passing
i stayed up one night, planning to watch the perseids meteor shower. it was something i was very excited about - its a meteor shower that lies in the perseus constellation. perseus is an interesting greek mythology that i got into because of the fiction books that i used to read.
anyway, i stayed up late night in hopes to see the meteor shower that i heard about on tiktok and honestly i dont even know if its true or if it was the right date. perhaps i just hoped? i hoped that by some random chance, i would be able to witness something that appears every 10 years or whatever.
i waited and waited. i looked at tried to identify each celestial body - the moon, saturn, mars, little satellites running its course. ive noticed the different layers of the sky, like a mosaic that god or someone created to make us feel small. there were large clouds in the far foreground and smaller clouds that seemed to rush through as the wind blew them. it started to become early morning; 3 am hit and i was still holding on to hope that perhaps the meteors had some sort of delay or maybe the earth slowed is spin just a little? some stupid hope.
perhaps i just missed it? or perhaps in this part of the world, we actually dont have the same sky. perhaps if i was there with you, we would be able to witness the meteor shower together. but im here and i only have the moon to share secrets with. either way, ive come to an understanding that perhaps you are like a meteor that is only visible on that side. ive always thought we were worlds apart, even before we got closer and i feel it even so now. its okay though, ive always been comfortable with the night sky.
sometimes i feel like its maybe my fault? although i dont know what else i couldve done better. maybe it truly is just the wrong place and wrong time. but maybe one day i can be underneath the same sky again.