#kin-crap

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The urge to make a new kin blog is strong. Not that I'm any less Negasonic (I still wear my x-suit on a regular basis.) I just... Feel more animalistic lately. I hate not being able to meditate. Nothing significant ever happens when I do, or when I dream, and I hate it. I just want answers! And then I wonder again if this isn't a bpd thing where I try to grab onto things to have an identity...

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I want to have a conversation about otherkinity and abilities but most people don’t even believe in magic and thus alienates those of us who are both witches and otherkin even further because it’s like “oh, you’re nonhuman AND think you can read minds and see the future? You’re way too crazy to be associated with us.”

or people whose otherkinity is related to their blood background (for example: people who believe they’re descended from humans who mixed with angels to create the nephilim) 

Anyway what I’m saying is I wish there was more conversation about this sort of thing outside of the batshit manipulative people who try to say there’s a secret war going on and the government is out to Kill All Weres, you know?

And I can’t even put this in the tags because I don’t want to get harassed by trolls or even other kin and shit who don’t believe in those things. Great website 

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So to elaborate on what I meant yesterday, 

Meicrackmon Vicious Mode being a kintype makes so much fucking sense to me now like, 

I really don’t like to admit it, but I’m a pretty violent person (moreso in thoughts than actions because self-restraint is something I’ve had to train and train and train my ass to do and it’s really fucking difficult but I haven’t hurt anyone in a long time so I guess it’s working)

And during these shifts I can feel large teeth and claws that I wanna tear the shit out of things with. But I’ve also had the feeling of having claws to dig into things that I can do while making a fist...if that makes sense? Which I realize now translate pretty well to Meicrackmon’s Wolverine gauntlets. 

And, you know, her one known attack is called Berserker Thinking. Which is not only very close to my own mental illness but also heritage.

Prehensile weapon-like tail and wing-like appendages also checked off on a list of things I’ve felt in the past. 

So, definitely something I’m going to be meditating on more. 

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tfw you have pack instincts and have desperately longed for a pack your entire life but you are inherently a loner.

Unfun. 

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Does anyone else feel like...they’re ‘too old’ to be ‘fictionkin’? (or kin in general but I’ve noticed fictionkin on this site are usually younger than say, most therians I’ve encountered)

Like most people I’ve encountered are still in highschool and I just finished undergrad college. 

Hell I’ve seen kids post “what are you even doing on tumblr if you’re over 20″ like I’ve been on here since I was, what, 17? meanwhile half the content i see im like OH GOD, THERE ARE 13-YEAR-OLDS THAT CAN SEE THIS

I feel like I’m expected to “grow up and stop playing pretend”. 

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Why do I always see wolfkin and wolfkin accessories include collars

wolves are free. wolves are wild. if you feel the need to wear a collar (or bark) you’re more likely a dog than a wolf.

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So, I know I am also a therian of some type..

I’ve had these nonhuman feelings for as long as I can remember (and not in a nonhuman way like I feel as a mutant.)

But it’s never been...idk, consistent? It feels like...long jaws and teeth trying to break out. Strong claws for ripping and tearing. I used to be obsessed with wolves, but I don’t think it’s that (though I still love them.) I also thought it was a wolverine but I think that is more like a patronus. 

Sometimes it feels like a transformation, so maybe a were of some sort, but?

It could also be reptilian. Sometimes I feel like I should be shedding my skin. I thought I could have been Husk at one point. 

But I also feel like I have fur and possibly lived in the forest. And...shoot, something else that’s on the tip of my tongue...

OH. that I long for a pack or something similar. I feel like it’s deeper than just a human want for community. 

I can never see myself in my dreams when I get dreams of it.

anyone got any ideas?

edit: so i got to thinking other things I’ve always felt. Like I should have a prehensile tail. I should be tiny so I can climb all over things. Hand feet. 

 am mostly nocturnal

holy shit i think I may be an opossum.