Degradation of my condition
I know that I should add information to the group, retell what the guys are tweeting, but after yesterday's little experiment, I can't bring myself to put my heart into what I'm doing again. Because my soul no longer wants to "spend money" on something for which there will not even be a feeling of gratitude.
In fact, I can’t understand if I got worse due to irregular medication, or is it really the result of yesterday showing me my true consumer attitude to what I do.
Or I'm upset because of the incompetence of technical support https://kktix.com (I hope that Yuzuru will find another, more responsible distributor for international broadcasts, this one is just terrible).
In any case, I feel that my condition, which I enjoyed after my vacation on Lake Baikal, is degrading, and I feel worse than it was before I started taking medication.
I really needed at least a word of respect for my work yesterday from the consumers of my work, or even if not for me personally, then for the history of our community, which is more than ten years old. Maybe if it was said, I would feel better. And now, due to the general degradation of my condition, I cannot even rejoice at the success of GIFT, because I am envious and offended. And I try, but I cannot experience other feelings, and at the same time, I condemn these emotions in myself, because I want to feel different.
I'm sorry that I can't feel the feelings of a normal person, I'm terrible at the moment. The degradation of my condition is terrible.
