#keys is chronically ill

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hi—you can call me keys, i'm 19 and use they/them pronouns!

this blog is not particularly oriented towards a specific topic. you may have followed me from my studyblr days, but i've moved that content to @keys-studies and my miscellaneous posts are now here!

just a note, i am chronically ill and i do post about my disabilities and conditions frequently—i generally tag them with #keys is chronically ill

fandoms: nimona, ace attorney, the magnus archives, welcome to night vale, midnight burger, wolf 359, the penumbra podcast, (+ other audiodramas), undertale, among us, pjo/hoo, studio ghibli (ponyo + the wind rises are my fave <3), twenty one pilots, florence + the machine, glass animals, hozier, + many, many more

hobbies: drawing, listening to music, swimming, excel,

i love the block button and i highly recommend it instead of trying to argue or bitch about something. i block literally anything that i dont want to see, dont take it personally. primary things i block for are blogs that post unsafe content (sh, ed, sui, etc.), AI videos or imagery, and nsfw that makes me uncomfortable (ie things im not into).

dividers by @cafekitsune

last updated: 13 july 2026

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friendly reminder that chronic pain management and treatment is suicide prevention!!

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so excited to study abroad but i am also extremely anxious about how I'm going to manage my chronic illness abroad... i know healthcare is not a problem but specific how i am going to be able to exist without being completely exhausted.. like i know the city I'll be in is primarily walking/biking but i also know that i get exhausted so quickly and im hoping to not only study abroad but actually experience life abroad, but i am quite nervous that my chronic fatigue and pain are going to leave me bed bound aside from classes

right now my classes in the usa are on a pretty big campus and i dont do a lot of exploring or really much unplanned social life stuff, primarily because i have to pace my energy out throughout the day. im not sure if I'll be living close to the uni i will be studying at so i might be walking really far and/or commuting (i cannot ride a bike due to vertigo/dizziness which is very unfortunate)...

so i guess i just want a chance to like. try new things abroad but i know im gonna be limited. the disability is in fact disabling me. i'm going to see if i can start adding a few longer walks into my days rn to see if i can condition myself/build up stamina. only issue is that i genuinely am exhausted all of the time and if i push it too hard my body goes kaboom bed time

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today. i made an iced coffee. i used some milk and i was like hm my iced coffee tastes a bit odd. i was like eh its probably my OCD playing tricks on me (i have OCD and i have done ERP to help with my compulsions around spoiled foods [i had trouble eating things that were perfectly fine because my mind would tell me it was rotten]) So I drank a little bit more, and was still like "eh it's probably my brain." And then I'm like okay this actually tastes fucking off. So I go check my milk and, well, my stomach now hurts. also my fucking caffeine. i need it for my insane 4-6 hours of programming i'm about to do. but milk bad and stomach hurt :(

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every once in a while my body decides to remind me i have hsd by subluxing my hip and every single time i scream or clamp my mouth shut to prevent screaming

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i love being chronically ill,... low pressure system coming * i went outside in the heat = hr 120 laying down + shakey + pain ^ 2

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i am currently in the process of packing and overall just sorting all my stuff and i just cleaned out my backpack AND I FOUND 2 TABLETS OF THE DISCONTINUED MIGRAINE MEDICATION THAT WORKS SO WELL FOR ME oh my god i am so happy rn

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the countdown is ON. blood patch in 12 days.