truly yours (itto & reader)
notes: this is a fem reader story. reader has a sister named Emma. This is a story inspired by Eliza Schuyler/Hamilton and Alexander Hamilton's love story (the musical made me think a lot h) also contains swearing!
"yOO!" Itto shouted as he entered the mid-silenced ballroom.
I turn around in curiosity.
Jesus Christ, he was hot.
I want him all to myself. I usually don't give in to these kinds of offers from the universe, but this opportunity is too good to pass by.
I approach him, hands trembling. My father always tells me I'm graceful in my acts. My heels clank on the floor, making a slight tick sound. I've been an extrovert all my life. Being the eldest sister, I have to make sure that I, and my siblings, have a secured future.
I'm behind him. "Hey, someone's behind you." His friend says. He turns around.
His smile is golden. Eyes of crimson staring into my soul.
"Hello, beautiful." He greets me with a smile. I can feel myself starting to turn red.
"Hello, Mister. Nice to meet you. My name is {name} {last name}."
"I'm Arataki Itto. Ever heard of the Arataki gang?"
"My! It's a really famous topic around here!"
God, he's funny. He knows how to make me laugh. He also mentions he's poor. What would Father think of this? Would he think I'm a disgrace by loving a poor boy? I don't know, and I don't want to know.
"So, you collect....beetles?" I asked him. I was still in shock that the said beetles doesn't harm him.
"I do collect beetles! They don't harm me, don't worry!" He spoke up, followed by a laugh. He's so cute. His lips look tasty. His red horns are the hottest thing I've seen.
"Hey, look. Someone's looking toward us. Jealous maybe?" He laughed. His soothing voice snapped me out of my trance.
Emma is staring at us with sparkles in her eyes. Is she staring at me? No. She's staring at him. I panic. Do I have to hand him over? Please, I don't want to do it. He's smiling widely as she stares at him in awe. Please. God, no. She gestures me to go to her. I walk toward her, heart pounding.
"{name}.." She whispers to me as she clings onto my arm.
"Yes, Emma?" I asked her, terrified.
"I-, uh. The guy you're talking to. He's amazing. He's so cute. I-I want him. Can you help me, please?" She begged.
I sighed. I didn't know what to say. I wasn't ready to hand him over. I still haven't gotten my time with him yet. I loved him. I wanted him all to myself so fucking bad. What would she think of me if I declined? Would she think I'm a selfish sister for putting myself first? Would she think that I was a slut begging to be fucked? I didn't know what to respond with. I kept on looking everywhere besides her deep brown eyes. She waited patiently, Itto talking faintly behind.
"Alright" I look back up at her. What have I done? I loved my sister too much. I knew that if I chose him over her happiness, I'd be the worst sister ever. I wasn't sure of my decision, but seeing her eyes light up at my response made me feel a bit better.
Her smile went from ear to ear. The tips going pink due to the cold weather.
I walk over to Itto who is chatting to his friends about something. I tap him lightly on the shoulder. He turns around. I see a slight blush painted across his face.
"Been drinking?" I ask him with a smirk.
"You know it!" He responds. His eyes shimmering. He's so beautiful. I unconsciously start staring at him.
"Done staring, gorgeous?" I blush at the nickname he gave me.
"Y-Yes." I speak up. He giggles at me. I'd break every single law just to be with this man. Hell, he's breaking all the laws by being this hot.
"I'd like to introduce you to somebody." I look at his eyes with a soft smile, trying to make him feel comfortable around my presence.
"Alright! Lead the way." I slightly nod, turning around and making my way to Emma who is holding a cup of something in her right hand, and tucking her loose hair with her left. I look at Itto who is standing beside me. His eyes seem,, normal. I sigh in my head. He isn't falling for Emma! Maybe he thinks she isn't pretty! Or she's boring and ug-!
Why am I thinking such things? Especially since she's my sister! I slightly shake my head trying to make the rude thoughts go away. I shake it ever so slightly that Itto wouldn't notice.
We arrive at the table Emma is sitting at. I tap her lightly on the shoulder. She turns around and her eyes immediately glue onto his. She's turning red like a fucking tomato. Itto smiles at her. I feel sick. I slightly hit him with my elbow, gesturing him to introduce himself.
"O-Oh! Right!" He scratches the back of his neck.
"I'm Arataki Itto! Founder AND leader of the Arataki gang! Nice to meet you...?" Itto trails off for her to finish.
"Emma. Emma {last name}." She bows, pinching ends of her dress.
"{last name}?" He looks towards me.
"She's my sister" I giggled.
"OHHHHH! So you two pretty ladies are related?"
"I see, I see" He nods his head after learning the new information.
I never wanted to look down on my sister or put her in a bad light. But the fact that he finds her "pretty" makes me want to cry and puke in despair. He might choose her over me. I can't always be the number one at everything. But I want to be his number one. I met him first. I let him meet her. I want him for myself. My mind trails off and I somehow can't hear their conversation anymore. All I hear are my thoughts. My never ending train of thoughts. I look up to see Emma laughing, and Itto smiling and talking.
At this moment, my Father would always tell me "Be happy for them! Soon it'll be your time!". It's never my time. A disadvantage of being the eldest sister is that I don't have time for myself. I always have to give something that I have to them, who wants it as well. Cause if I don't, I'll be considered mean, ignorant, arrogant, selfish, rude, and all those mean stuff. This was a perfect example. I want him, but because of me being the eldest, I have to give him away? All my life, I had to give things I wanted to my younger siblings, cause "soon it'll be my time!".
I'm tired of always being the backbone. I'm tired of being pressured, forced, stared at, looked up at. It's tiring. One wrong move and you. will. blow. And them? They will laugh and leave your life, perceiving you as a fucking failure. Not once will they look at you again and go, "another chance?".
I almost start to cry until Itto's voice becomes louder than usual, stopping my train of thought.
A soothing, slow, and calm music starts to play. Fucking ballroom music.
"What perfect timing!" Itto laughs and looks at the pairs that are gathering in the middle.
"Care to join me, gorgeous?" He reached his hand out for her to put it on top.
I nearly gag. He called her my nickname.
Emma takes his hand delightfully.
I decide to wipe off any negative look off of my face to avoid any problems. I stand at the front row of the circle surrounding the middle dancing area. I watch as Itto puts one of his hands on her waist, the other one holding onto her hand. Emma puts one of her hands on his shoulder and the other holding his. He gives a slight nod. They both start dancing to the music gracefully. That was one thing Emma did better than me. Dancing. I also had another thought,, how was he so good at ballroom dancing? He looks like the type to know nothing! I was wrong.
A few minutes pass by, and they're still dancing to the same song. I see them talk to each other, mouths opening and closing. I look at Itto from time to time, and he looks back. And when he does, I give him a soft smile and wave. He slightly nods. Sometimes, he just looks away with blush spreading across his cheeks. I laugh at him and he laughs back.
The music suddenly changes. The music gets a tiny bit faster, making the dancers, including Itto and Emma, dance faster. After a few minutes, he looks at her eyes, which are staring right back at him. He leans in, kissing her gently on the lips as they move to the rhythm of the music. The people are cheering.
At that moment, I knew, that I had finally lost him. He was hers now. All for her to enjoy and cherish. I was nothing to him. He would treat me the same. But he would treat her differently. He would look at me and her in a different light.
All my hard work, down the drain. She would be credited.
They stopped dancing, and just focused on the kiss. Everyone around them stopped dancing, and started cheering as well. Itto breaks the kiss, putting their foreheads together. A tear falls down my face.
I lower my head and start running to the exit. Tears are still streaming down my face. My heart broke into pieces. The butler at the door was curious, wondering why I was rushing out.
"Just fucking open it!" I shouted while still looking down. My loud voice echoed through-out the whole entire room, which was really big. Everyone stared at me, especially Itto and Emma. They looked at each other before rushing to me. The butler hurriedly opened the door, as I rushed outside. It's raining. I didn't care. I will never care.
I run in the rain as I take my heels off, running barefoot. I don't know if it's my tears or raindrops falling down from my face. Either way, I'm wet all over.
Itto tries to chase after me, but Emma takes his arm.
"It's no use. She'll never come back." She told him as they watch me run away. Everyone inside has settled, but they still stand outside. Waiting for me. After a few minutes, Emma goes in. Asking him to go inside as well. He says no and still stays. She goes in before he does. I watch him stand by the entrance as I am now sitting at a park that's pretty far away from the gathering. The light is bright, helping me see him. It's still raining. 3 minutes pass by and he sits down on the steps. The butler asks him if he's alright, if he could get him anything. He declines and goes back to waiting. Maybe he really does care.
My heart gets stabbed with a knife as I see him stand up and go inside. Looking out before going in fully. Maybe he never loved me? Maybe it was just me. It may sound like I'm making myself the main character, but wouldn't you also feel destroyed if they left you? It feels like life is draining the hope and love out of you.
I start to cry even harder as the rain gets even stronger. I pick up my heels and start walking. I see Itto in the window, drinking with his friends. Emma's at his side, drinking as well. She doesn't usually drink..?
I regret everything. I regret meeting him. I regret agreeing to her. I regret everything. Maybe I should've just shut up. Maybe I should've just left when I could. But it's all been done. He's hers, and She's his. What a fairytale!
I'll never forget the first time I saw him. I'll never forget the first look we exchanged. I'll never forget the first joke, laugh, and smile he gave me. I'll never forget the time he was mine. Maybe giving him to my sister wasn't that bad? I don't know, and I don't want to know.
I walk in silence and darkness, waiting for day to appear. Finally feeling some kind of peace in me.
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YALL I LOVE THIS STORY SM AND I THINK YOU COULD TELL THAT I VENTED AS WELL 😭😭 i love this so much and it took so long since I had to be in the mood, bc if I wasn't i would rush it 😕 i absolutely worked my whole life and soul into this and i hope you guys enjoy it too 🙏 i put it on one part only cause i felt like one part is needed so sorry if its long 😭 i havent been inactive ive actually been working on this beautiful thing 😇 JUSTICE FOR ELIZA AND ANGELICA!! YOU GIRLS DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER!! anyway, THANK YOU FOR REAFINGGG <33333
