xWell Deserved Thank-Yousx
Finally, the pain has ceased. I've been thinking, and you know what? I feel ...Much better.
My pains lately have been to this lonesome feeling. Its true, I'm used to always having someone right at my side, but I've also forgotten the beauty in personal time. Not to mention ... I'm not really alone, am I?
I want to thank some of you guys. Really, you guys deserve recognition for this. So lets go through it, shall we?
Jupiter, AKA, Nagisa-Chan.: I know we've only been talking for a short time, but really, you've been a life saver. I don't really trust anyone, not that easy, but I felt I could put my trust in you almost immediately. I've pretty much spued the majority of my life story to you, huh? My bad, though, I doubt you mind, huh? Your reactions were just what I needed as well. Alot of times, when I talk to people, they ramble on about lessons and such that I don't always want to hear (But sometimes I do, and I will address that in a moment.) You are the calmer, understanding one that I need, and really, thank you. You know? I've been thinking a lot over Rebellion night. When you let me rest on your shoulder, and you held me, and you convinced me everything would be okay... You even said I was strong. Thank you. And at that time I felt... safe. I guess thats all I've really wanted as well- To feel safe by someone else's side, and to have someone who I can just rest against when the weight on my shoulders tires me out. Thank you for granting me that. I hope the best for you, as well. I hope your parents grow to except you for who you are, and I hope your world will start turning in your favor. Know that I'm always here, okay? I will always do everything in my power to help you out. I know you'd do the same for me; you already have.
Kouta, AKA, Meduka: I appreciate your company, my friend. When I'm up late, and something's bothering me, you're always there for me to talk to. I know I havn't done too well of keeping up with you lately- But I apologize and I will work to be there for you more, as you've been here for me. Take care of Nicole for me, okay, man? And if you ever need anything, just let me know. Thank you for your support.
Queen Saya-Chan: (Is it okay that I address you this way? I'm unsure- Let me know what you'd like to be called.) Thank you for your concern. The other night or so, when I was sobbing and hitting the wall, going through hell, you opened up and let me pour my heart out to you. I appreciate that you were there, and that you gave me your input. As mentioned above, I like to have a mixture of both simple "I'm sorry mans" as well as a deeper understanding and comfort. Thank you for your wise words. I wish the best of luck in your relationships to come. Don't let a little Kyousuke bug you, okay? Kyoko will come, and she/he will make you endlessly happy. I know they will.
Little Mado-Kun: You know, I'm glad we've gotten to talking. I've been following you for a long time, and I've always liked seeing you around. You make me happy, you know that? To me, you're like a bright little beaken of hope that I just can't help but to smile when I find. (Wait, Im sorry, is that weird? Ah, damn me, I apologize if it seems so. But either way-) You told me my Madoka-Chan would find me one day. That was a big help, just that statement alone, because you're right. One day, my Madoka will save me, and I will wait patiently, fighting through until she comes. Thank you for giving me that hope. And I hope you and I can be good friends. Honestly, even though we've talked only so little, I really enjoy your company. I hope that I can serve as good company to you as well. I hope that I can serve as someone to go to when you arn't feeling good, or even when you're bursting with joy, and any time in between. I will always be around, and I will always be glad to talk and help you, okay? Keep you're head up, my friend. When my Madoka-Chan comes for me, and when your Homura-Kun saves you, and the two of us are as happy we can be, I would be honored to say you are a great friend of mine. (Really hope I don't sound odd ahaaa but you know)
Lastly, but far from least, Kenny, AKA Sister Madoka: You've heard it from me a thousand times, huh? That's because you've been by my side a thousand times. Through thick and thin, you, my friend, have been the only one to never leave my side. When you heard of my heart break, despite my sadness, your reaction was very comforting. I have an older sister in reality, but one who I didn't get to grow up with and never even knew until very, very recently. But blood isn't what matters. You've kept me under your arm like an older sister to me for many years now, more now than ever. I used to tell Nicole, even, how your attitude is very comforting to me. You can take things seriously just as well, and as mentioned above, I prefer a good mixture. Thank you, as always, for your wise words and for watching my back the way you always have. Really, I love you, Ken. I really hope I can watch your world become perfect. I know its hard, but you're tough, and I believe in you. Not to mention, you know I'll always do all I can to be there for you. We'll fight through life together, right? Yeah ... Sister Madoka.
Whether or not they will notice or can be properly credited, I owe alot to my family and other friends as well.
And thats why I'm not alone, right? I never was...And with you guys, I never will be. I owe you all alot. So who needs a girlfriend, right? I trust in you all to talk with, and I know that when I'm dreary, you'll let me rest with you. Thats all I really need to keep going.
And really, all of you, please never hesitate to come to me. I want to help you as much as I can, always. I will try my best not to become a bother, and I will try my best to be your allies in this fight with life. No one will ever be alone; not while I still stand.
We'll find love, we'll find happiness ... And we'll do it together.
