#ki.words

[ki-words]

i had a dream once about you. we went to school together and we had a friendship, it was great, and i enjoyed being around you. then at the end of the dream, i found out you had a fake name, and i felt betrayed and hurt. it’s kind of funny how in real life i felt like after we no longer became friends after, we started to become more and more of an acquaintance to each other that it felt like that you had fake feelings the whole time. it’s kind of funny how in both scenarios you did something wrong and didn’t care, then and I was the one who ended up being hurt.

Life can be a pain in the ass sometimes, or maybe it was just you.

~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

It's dark, we're riding the bus to school. It's quiet for the most part. You're sitting right next to me, the person I use to call my best friend and then just left. No words, no hurt for you (as far as I know). I accidentally touch your thigh gently, you scooch ever so slightly closer to me. We start talking about how I don't like wearing flats that much because when I'm walking I have to clench my feet so they stay on, since my feet are small. Then, I said I didn't know how you even wear like 2" heels. We talk about that for a little, and then we look at each other and then you kiss me. It lasted like a second, we both are silent. Uncomfortableness and confusion runs through my body instantly...

Dreams ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

“Give me space, please. I want the universe, and answers for once in my life. Not some ‘throw me in and hope for the best’ shit, that you’ve given me. You owe me something, don’t you. I didn’t ask for anything. I didn’t ask to be alive, I didn’t ask to be human, and I sure as hell didn’t ask for feelings. But I’m always asking for too much. I don’t deserve the universe. When I had the universe in my hands I eventually called it cruel, dark, and full of madness.

But oddly enough, madness gives me comfort.”

Give me space ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

I'm here but I'm also there at the same time

I'm me but I'm not

I'm here but I'm in my head

I'm lost but I feel found...somehow

I'm confused but...well I'm always confused

I know myself but I still have so much to uncover

I'm happy but I'm sad

I'm loved but not by me

I'm young but I feel like I've been here too long

I'm apathetic yet emotional

I'm fine but I'm not

I'm... not sure ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry for your loss

You always talk about how she was always happy, and laughed all the time, endlessly How energetic and cute she was

She was overjoyed most of the time

She would light up your day through a single smile, and she smiled a lot

Yeah she had her angry and sad moments but don't we all

And we all know that she was annoying more times than she would admit too

She was still so young

Don't you ever care to think that maybe I miss her too.

Her happiness?

Her positivity?

Her innocence?

...

Her ignorance?

...

...

...

I'm sorry that I changed...

I miss her too ya know"

- it's not my fault, it just happened

i'm sorry for your loss ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

“ Dear Darling,

I love you, but you probably already know that. So, I don’t know why I’m mentioning it, maybe because it just rolls off my tounge so easily when I’m around you. I don’t want to ‘complete’ you or be your 'other half’, because you were never broken or missing a piece of yourself. You will forever and aLwaYs be whole. That wholeness may change size, shape, texture, color, or have a different scent every once and a while, but you will never need another to make you 'complete’. You are an individual, you are you, which is all I want, your truest self. And that you of yours is cute, smart, funny, genuine, kind, beautiful in every fucking way I can think of, and just the best fucking person I’ve met in my life so far. All I am is another blob in space figuring out this human thing next to you. I may come and go, but I’ll remember you, that’s for damn sure.

Sincerely,

You Know Who”

Dear Darling ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

"I can't wait for the moment when I forget your birthday, the number of siblings you have, passions, voice, facial features, insecurities, signature, the house you live in, your room, and so many other useless facts about you. I don't want to forget you, because you taught me my mistakes with being with you. I do want to forget everything about you, but not you yourself if that makes any sense.

- fuck my memory, everything subtly reminds me of you, my mistake"

Can't wait ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )

[ki-words]

Letting you go doesn’t mean forgetting

Letting you go means not being mad anymore

Letting you go means not being sad anymore

Letting you go means no longer looking back at our happy moments and pondering upon “what if” questions

Letting you go means not asking any questions at all

Letting you go means accepting

Accepting you and your decisions, accepting myself and my decisions, and accepting the outcome

But if letting you go ment forgetting then I would’ve never learned from my mistakes

If letting you go ment forgetting you completely then I could never let you go, you have given me too much to forget.

Letting go ~ k.l.c (@ki-words )