroccolination]

HAPPY ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THE FINALE OF BE MY FAVORITE, THE SERIES THAT IS MY ENTIRE PERSONALITY (WHEN MY ENTIRE PERSONALITY ISN'T WINTEAM)

[thebroccolination]

But that is the magical joy of Be My Favorite, isn’t it?! That Kawi learns how to choose himself and joy instead of what Kawi thinks will make him happy because it’s what the world values. And then he’s told Pisaeng about the time travel but Pisaeng doesn’t quite believe him until Kawi is sick and maybe dying and tries using it. And Pisaeng wonders if Kawi is compromising his dreams for Pisaeng’s happiness, but they’re just choosing their own happiness. And I want to cry just thinking about it.

This is from a Be My Favorite post I made last month that still makes me emotional.

Like!!! One of my favorite parts of the series in terms of the writing choices Waa made is that Kawi doesn't actually see dozens and dozens of potential futures. As a writer, I think that would be tempting to play with. But instead, the story is framed so that Kawi doesn't know how many times he can use the crystal ball, so he has to be extremely cautious. Structure-wise that heightens the stakes, but that also means that Kawi as a character has to think very deeply and thoroughly about everything he does that might have repercussions.

Which, as we see in the series, drives him into Panic Mode about possibly fucking up everyone's lives around episode 10 after seeing The Worst Timeline in episode 7.

I love love love that he and Pisaeng don't actually talk that much about Kawi's whole time-travel experience because 1) once Kawi has what he needs (a loving relationship and found family), he doesn't want to look back, and 2) it leaves Pisaeng to grapple with his own insecurities about their relationship.

Like, the Pisaeng we see in episode 12 who offers to be a Dirty Little Secret if Kawi wants to pursue a publicly famous life is not the same Pisaeng from any of the Terrible Futures that Kawi saw. He's the fortunate one, the one who crushed on Kawi for a few months in their first year of university, confessed to him, got an initial rejection followed by a reciprocation a few days later, and then dated Kawi consistently for the next twelve years.

What I love about that is that the Pisaeng in episode twelve, the one who won by all possible metrics, still has the seeds of self-destruction in him. He would closet himself and their relationship for Kawi, and Kawi knows from experience that 1) he really doesn't want the fame, but also 2) he's seen Pisaeng destroy himself for his sake before, and he promised never to let that happen again.

And he doesn't tell Pisaeng that either!!! Adult Kawi who has Learned Things from time travel doesn't want or need credit for the person he's become. He doesn't tell Pisaeng how horrible fame was on both of them, how selfish it made him. He doesn't want to relive it for himself for sure, but I also think he wants to spare his Pisaeng any sliver of the pain he put another version of him through in another life.

So what we get is that Pisaeng sees Kawi put aside singing professionally, which he seemed to love, and become a lyricist instead. He thinks Kawi could have a better life and he's denying himself for Pisaeng's sake. …WHICH IS WHAT PISAENG DID FOR KAWI IN THE WORST TIMELINE.

And when Pisaeng goes back in time and limits changing the past to just correcting their terrible amusement park date and nothing else, he does so without all the information Kawi could have given him. He only has Kawi's word that he's happy with the life they have, and he doesn't want any more than that. And he trusts in Kawi, because they've been together for twelve very happy years. :')

I'm never gonna get over this show.

~The End~

[thebroccolination]

Things Kawi Did the Night Pear Invited Him Over to Meet Her Father and Potentially Cement the Relationship He Traveled Back in Time to Get:

1) leave

2) yell at hot man

3) complain about hot man

4) drink about hot man

5) kiss hot man

GOING BACK IN TIME TO WOO PEAR SCORE: -100/10

BEING UNHINGED ABOUT A GUY SCORE: 10000000000000000000000000/10