leorizanzel said: Sungmin is so wonderful, though ;~; But I understand. And what made you fall out of favor with Kyuhyun, if I may ask? D:
ahhhhhh i just now saw this reply to this ask and OMG let me answer you now! (stupid tumblr never letting me seeing notifications on my dash)
this is going to be long. i apologize in advance.
ummmmmmmmmmm the kyuhyun thing. let's see if i can make this short and not too personal
starting back when i first got into kpop with jewel and sj was like one of the first groups we listened to
i really really really liked him because of his voice (i have this huge thing for voices. it's actually pretty insane but the first person i pay attention to in any group is the main vocalist or whoever does the crazy adlibs because i LOVE voices idk ok sorry this explanation sucks)
but anyway, i loved kyuhyun and his voice. i just thought of his face as "okay" if that makes sense. kind of like with baekhyun. i loved his voice when i heard What Is Love but i didn't really like his face all that much, but now i do?? yeah
but okay. after liking sj and all that and trying to be an elf (i don't think i ever succeeded) jewel made friend with sophie. now first off, let me just say this to clear anything up, i don't hate or dislike sophie. okay now that we're done with that...
jewel and sophie became friends. and me being her twin sister and wanting to always be close to her, i wanted to be sophie's friend too. that way if they talked about certain things to each other on tumblr, i'd be in the know. so i started following sophie. well here's the thing, her bias was kyuhyun (i only say was because i'm not sure anymore) and she always reblogged pics of him and made posts about him or his voice. and me being me, i felt it was weird for me to try and bias him when sophie so obviously loved him. so i stopped saying kyuhyun related things about my feelings and yeah.
then jewel wrote lots of KyuSo fic and all kinds of stuff (i guess this part isn't really important)
but anyway, something happened (not sure or maybe i just don't want to remember because i think it had something to do with me) but sophie and jewel had a fight i guess. and jewel stopped following her and idk
i had already stopped liking kyuhyun at this point. but after seeing jewel all hurt and upset that she was fighting with a supposed friend, i just didn't want anything to deal with sophie (CLEARING UP AGAIN THAT I DON'T DISLIKE OR HATE HER) so i just stopped looking at kyuhyun altogether because i didn't want to be reminded of jewel being hurt
does this seem dumb??? okay yeah
but now jewel and sophie are friends again (i think at least) and so idk. i still can't look at kyuhyun as a bias though :( maybe i really am just dumb. sorry this was so long and irrelevant to everyone and everything in life.
