currently listening to mazzy star and all i can think about is how i yearn for fourteen year old me. the summer i discovered mazzy star and fell in love with music. falling in love with fiona apple, courtney loves music, riot grrrl, liz phair, jeff buckley, feeling all the feelings of teenage angst. spending my summer learning new artists, falling in love with celebrities and directing, gushing over guy germaine and dallas winston. finding myself within dwayne hoover and charlie kelmeckis. watching dawson’s creek and one tree hill, submerging my mind in knowledge and love for corey haim and jonathan brandis, watching kid 90 and truly feeling seen. to the point of where i felt sick to my stomach. loving tony hawk and jay moriarity. fearing for what was to come with high school the following august. truly a time for me. a time for changing my mind. a time for growing. a time to find what i loved and what i adored. i miss her but i am grateful for whom i’ve become since her x
