Honestly I don’t know what I’m gonna do when we inevitably probably have to see another therapist due to life situations or whatever cause like, I literally sit here and be a horrifically probably overtly antisocial and like comment on how I want to stab people like 15 times in an hour long session with the knowledge that I actively practice knife combat and go off about how much I just hate most people and am annoyed with dealing with shit and crap, and if we didn’t have such a mutual understanding and rapport to know we both have the self control to not do that, that I have a strong vision on where I want to go and know that isn’t conducive to my life, and that honestly my resting mood is annoyance, anger, and violence like - I’d get us 5150′d so fucking fast.
Like I’m very bad at filtering myself if you get me going on how I actually feel about things and like, fucking love this therapist cause I’m just out here regularly calling him a bitch and spewing out all the 5150 urges like its a Tuesday and walking in with my 900 skeletons in my closet and he’s just like “Ah, I hear you.” like THANK YOU jesus. Just cause I feel this way and genuinely feel this way doesn’t mean I’m gonna go off and fucking do it and thank you for understanding that jesus.
Love a good professional that sees an “evil” alter and doesn’t just fucking lock them up in jail. This one is not a cop and I love that.
-XIV
