#kms fic

[saiyanwitcher]

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[saiyanwitcher]

Killing Me Slowly Chapter 11 snippet!

Late, but here it is 🫣

The boys try for a second date and things go better than expected, even saying hello to an old friend.

[saiyanwitcher]

Killing Me Slowly - Chapter 12

With things going better than he expected, Max is finding it more and more difficult to keep his distance from his mate. With an unexpected team emergency, the Alpha has to deviate from his plans and hope he's done enough to keep Charles safe.

“Are you joking? I can’t,” he said.

Charles tilted his head. He can’t what?

“I’m not . . . I'm not leaving him alone,” Max finished, sounding a bit further away.

Oh.

All the air felt like it had been sucked out of the room. Turning back towards the TV, Charles felt like someone had just thrown a glass of cold water in his face. 

Max was talking about him.

He kept going, sounding more strained the longer the call lasted. 

“What about Gio? He is reserve for fuck’s sake,” Max insisted. “How the fuck did that—I don’t care. Find someone.”

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[saiyanwitcher]

Killing Me Slowly Ch 12 snippet!

With things going better than he expected, Max is finding it more and more difficult to keep his distance from his mate and Charles is certainly not complaining.

Mostly.

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[saiyanwitcher]

OMG your new fic is soooooo good!!!

I’d love to see a sequel where Charles asks for a tattoo with a raunchy placement or Charles gets his own nip piercings. Either surprising Max with them for valentines, Max’s bday, or whatever OR I’m pretty sure a lot of tattoo artists also do piercings since they are familiar with sterilizing equipment and both tattoos and piercings are forms of body modification, so maybe Max does the piercings on Charles.

Side note: a middle school where I’m from had the initials K.M.S. and all the other schools would use the fact that their initials stood for “kill myself” as an insult online and in chants at sporting events. So when I see you talking about the KMS fic, I always read it as the “kill myself fic”

Thanks as always for sharing your writing!!! 💗

Thanks so much for reading!! ❤️ I'm also obsessed with my matching tattooed Lestappen 🥴

I have tossed around some ideas with Max numbing Charles' nipple and playing with the other one while he is getting ready to pierce it for a distraction. 🤭🤭😭 And I am aware of the sanitary issues but choosing to ignore them for the vibe.

I have a little draft going for a second chapter since there has been a lot of chatter around needing more of those two. It is a shame to do a pierced Max and not have Charles at least get to play with it a little...

re: kms side note. I'll let you stew on if that title has any greater significance to the story 👀🙃

[saiyanwitcher]

Killing Me Slowly - Chapter 11

Charles and Max try for date round two and things go much better, even running into an old paddock friend while they are out. With the relaxed mood, Charles feels comfortable enough to ask some of the questions that have been burning at him for the past month, and some of Max's answers surprise him.

“Bonsoir, Mr. Verstappen. Mr. Leclerc. Bienvenus.”

Charles blinked, looking over at the impeccably dressed maître d’hôtel with a smooth smile as the man's eyes flicked between them both, all practiced professionalism. Hearing his name out loud like that still felt strange, but he managed a nod that he hoped looked normal.

Max returned the greeting with a quiet, “Bonsoir,” his Dutch accent coming through a little more on the word and Charles went a bit gooey about it. 

There was no way his past self didn’t love that little lisp just as much as he did now.

“Your table is ready,” the maître said in French with a subtle gesture, beckoning them to follow past the main dining room.

Charles glanced inside, biting the inside of his cheek so hard he tasted blood. He was horrifically under dressed, that realization occurring much too late.

His eyes met those of a seated older gentleman, staring at him over the candle in the center of his table and Charles looked away quickly, fingers squeezing.

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[saiyanwitcher]

Killing Me Slowly - Chapter 4

Dr. Laurent gives Charles some small goals to work towards while he settles into a new routine. Charles tries them out and gets mixed results when Max comes home . . . late.

“Here’s my suggestion,” she said. “You don’t have to do this if it feels like too much. But if you feel able, I’d like you to talk to Max. Tell him what we just talked about—that as an omega, proximity and scent help you regulate. That being around him, even if you don’t remember, might make your body feel safer.”

He let out a sharp, humorless breath. “Yeah, and watch him bolt out the door.”

“What makes you think he’d bolt?” she asked.

“He’s . . . careful,” Charles said slowly. “Always a step back. Like he doesn’t want to be too close to me. Or like he’s—he’s scared of something. Of me? Of himself? I don’t know. But asking him to be closer when he’s clearly working so hard to be distant,” he shook his head. “I don’t know how he’d react.”

Don't anger Alpha, his omega added, but Charles kept that to himself.

“Okay,” she said. “Then frame it as information, not a demand. You’re not asking him to fix you. You’re letting him know what helps your system. He gets to decide what he can handle and you get to decide what feels safe.”

He thought about Max’s face in the wedding pictures, the open joy, then about the tightness in his jaw now, the way his eyes skated away when they lingered too long.

“What if what feels safe for him is staying away?” Charles asked quietly.

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[saiyanwitcher]

"you did this to me" in chapter 10...

that's something we usually say when we don't have control over the situation. "don't touch me..." maybe something that feels violating now?

it's very clear that they were having marital problems but also me thinks something physically wrong with charles.

if the dream of charles throwing the mug at max is to be believed (and it is to be believed because it's something that he found the proof of? — dent in the kitchen wall)

that extreme behaviour change is often linked with brain tumour? but why would charles be angry at the possibility of max removing a brain tumour from his body?

maybe it was a pregnancy but a high-risk one where things were clearly not going as they had planned and it was starting to affect charles' physical health to the point that it could kill charles. so either something happened that lead to charles being unconscious and max having to take the decision between charles and the pup? or idk maybe it was the uterus itself but then the doctors wouldn't talk about heats before discharging him from the hospital.

also I think that charles went on the boat on the night of his accident to kill himself thus max lying to pascale about what the police found on the boat and max saying he's never leaving again

as you can see I'm very invested. i have read the whole fic (so far) in like 10 hours 😭

Love these theories ❤️

There is definitely something up with Charles, in terms of him possibly being unstable or having varying moods like his dreams have shown. Kudos to you on the mug dream being real because of the dent (100% real).

There is also something to be said for Max's general behavior with Charles throughout the whole first half and his almost eggshell approach he takes with Charles. Not that Max is an angel and he for sure has his own issues and behind the scenes dealings, but things are definitely stacking up against both sides for how things ended up how they did. There is still a huge chunk of the story missing that is soon to unravel in a fantastically dramatic way 🤭

When am I not over dramatic af

(adding brain tumor to the board)