Aug 19, 2025
You know that one picture of the girl sitting on the couch with the five guys standing behind her-
That meme 🤝 Saja Boys x Reader enjoyers
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You know that one picture of the girl sitting on the couch with the five guys standing behind her-
That meme 🤝 Saja Boys x Reader enjoyers
saja boys figuring out your shame | 18+
jinu | mystery | baby | romance | abby
“This is good. That means she has shame…”
₊˚⊹⋆ Jinu | Primal Play
loves a good chase and the thrill of the hunt, prefers to play with you at night, doesn't hide his demon form from you for added thrill, bites, can't help but follow through to the end and things can get...a little messy
"Little Hunter, hear my song..."
You stifle your gasp behind your hands, bringing them up to your mouth in hopes of them muffling your noise. It's useless, because of the heaviness of your panting and because it's him, but you're desperate at this point.
A trash can clattering to the ground towards the end of the street you're stopped on forces your heart up into your throat. A warning, a chide. He's done it on purpose, this you know. He'd never be so careless.
You hear him chuckle from your right then. No, your left? Maybe he's in your head. You don't doubt he'd go that far.
The richness of his voice, the edge of cruelty you detest you enjoy so much, forces you to bite down onto your lip. Your belly clenches in anticipation, adrenaline, and something much, much more pleasant.
"You know you don't have long..."
You take off in a mad dash down the road, focusing on avoiding alleyways and light posts, footsteps impressively quiet considering the rattling of your breaths. The stillness of the night, even in the city, makes you more aware of what little noise there is.
His breathy and confident sigh feels as if it's the wind, wrapping around your neck like you know his fingers itch to, a brush before a squeeze. You're ashamed to admit your next set of breaths hitch in your throat, coming out more like whimpers in response.
"What a pleasant surprise my Little Hunter wanted to become the hunted..."
He's definitely in your head.
Fuck.
You turn and hop a fence, letting it carry you back north where you had originally come from.
"So very pleasant," he all but moans in your ear, and you stumble, his noise of appreciation landing directly on your already throbbing core. You barely keep your footing as you attempt to keep up your pace.
"I'm going to make sure this is a lesson to you, darling. That you should never keep something like this from me, that I should never have to find something like this out on my own..."
You can't see him, but you can feel him then. His presence. Your body nearly locks up from the profoundness of him near, just as it always has, just as it did since the first time you locked eyes.
You know he's near.
You dig your heels into the pavement harder, ribs aching from how far you're pushing yourself to get away from him.
"So, let this be a plethora of reminders to you, Little Hunter–"
You see him out of the corner of your eye as you pass another alley, the looming outline of his body, the breadth of his shoulders and glow of his eyes impossible to mistake.
You whine, legs turning to jelly, yet you refuse to give up.
"Do not keep such delicious, delicious secrets from me. Me, the one who can give you everything the depraved, shameful side of you could ever want."
You make a mistake and turn down an alleyway, the haziness in your brain from overexertion and arousal becoming harder and harder to ignore.
And there he stands.
"And know I will always...always catch you..."
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The Pride Responds
Pairings: Saja Boys x fem!Reader
Tags: Reincarnation, Soulmates, Polyamory, Fluff
Rating: T+ (for general online horny behavior LOL)
Summary: Your interview with the Saja Boys practically went viral- how's the internet been responding to your presence both in the boys' lives and in general?
Word Count: 2.0k
(A semi-spin off of "Who Is the #SajaGirl?" - makes direct references to the fic so I recommend reading it first!)
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[Comments under the Interview YouTube Video]
@ gggitsez Polaymory? In MY K-Pop group??? It’s more likely than you think.
@ justafordf-150 FIVE Boys?? I can’t even catch one 😩😩
@ bldvnbln I don’t know who I want to be more- her or one of the boys.
@ simplyshrimp1n You guys looking for a 7th?? I can make really good brownies I promise 🥺🥺
@ lezzzBh0nest Do you think she swings both ways?? Cause DAMN she’s too pretty for them
@ how_about_never Hey hey Y/N- I lost my number, can I have yours? ;))))
@ prettymuchthatguy Catch me looping 21:40 - her laugh is adorable???
@ 33waystosaygoodbye Oh my gosh 19:43 ?? Her and Baby’s banter is so CUTE???
@ abbsssplez Abby when you’re ready for a girl who can commit to JUST YOU 😤😤😤 give me a call
@ pridebb-138 Okay but??? New album??? Hello??? 12:32 We’re just gonna GLOSS OVER THAT??? They’re CLEARLY talking about a new album????
@ anonynproud girl, Y/N, bestie - what mall do you shop at?? Where can I go that I can walk in looking for one thing and walk out with 5 hot boyfriends??? PLEASE
@ whatsthatguy Dude Y/N gets free BL every day- WHAT'S IT LIKE BEING GOD'S FAVORITE??
[Instagram]
(Reader posts the selfie that her and the boys took before the interview to her Instagram)
Caption: Figured I should share something to confirm that- yes you found my Instagram 😅😅 I don’t post on here THAT often, but you can have this cute selfie me and the boys took right before the interview <33 Our stylist did SUCH a great job with the outfits, I’m still obsessed 🤩🤩
Edit: Holy crap 1M likes??? And 300k new followers??? You guys are wild. Thank you <33 Hope you enjoy the minimal content I occasionally add to your feed LOL 🫶🫶
↳ @ babysaja shared this post to his story “In case you wanted to admire our cute gf yourself ;)”
↳ @ romancesaja shared this post to his story “😍😍😍”
↳ @ mysterysaja shared this post to his story
↳ @ abbysaja shared this post to his story “We’re lookin’ fine af 💪💪”
↳ @ jinusaja shared this post to his story “Because I know some of you guys would appreciate this photo <3”
@ jinusbabymama - Jinu looks EDIBLE UGH
@ zebraprinted821 - share your stylist PLEASE i love this look?????
@ valval-ox14 - who else is here from Baby's story?? 🤚🤚🤚
@ sajasajasaja - 😍😍🤩 need more of these selfies YESTERDAY
@ sajapridemama - Mommy? Sorry- Mommy? Sorry- Mommy?
》 @ proudfory/n - no HONESTLY she is such a lioness she needs her own lil Saja Figure
》 @ lionessy/n - she's so pretty i CAN'T
@ pretty-in-violet - now THAT'S a sandwich i want to be in the middle of 🥵🥵
@ thesajarabbithole - is it in Abby’s contract somewhere that he always has to have his chest showing? Or is it a personal choice? (Not complaining either way)
@ w0man1zer_x2 - if my hair could hold even HALF the shape that Romance’s seems to, i’d be elated
@ queers4h1re - i need to have a polycule meeting with my squad, clearly we need to step up our wardrobe game because i dont think we’ve EVER looked this coordinated #goals
@ immab4dbetch - WALK EM LIKE A DOG SIS!! 🗣🗣 WALK EM LIKE A DOG!!!
@ huntrxd0ntquit - i swear I saw Y/N hanging out with Huntr/x the other day- IS SHE DATING THEM TOO?? IS ALL OF KPOP POLY??
》 @ theansweris7 - lbsfr idol groups are sooo queer coded i mean come on?? U travel the world with a bunch of hot people and live with them?? Gay????
[Baby's Twitch Stream]
Baby grinned to himself as chat quickly began to fill up. He'd only been streaming for a little over a week now, but he was really enjoying it. He was glad Y/N had shown him Twitch, because it really was a fun way to game and connect with fans at the same time.
“Alright yes, yes, we're all excited to be here,” he said as chat kept flying by. “Yes, Mystery is here too.”
Mystery, as per usual, was tucked into their bean bag chair next to Baby's desk. They had a laptop open with the stream pulled up and a Steam deck with Valorant open in their lap. They held up a hand so the camera could see and waved to everyone.
“You need a cat cam but it's Mystery instead,” Baby read out of chat before laughing. “Maybe someday, but Min doesn't usually prefer to be on camera.”
“Would you ever consider playing Fortnite?” He read again. “Eh, maybe if the Saja Boys were added into the game.” He points at the camera. “I see Huntr/x in there Fortnite, so where's our cameo huh??”
“But I do play other games sometimes,” he shrugged, “Valorant is just one of my favorites. Min plays more games than I do, actually. Recently he and Y/N started a Stardew Farm together.” He grinned. “We got Y/N one of the new Switch 2s. Doll thought it was too much but,” he waves a hand dismissively, “what's the point of having money if you can't buy things for your partners?”
He glanced at chat again as he waited for the next match to start up. “Do we all call her doll? No, I call her doll,” he said, pointing to himself. “Min calls her starlight. Jinu calls her angel,” he rolled his eyes dramatically. “Rome usually calls her darling and Abby calls her sweetheart.”
“What does she usually call us?” He thought for a moment. “She's said things like babe a few times, but usually she just calls us by some variation of our names.” He smirked as a thought came to mind. “Loudly if I'm doing it right.”
Baby continued to smirk, proud of himself, as chat exploded at the comment.
Mystery shook their head. “She's gonna get you for that,” he said, just loud enough for chat to hear.
Baby waved a hand. “No she won't. She's probably not even watching-” his speech cuts off as light flooded the space behind him. His eyes widen as he turned to face the light, laughing nervously. “Wait, wait, doll, listen-”
A pillow smacks Baby in the head as he keeps laughing, bringing an arm up to defend himself. Y/N stepped into frame for the camera, just off to the side and partially turned away to face Baby.
She reached out and grabbed his headset by one of the cat ears, pulling him closer to her. “On stream Yujin??” She hissed at him.
Baby curled in on himself, bringing one leg up to further shield his body. He kept laughing, while also trying to plead with her. “Doll, I’m sorry, I can't help it that you're so hot- OW! Hey!”
Y/N grabbed the pillow and thumped him upside the head again. “A menace Baby. And here I was going to bring you some of the cookies Rome and I made-”
“No, no, Y/N,” Baby whined.
“Hey don't punish me for him being dumb,” Mystery added softly.
Y/N looked off screen fondly at the lavender haired boy. “Don't worry Min, I'll still bring one for you.” She whipped her head back to glare at Baby, pointing at him. “Thin ice, Yujin.” She said before walking away, closing the door behind her.
Baby turned to watch her walk away, his smirk slowly creeping back onto his face. He shook his head as he turned back towards his mic. “God she's hot when she gets riled up.”
Baby yelped, jumping in his chair suddenly and glaring down at Mystery, who had smacked him on the leg.
“I'm not following you this time if you get kicked out of bed tonight,” Mystery said.
Baby stared down at them, lips parted in shock. “But Min,” he whined.
“No.”
[TikTok]
A video from TikTok user @ imsajaandimproud. It’s a slide show with cute edits of Y/N with the song Spotlight playing in the background. The pictures are blank minus the last one that says, “Has anyone else been being like bombed by an account called @ notsobabysaja?”
The caption of the video says, “i know you’re watching this right now notsobabysaja.”
(Comments on the TikTok)
@ trackr3cord no fr they're so obsessed with all the Y/N edits, i swear i see their username in every comment section on my fyp
@ sajaboylov3r i swear they liked my most recent edit within seconds of me posting it. Obsessed much??
@ sajaboyscollective Honestly they should change their username to something to do with y/n cause clearly their bias shifted 🤣🤣 not that i blame them
》 @ babysbabygirl No FR like let someone else have that username who deserves it 😤
》 @ sajaboyscollective Ok no chill its not that deep
@ y/nspride Theyre trying to take my “Y/Ns biggest SIMP” award away from me and i wont stand for it 😤😤
》 @ notsobabysaja Sorry Y/N personally handed me that award so its already mine
》 @ y/nspride HELLO??? 🫵🫵🫵🫵
(@ notsobabysaja's profile on TikTok)
Bio: #1 Y/N SIMP
Following: 125 Followers: 5.2k Likes: 80k
Scrolling through their videos, they're all stitches of Y/N edits with reaction memes next to them. The memes all consist of fangirling and fainting, or wolf whistling.
Their most recent video is from 1 hour ago. Unlike the other videos on their page, this one they made themselves. It's a slideshow of pictures of Y/N.
Picture 1: Y/N is seen curled up in the corner of a couch. Golden light pours over her figure as she stares fondly at the camera, putting up a small peace sign.
Picture 2: A side profile picture of Y/N. She is grinning at someone unpictured, off screen. There are buildings behind her as this appears to be taken somewhere downtown.
Picture 3: Y/N is seen tucked under the arm of another person, who's cropped just out of frame. She is leaning into their side and sticking her tongue out at the person taking the picture. She has on an oversized coat that clearly belongs to someone else.
Picture 4: Y/N and Mystery are cuddled up together under one blanket. Both of them have their Nintendo Switch's in their hands. Y/N has her head rested on Mystery's shoulder, and they have their head rested on top of hers.
Picture 5: Y/N is sitting at a cafe table, checking her phone. On the table in front of her sits a drink and a pastry. The lighting is soft and the sky is lightly overcast, the sun clearly still rising. She looks content.
The caption of the video says, “prettiest member of the Saja Boys and she doesn't even know it 🙄🥴”
(Comments on the TikTok)
@ sajaboyscollective Wait wait wait these pictures literally arent online anywhere else???? HELLO IS THIS ONE OF THE SAJA BOYS??
@ y/nsfavoritepride SIR?? WHATS YOUR SOURCE I NEED 50 MORE OF THESE PHOTOS NOW?!!
@ follow4pride Guys guys… what if this is Baby's alt??
》 @ notsobabysaja (Creator) It literally says *not* so baby saja so obviously not 🙄
》 @ follow4pride HELLO???
@ g1rlpowerplease I'm gonna combust she's SO PRETTYY UGH
@ noticemey/n Guess who has a new lockscreen picture now?? 🤗🤗
@ dreamsrlost Mommy?? Sorry- Mommy? Sorry- Mommy?
》 @ notsobabysaja (Creator) Unoriginal + L + not your mommy
》 @ dreamsrlost Not *yet* 😏😏
》 @ notsobabysaja (Creator) Well GET IN LINE THEN YOU GOT A LOT OF MEAT TO GET THROUGH TO GET TO HER
》 @ thankyouy/n This crash out feels a little too personal 🤔🧐🧐
@ friends2lov3rs Come on OP share your source, dont be shy
》 @ notsobabysaja (Creator) ~no~ 🤗🤗🖕
》 @ friends2lov3rs Rude????
@ abbsgirlfr Achtualley 🤓☝️ Abby is the prettiest Saja Boy
》 @ notsobabysaja (Creator) Wrong. Source: me
@ bitemejinu Im no better than a man 😔😔 i see a pretty woman and i must bark
3 hours after the video was posted, it has skyrocketed to 1.3 million likes.
(@ notsobabysaja's profile on TikTok)
Bio: #1 Y/N SIMP + L + ratio + crash out
Following: 125 Followers: 182.5k Likes: 1.6m
TAGLIST:
@wolfiafuntime @lobsterwithaknife @sammy-a-87 @edgycatx @deputy-videogamer @originaltyphoonkryptonite @gamer-kat @craftygamerscrafts @chin-chii @mrsbabysaja @chaoticfivesworld @thestardeli @kpopgirliez @winter-solstice24 @sxlsvv @blackbirdystar @elemental-of-magic @yourtownidiot @simpdevil66 @myjointpainismoderatetosevere @unadulteratedwizardrunaway @golbincat @call-me-nyxx @what-just-happened-to-me @vipxl @colorfulotaku @nyxnightshade7656 @allezoboli @lizzy121599 @julia-loves-cupcakes @marydragneell @ashleygryffindor @the-sweet-psycho @lafy-taffy @viper-0800 @lavenderficwriter @ifera-ilsa @holaaaf @motherspider @bunniotomia @3xclusivemariii @foxinaforestofstars @mizuchan24-blog @princessmika224 @justwantsleepandcoffee @teffyx
When Darkness Finally Meets the Light (Chapter 4)
Pairings: Saja Boys x fem!Reader
Tags: Reincarnation, Soulmates, Polyamory
Rating: T
Summary:
The longer you are a demon the easier it is to only feel negative emotions or, worse, no emotions at all.
But there’s a legend, a whispered story of hope amongst demons, about finding a soulmate. They’re not once in a lifetime, as in if you miss them they never come back. No, many souls are old. They’ve seen multiple lifetimes. The older the soul, the more powerful they are up until a point- there comes a time when a soul reaches its epitome and moves on after their death, their final experience.
You find a soul like that, who’s also your soulmate, they say it can bring back your soul, your emotions.
Your desire to live.
But can it truly heal the curse of being controlled by Gwi-ma?
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The bus ride was uneventful, as usual. You headed up to your apartment, locking the door behind you and slipping off your shoes before pulling out your phone. You quickly shot off a text to Ari, letting her know you were home, and then did the same in the new group chat.
The boys immediately replied.
“Glad to hear it <3” Romance sent back first.
Baby sent a selfie of him getting his makeup done. He was sticking his tongue out and winking at the camera.
“So you don’t have to miss my face ;)” he sent along with the photo.
“Cocky :P” You sent back, stifling a laugh as you did.
A notification popped up from Ari. You clicked on it, taking you to her text thread instead.
“Glad to hear it! How were the boys? Were they nice to you??”
“They were,” you typed back as you headed into the living room and turned on the TV. “We're gonna hang out again soon, hopefully.”
“And Jinu? 👀”
Your phone buzzed as texts from the boys came in.
“Just got done with hair and makeup, how do I look?” Abby sent, along with a selfie. He was smirking at the camera. He had his head tilted up to show off his chiseled jaw with a hint of chest appearing at the bottom of the picture.
You quickly saved the picture to your phone and set it as his contact photo. Then you did the same with the picture Baby had sent earlier.
“You look great <3” you finally texted back before swapping back to your text with Ari. “Jinu was really nice. All of the boys were.”
“Did he flirt with you?” Ari fired back.
“Well…”
“Girl don't leave me in suspense!!”
“You know what polyamory is?”
Your phone immediately buzzed and you laughed before answering.
“Y/N yes I know what polyamory is-” Ari blurted out the second you picked up.
“Slow shop day huh?” You teased.
“It is, thank you for asking, but don't you try and distract me!” Ari chided. “So like, two of them are interested in you? Three? Are you into that? I need details!”
You laughed, a little more flustered now as you thought about what you'd learned today. “Um, okay, so it's all five of them-”
“Seriously??”
“Yes. I find it a bit hard to believe, too, but,” you sighed softly. “I mean, I'm interested in them, and they said they were interested in me. They paid for my food and walked me to the bus stop and waited with me. Also Romance kissed the back of my hand when we said goodbye which was actually really sweet?”
“And they seemed serious?” Ari checked. “You know I trust your judgement, but as your bestie I need to know how many shovel talks to give.”
You felt your heart unclench as you laughed. Even though you knew Ari would never judge your sexuality or choices in partner(s), it still felt relieving to hear her say it aloud. “Yes they were. We're not rushing into things, so it's not like we have a label for it yet, but I'm excited.”
“Ah!! I'm so excited for you too,” Ari squealed. “You tell me if one of them steps out of line, though. I don't care that there's five of them or that they're idols in the making, I'll kick their asses.”
“You could take ‘em,” you said with a grin.
“Damn right I could!” Ari laughed. “Alright, I probably shouldn't stay on the phone. Don't forget to record the variety show in case I miss some tonight.”
“Will do! I was just about to set up the TV now,” you replied, fiddling with the remote. “I'll see you tonight, ok? Text me when you're on your way home.”
“Of course girl, talk to you later!”
Once you had the TV set to record the show, you checked the time. You still had an hour before the variety show was going to be on, so you decided to prep your dinner.
“We just went through mic checks,” Jinu texted the group.
“Our outfits are very pink,” Mystery sent after, with a photo attached. It showed half of his head, covered by his hair like usual, but was primarily aimed over his shoulder. Behind him you saw each of the boys in individual chairs. Baby was on his phone, Jinu was talking to a crew member, and Abby and Romance were both posing for the camera. Abby was flexing and Romance was blowing a kiss.
Aaaand another photo saved to your phone.
Since they'd already sent you three pictures, you decided to send one of your own.
You were currently chopping some green onions to add to your ramyeon, you liked to make your instant noodles feel fancy after all. You held your camera up, making sure to get yourself and the chopping board in it before snapping the picture.
“prepping my dinner for tonights show~”
Romance and Abby immediately hearted your photo, while Baby reacted with a winky face.
“Wait how did you guys heart the picture?” Jinu texted.
“Baby just stole Jinu's phone,” Mystery sent shortly after that.
You smiled and propped your phone up on the counter so you could easily read their texts as you put the last touches on your ramyeon.
As you grabbed your drink and bowl and shuffled over to the couch, the group chat finally settled down.
“Okay we have to put our phones on silent now. Hope you enjoy the show :)” Jinu sent.
“When I wink at the camera, just know that's for you ;)” Abby sent after, before the group chat went quiet.
You pulled up your text thread with Ari. “Did you remember to change the channel at work?”
“I did! You ready to see your boys on TV?” Ari replied. “I wonder if they'll do the spicy challenge tonight.”
“Ooh I hope they do!”
The familiar theme song started to play on the TV, drawing your attention. “Good evening everyone! Are you ready to Play Games With Us?” The announcer said as the auto tune played over their words.
The audience went wild. “Then give it up for tonight's guests, the Saja Boys!”
The audience cheered, chanting “In the balls!” as the five boys slid down the slides into the waiting ball pit below.
Once the boys were all introduced and asked if they were excited, the host dove right into the first game. Each boy took a turn being blindfolded and had to guess the flavors of the sodas they were drinking. Two of the drinks got pranked by the host, but they were randomly chosen so none of the boys knew who was going to get it.
Mystery ended up winning by getting not only all of his drinks correct, but also correctly guessing what was in his drink that was pranked (it was soy sauce).
The second game was a trivia game about other famous boy bands, but if they got the question wrong they had to reach inside of a box and touch a mystery object. You laughed when Abby freaked out at touching a block of jello. You rewound and recorded the clip with your phone, sending it to the group chat with a laughing emoji.
The final game ended up being the spicy challenge, which you and Ari chatted about excitedly, betting on who you think would hold out. While you did think Mystery would last longer, you weren't surprised when Baby ended up winning, looking totally unphased.
Of course, you lost it when he deadpan said, “Goo goo ga ga.”
What really threw you through a loop was when Huntr/x made a sudden appearance. Leather on slide sounds not withstanding, you weren't sure why you felt on edge seeing them next to your boys.
And then you noticed them glaring, and a flash of a smirk on Baby's face (the others had their backs to the camera when it happened).
“What the hell did y'all do to piss off Huntr/x? I didn't even know they were gonna be on the show tonight.” You texted the group chat as the two bowed to each other and the show ended.
You took the time to clean up your dinner, now that the show was over, while also doing some other dishes and tidying up the kitchen a little. You hadn't been concerned that the boys hadn't replied, as you figured they had some post-show stuff to do. Now, though, it'd been at least 45 minutes since the show ended.
Why did you have a pit in your stomach? They were five, grown men. They weren't in any sort of danger just heading home from a TV shoot.
Instead of giving in to the urge to pace, you decided to go take a shower.
The steam helped relieve the tension you'd been holding in your body. What were you so concerned about? Yes you cared about them, but you'd only known them for a day (or two for Jinu) and not everyone checked their phones constantly.
When you finally turned off the water and began towel drying your hair, you saw your phone screen light up from where it was sitting on the countertop.
Once you had your hair up and your body wrapped in a towel, you finally picked up your phone.
You had two texts from Ari letting you know she was getting off work soon, followed by her saying she was on her way home. The other texts were from the boys.
“Sorry we got hung up backstage,” Abby sent.
“The Huntr/x girls didn't bother us,” Mystery sent at the same time.
And the reason your phone lit up was because of a text from Romance.
“We just got back to our place for the evening. We would love to meet up with you tomorrow <3”
Something about the first two texts still had you on edge, and you found yourself hitting the call button on the first person you clicked without thinking. Just as you registered what you'd done, Romance answered.
“Hello darling.”
“Ah, sorry, I shouldn't have called without asking,” you blurted out, flustered. “I know some people don't like that. I was just- I don't know I wanted to make sure you guys were okay which is weird because you're clearly fine-”
“Hey,” Romance interrupted, his voice soft. “It's fine. I could never be upset at the chance to hear your voice.”
You let out a breath you didn't realize you'd been holding. “That's very sweet Romance.”
“It's just the truth, I promise,” he said. “Now what were you concerned about?”
You padded into your bedroom as you spoke. “It's silly. I don't know. I just- I love Huntr/x. I went to their concert a few nights ago! So I don't know why seeing them next to you guys set me on edge. And it wasn't jealousy, either. I was- I felt scared for you guys.”
There was a pause on the other side of the line. You ended up barrelling on. “I know it's ridiculous-”
“Sorry, Baby was trying to steal the phone from me,” Romance said with a strained chuckle. “It’s not as ridiculous as you may think. It's complicated, but I promise we're okay. They won't hurt us.”
That settled something inside of you, despite it raising quite a few questions at the same time.
You pursed your lips. “Will you guys explain that more eventually?”
“Of course we will,” Romance reassured. “Now, would you like to meet up tomorrow? Perhaps we could go grab coffee in the morning?”
You smiled. “That'd be nice. I have to go to work tomorrow, anyway. There's a cute cafe not far from my job. I can text you the address if you'd like?”
“Please do darling,” he replied. “Just let us know the time to-”
His words cut off with a stifled gasp.
“Is Baby trying to steal the phone again?” You teased lightly.
“Ah, I'm sorry,” Romance replied, voice sounding strained. “I have to go. We'll see you in the morning, I promise.”
And before you could reply, the line went dead.
You stared at the screen for a moment, your heart rate picking up. It was such an odd way to end a phone call, but maybe one of the boys had been messing with him?
Before your thoughts could spiral further, you heard the front door open. You slipped on the rest of your pajamas and headed back out into the living room to catch up with Ari.
Everything was fine, surely. You sent the group chat the location and time and slipped your phone back into your pocket.
You'd see them in the morning.
Everything was fine.
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When Darkness Finally Meets the Light (Chapter 20)
Pairings: Saja Boys x fem!Reader
Tags: Reincarnation, Soulmates, Polyamory, Angst
Rating: T+
Summary:
The longer you are a demon the easier it is to only feel negative emotions or, worse, no emotions at all.
But there’s a legend, a whispered story of hope amongst demons, about finding a soulmate. They’re not once in a lifetime, as in if you miss them they never come back. No, many souls are old. They’ve seen multiple lifetimes. The older the soul, the more powerful they are up until a point- there comes a time when a soul reaches its epitome and moves on after their death, their final experience.
You find a soul like that, who’s also your soulmate, they say it can bring back your soul, your emotions.
Your desire to live.
But can it truly heal the curse of being controlled by Gwi-ma?
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Being let into the building the next morning went smoothly, not a question asked once you presented yourselves to the receptionist. Now, the six of you were in a high speed elevator heading to the top of the building.
A building with Huntr/x’s logo on it.
You weren’t freaking out inside slightly, not at all.
Mystery slid up beside you, their hand settling on your back, gently rubbing it. “Relax starlight,” he whispered.
You took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “You're right. They're just people too, it's not that big of a deal.”
The elevator dinged and opened up to a large living room surrounded by walls of glass, overlooking the city. The girls were standing near the couch that took up the center of the room.
“Hi! Morning!” Zoey greeted cheerfully.
“Glad you got up here alright,” Rumi said before clapping her hands together. “So, we did some research to see if we could find anything else. We didn't find much more on soulmates, but we did learn more about bright souls like yours, Y/N.”
“Yeah!” Zoey chimed in. “The hunters throughout history have different stories of how bright souls helped them.”
“Apparently bright souls are almost like a battery for the Honmoon,” Mira drawled.
Rumi nodded. “Not only that, but they tend to draw on the Honmoon without realizing it, usually creating a barrier for those closest to them.”
“Is that something I can control willingly?” You asked.
Mira shrugged. “I don't see why not. It seems like a defensive version of what we do with the Honmoon,” she explained before dragging her hand through the air, making an impressive blade materialize in her hand.
“You already have some control over it,” Romance pointed out. “If you didn't, we might not be standing here.”
The three girls looked confused. “What do you mean by that?” Rumi asked.
“Gwi-ma had pulled us into the demon realm,” Romance said smoothly, “and she pulled us back out.”
“But I don't know if I could do it again,” you whispered.
“I think you could,” Mystery mused.
“How did you do it the first time?” Rumi asked.
“I just felt like something was tugging at me, so I tugged back,” you said with a shrug.
“Well let's see if you can do it again in not dire circumstances,” Zoey suggested. “That's what we're meeting up for, right? To try and learn more about how your bond works?”
“Did you pull them all at once?” Mira asked. “Or one at a time?”
“I pulled Romance, Abby, and Baby at the same time, first, and then Jinu and Mystery after,” you answered. “I don’t know how I pulled some of them and not all of them at once.”
“Can you feel the bond within you?” Rumi questioned. “Can you tell who is who or is it just one giant bond?”
“I don’t… I don’t know?”
Zoey clapped her hands together. “Well, let’s find out then! Y/N, you come over here, and boys, you need to spread out.” She came over to the group of you and grabbed you by the arm, pulling you away from the boys.
You heard Baby growl and you turned your head to glare at him. “This is literally why we came here, calm down.”
Zoey moved you to stand across the room near the windows while Rumi and Mira shuffled the other boys so they were further apart, spread across the room.
“So,” Zoey said, facing you, “if your connection is anything like ours, we were taught to feel inward in order to connect outward.”
“What she means is your ties to the Honmoon, and by extension the boys, begins inside of you,” Rumi explained, coming over to stand by Zoey. “We had to learn to identify the part inside of us before we could manipulate what was outside of us.”
“It'll probably help to close your eyes at first,” Mira suggested. “Once you get more used to it, you'll be able to do it anytime.”
You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, trying to feel what you had felt the other day.
You could still sense it there. Unlike the other day, it felt calm, cozy even. You experimentally tried to tug at it.
“Wait, did you just do something?” Rumi asked.
You opened your eyes and saw all five boys staring at you, their hands on their chests.
“I… yeah? I tried to tug at it again like I did last time,” you answered, glancing between the girls and your boys.
“What did you guys feel?” Rumi asked, pointing at the boys.
“It was almost like the feeling when I want to teleport somewhere, but directed at Y/N,” Abby answered.
“I almost ran over to her,” Mystery said.
Baby nodded in agreement.
“Nice job,” Mira said, making you smile.
“Can you just try and interact with just one of the bonds?” Zoey prompted excitedly.
“I’ll try,” you said, closing your eyes again.
It was easy enough to identify the feeling- the bond again. You tried to focus on it, see if you could tell any of the boys apart.
Last time you did it because two of them were still in pain and the others weren’t. Obviously you didn’t want them to be in pain now to test that, so you tried to notice any emotional differences.
You felt contentment, curiosity, boredom, amusement… but they all intertwined with each other.
You huffed in frustration and opened your eyes. “They all feel the same.”
“You said you pulled them to you separately though, last time,” Rumi said, arms crossed with a confused look on her face. “How did you do that?”
“They- they were in pain,” you admitted softly. “When I had three of them back, I could still tell which two were missing.”
“Stab wounds don’t have to be fatal you know,” Mira said with a smirk.
You heard one of the boys growl, but you snapped at her before they could, pointing a finger at her aggressively. “You’re not hurting them.”
You heard Baby groan. “You can’t just say shit like that when I’m way over here!”
Since you’d been paying attention to it, you noticed when the bond inside of you flared at his words. You reacted, grabbing the feeling as it went by and pulling-
Suddenly, Baby was right in front of you. He blinked for a second as he realized what happened, before he was quickly smirking, putting a hand on your waist. “Much better,” he purred, nose brushing against yours.
“Okay so being in pain or being thirsty then, huh?” Mira noted with a smirk.
You put a finger to Baby’s lips, leaning back slightly. “No making out in front of other people.”
Baby grumbled, slipping behind you instead. He wrapped his arms around your waist, resting his head on your shoulder.
Rumi snorted. “Okay, is it easier or harder to feel the other boys now that he’s closer?” she asked.
You closed your eyes again and tried to ignore the feeling of Baby pressed against you.
The bond did feel different. It wasn’t drastic, and if you hadn’t been checking it so frequently, you wouldn’t have noticed.
Part of it felt… brighter. Warmer.
At peace, even.
You were able to separate that feeling from the rest of the bond, but beyond that… it still felt too similar to discern anyone from each other.
You rubbed your temples. “I don’t know, not really. I can tell Baby apart now that he’s closer, but that’s it.”
“Then maybe we should take one of the other boys further away,” Rumi suggested.
Zoey nodded. “We did want to test how far your shield went.”
You felt nervous and you knew it wasn’t just coming from yourself. Baby’s arms tightened around you slightly.
“I’ll do it,” Jinu said, sounding slightly dejected but doing his best not to show it.
You formed your hands into a heart shape, directed at him. He smiled softly at you.
“Don’t worry, we won’t go far for this first one,” Zoey said as she walked over to Jinu. “We’ll go down to the first floor and hang out for a second, then come back.”
You hadn’t even realized you tensed up as Jinu stepped into the elevator until Baby spoke.
“Easy doll,” Baby murmured in your ear.
“Sorry,” you whispered, glancing at the girls and then back at the closing elevator door. “We just… haven’t exactly been that far apart since the whole Gwi-ma incident.”
“He’ll be okay,” Rumi told you. “He has you to keep him safe.”
You nodded, giving her a half-hearted smile, before focusing back on the elevator door.
You closed your eyes, looking at the bond once more.
Once again, it was easy to ignore Baby’s portion of the bond. You investigated the rest of it, trying to sift through it.
One portion of it started to feel… further away. You did your best to focus on just that portion, but it felt a bit fuzzy. You felt your eyebrows furrow as you concentrated. Why could you more easily identify Baby’s portion of the bond? Was it really a distance thing? But Jinu also wasn’t pulled in the first time when you saved the boys from Gwi-ma. Was it something to do with him?
Your train of thought was suddenly interrupted as you felt that portion of the bond slip away. Not gone, but more out of reach.
Before you fully realized what you were doing, you grabbed for that part of the bond and tugged. It was harder than when you pulled Baby, but you didn’t stop. Your breathing quickened, heart rate doubling, as you grappled with it.
You heard Rumi gasp just as the feeling gave. Your eyes snapped open and you saw Jinu standing in front of you, smiling fondly.
You grabbed the front of his shirt and yanked him closer, burying your head in his chest. “I didn’t go far. It’s alright angel,” he soothed, bringing a hand up to rest on the back of your head.
“How far did you make it?” Rumi asked.
You felt Jinu’s chest rumble slightly as he answered. “We’d just stepped out of the elevator.”
“Did you notice anything change?” Mira questioned.
“I did,” Jinu replied. “We’ve felt it before, though we’ve never paid attention to the exact distance.” His thumb gently brushed over the back of your head, soothingly. “It feels like stepping away from a fireplace on a cold night.”
“What about you, Y/N?”
You made yourself lift your head. Jinu didn’t step away, though, he just moved his hand down to hold yours, instead. “I never really noticed before, but I was trying to pay attention to the bond. Some part of it became… fuzzy? Hard to read, I guess. I was thinking about why that could be when it became very- far.” You blinked, glancing at Jinu, who was watching you. “It felt out of my reach, and it reminded me of how it felt when I was reaching for you guys to bring you back.”
Jinu kissed your forehead lightly while Baby nuzzled against the back of your neck.
“Can we come back over there now?” Abby called from across the room.
“Please,” you replied, and instantly your other three boys were beside you.
The elevator door opened and Zoey stepped out. “Did you guys see that, too?” She asked, looking at Rumi and Mira.
The two of them nodded and you glanced between the girls, confused. “See what?”
“The Honmoon rippled when you pulled Jinu back,” Rumi answered as Zoey joined the rest of you on the other side of the room.
“Did it do that when I pulled Baby over, too?”
Rumi and Zoey shook their heads while Mira shrugged.
“I think it was because he wasn’t shielded by you when it happened,” Zoey offered. “I could tell the moment he wasn’t. Their souls are all tethered to yours, but his became untethered around the 5th floor or so. You may have had to tap more into the Honmoon to locate him and pull him back because of it.”
“It could also be because his tether is weaker,” Mira said.
You didn’t like how that sounded. “What do you mean?”
“I’ve been paying attention to your ties to each of them while you’ve been here,” Mira replied. “Your ties with Abby, Romance, and Baby are very lively and bright. Your ties to Mystery and Jinu, however, not so much.”
Your heart clenched. You could almost feel the boys’ reaction to this information.
Mystery and Jinu were the two who you didn’t pull back right away- was that why? Or did you not pull them back first because the tie was… weaker.
Jinu hadn’t had as much of a chance to hang out with you one-on-one, but Mystery certainly had.
You didn’t care about them any less than the other boys so why-
“I feel like we’ve given you a lot to think about,” Rumi said, pulling you out of your thoughts. “How about we convene for today and meet up again tomorrow?”
You nodded, brain whirling with questions. “Yeah, good idea.”
“We’ll keep trying to find more information about all of this,” Zoey promised. “If you need anything, or have any questions, feel free to text, okay?”
You gave a small smile. “We appreciate all your help, truly.”
“Hopefully we can find a good answer to all of this,” Rumi said.
“We will,” you said with certainty.
“Back to our place?” Abby asked.
You nodded, waving bye to the girls before you were teleported back to the boys’ familiar living room.
Instantly, you were looking at Mystery and Jinu. “You guys know I care about you just as much, right?”
Mystery nodded and Jinu gave you a small, sad smile. “We know, angel.”
“I don’t- I just don’t know why your guys’ bond would be different,” you said, stress leaking into your tone.
“I… may have a theory,” Jinu started with a soft sigh.
You looked at him, worried. “Yeah?”
Jinu looked at the ground for a moment, arms crossed over his chest, before he finally started speaking again. “It seems like you don’t share a past life with us.”
“Do we know that for sure?” You asked.
Jinu shrugged. “None of the stories you’ve shared so far relate to ours.”
“I’ve been having dreams like this for years. I’ve written down nearly all of them. I mean surely one of them has, right?” You argued. “Why would I be soulmates with you and overlap with Yujin, Rome, and Dae-hwan and not you guys? That… That just wouldn’t be fair…”
“You can’t choose your past lives, angel,” Jinu replied softly but firmly. “It wouldn’t be your fault.”
You massaged your temples. “Can we… can we just sit down and talk about this? I’ll get my journals and, if you guys are comfortable, you can tell me about your past lives. Maybe it’ll jog my memory, too.”
Jinu glanced at Mystery, who gave a single nod. “Part of me hopes you weren’t there,” Mystery admitted quietly.
“Well,” you said, “there’s only one way to find out.”
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When Darkness Finally Meets the Light (Chapter 17)
Pairings: Saja Boys x fem!Reader
Tags: Reincarnation, Soulmates, Polyamory, Angst
Rating: T+
Summary:
The longer you are a demon the easier it is to only feel negative emotions or, worse, no emotions at all.
But there’s a legend, a whispered story of hope amongst demons, about finding a soulmate. They’re not once in a lifetime, as in if you miss them they never come back. No, many souls are old. They’ve seen multiple lifetimes. The older the soul, the more powerful they are up until a point- there comes a time when a soul reaches its epitome and moves on after their death, their final experience.
You find a soul like that, who’s also your soulmate, they say it can bring back your soul, your emotions.
Your desire to live.
But can it truly heal the curse of being controlled by Gwi-ma?
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The boys had originally planned on taking you to the studio that evening, but they decided to have dinner at your place instead since Ari was working a closing shift.
The discussion that followed went better than anticipated.
“We're sorry we didn't talk with you about this sooner,” Jinu said as the six of you sat in your living room. “We- we just want you to be safe, so we did what we know how to do best.”
“I'm not mad at you guys for wanting to protect me,” you told them all. “It just doesn't feel like a permanent solution. I don't want to live in fear constantly, and I don't want you guys to, either.”
You all agreed to try and learn more about the bond, one way or another.
“Maybe we just need to spend more time together,” Baby suggested. “Jokes aside… I already feel lighter more often, even when you’re not around now.”
Which is how you got roped into staying at their place overnight, again, sandwiched between Jinu and Romance.
The following morning started off fine. The boys let you know last night that they had another meeting to attend regarding the soda lines, but that they’d make sure to be around as much as they could. They tried to be more relaxed as you got ready for your day, being teasingly affectionate as you tried to head out the door. You gave them all a kiss good-bye and grabbed your coffee before Abby and Baby walked with you to work.
The skies that morning were grey and overcast. Abby made sure to bring you an umbrella, insisting you take it with you into work today.
It was a good thing he did, because an hour into your shift, it started pouring. You stared out the window, something in your stomach clenching as you watched the rain streak down the glass.
You weren’t sure why you felt so on edge.
The fact that the boys hadn’t texted you in the last hour wasn’t helping.
Your body refused to relax as the day went on. Your heart beat was a constant thump in your ears. You tried to pause and just breathe for a bit, but it didn’t help.
You could barely eat your lunch.
Your body was itching to go. You just wanted to leave and you didn’t know why.
Something’s wrong.
You felt like something was tugging at you, like you were forgetting something.
Like something was missing.
You just couldn’t settle down no matter how hard you tried.
When the time ticked over for you to leave work, you all but bolted out the door.
It was still raining as you stepped outside. You fumbled with your umbrella, looking around near frantically as you tried to spot one of your boys.
They hadn’t said they weren’t going to pick you up.
“Raow.”
Your head snapped to the left and you spotted Derpy trotting up to you. You finally got the umbrella open and squatted down.
“Hey Derpy, are any of the boys with you?”
Derpy meowed again, louder. He bonked his head against your leg and immediately turned around to walk away.
He paused and looked back over his shoulder at you, expectantly.
“Oh, did you want me to follow?”
He led you over to the bus stop that linked with the boys’ condo, checking back on you constantly to make sure you were still with him.
“You know you can’t come on the bus- right?” You asked as you came to a stop.
Derpy didn’t seem bothered. Instead, he leapt up, easily landing on your shoulders.
And then, he disappeared.
You blinked. His weight was still clearly there, but you just couldn’t see him anymore.
“Well, that’s one solution.”
Your heart was still racing beyond your normal levels. Standing still at the bus stop felt like agony. Your foot started tapping as you resisted the urge to pace.
Something was wrong.
You whipped out your phone and sent a text to the group chat.
“Hey! I’m on my way over to your place. Derpy came and picked me up.”
The last text you’d sent before that was from 6 hours ago.
No one had replied.
You felt a bump against your neck. Even though you couldn’t see him, your knew it was Derpy rubbing his head against you.
It calmed you down a little, but not much.
The bus ride was only moderately better than standing in one place. At least you were able to see the world going by. You felt more like you were doing something than just having to wait for something to happen.
Finally, you were able to leave the bus. You had to resist the urge to sprint, fast walking out and over to the front door.
Thankfully, the boys had given you the code to get into their place when you spent the night Monday.
The elevator ride felt like an eternity, and by the time you were unlocking their door, your heart was in your throat.
Derpy leapt off your shoulder as you stepped inside, seamlessly transforming back into his normal, tiger self.
“Boys?” you called out cautiously, though you didn’t expect a response.
You didn’t get one.
Finally, you gave in to the urge to pace.
“What the hell is going on Derpy?” You asked the cat, who was sitting near the window, watching you.
Suddenly you heard a chirping sound. You whipped around, heartrate skyrocketing.
There, on the kitchen island, was a black bird wearing a tiny hat.
Derpy just walked over and sat by the island, which made the bird get up and crawl onto Derpy’s head.
“Great, okay, there’s a bird here too. Not exactly helpful,” you hissed to yourself.
The bird chirped again and pecked at the island.
No- it was pecking at a phone that was sitting on the island.
You stepped over, almost afraid to have your theory about who’s phone it was confirmed.
You touched the screen and your stomach sank.
It was Baby’s.
Something had to have happened.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck- What do I do?” You hissed as you paced more.
You felt like crying.
You took a moment to let the feelings wash over you. A few tears escaped, but you tried to breathe through it.
Now wasn’t the time to panic.
You sat down on the couch, staring out at the scenery as you tried to think back through the day.
All five of them had been there with you this morning. They all acted totally fine. They were texting you like normal until about an hour into your work day.
That’s when the rain had started and when your body started to feel… odd.
Was it the bond? Could you somehow sense them through it?
From what you’d read on the yeoleo saeng-ae, and from what that demon the other day had talked to you about, your bond was important, powerful even. You had always felt like you were more aware of the world than other people, but you never looked into it that much.
Maybe you just needed to listen to your gut on this.
You closed your eyes and tried to actually identify what you were feeling.
On the surface, it reminded you of times when you were anxious or stressed. The more you thought about it, however, the more you realized it wasn’t quite coming from you.
What was it coming from, then?
It felt important. Your body responded to the feelings, but not by mimicking them. No, you were stressed because the feelings were of pain and anger.
You wanted them to stop, but you didn’t know how, so your body was just throwing everything at the wall until something changed.
If “tugging on your heart strings” was a genuine sensation, that was what you were experiencing. It was a pull towards something.
… It almost reminded you of how it felt seeing the boys for the first time.
Getting to talk to them and connect with them had satisfied that feeling originally, but now they weren’t here. How would you fix it, then?
You felt your heart rate increase again, but this time from frustration.
Something kept tugging at you.
It felt like it was a part of you, just a part that was far away.
Out of reach.
Could you try and reach for it?
You weren’t sure exactly what you were doing, but you were trying to think less and trust your instincts more.
So you reached out to whatever was tugging inside of you-
-and you tugged back.
It was harder than you expected. You gasped as feelings of agony coursed through you.
But they weren’t your own.
You gritted your teeth and tugged harder, not knowing what you were doing, but knowing that it felt right.
Finally, something gave.
You heard a familiar sound as a pink poof quickly revealed Baby, Abby, and Romance.
They were in their demon forms, and they were gasping for air.
You were instantly on your feet, stepping over to where they were collapsed on the ground. “Yujin? Dae-hwan? Rome?” You asked, panicked.
All three of their gazes snapped to you and suddenly you were surrounded.
They were clutching you, bodies trembling.
“What happened? Are you okay? Where are Jinu and Mystery?” You rambled off.
Something in you had settled now that these three were in your arms, but not fully.
“They’re still-” Abby started to say, his voice layered, otherworldly. He stopped himself though and just buried his face into your stomach, shaking his head.
“Whatever you did,” Romance rasped, not lifting his head from where it was tucked against your side, “do it again.”
You closed your eyes, trying to locate the sensation again. You noticed some of the parts, from earlier, felt like they were closer now, so you ignored those.
When you found it, you grabbed once more, and tugged harder.
It felt like your heart wanted to escape out of your chest. You gritted your teeth, ignoring the pain that shot through you. You needed them back now.
You heard a gasp just as you felt the sensation finally give in. You immediately opened your eyes and saw Jinu and Mystery both keeled over on the floor, clutching their chests.
“Jinu! Mystery!” you called out, the feeling in your chest finally settling.
Before you could blink, Jinu and Mystery were on you, too.
Your mind was reeling. You had so many questions. What happened? Were they okay? Why couldn’t you reach them? Why could you reach them? Had Gwi-ma done this?
You were pretty sure you knew the answer to the last one.
The way the five of them were clinging to you, like their lives depended on it, made your questions feel less important.
You gently touched each of their heads, running your hand through their hair as you spoke soft reassurances to them.
You’re not sure how long you stood there with the five of them surrounding you. You would’ve stood there for hours if you had to. Eventually, though, they started to relax.
It was Baby who moved first.
When he shifted, you immediately looked at him. His claws were gone and his skin was closer to human-toned than not. His patterns still tracked down his arm and creeped up his neck. He slowly lifted his head to meet your gaze, and your heart clenched at the sight.
His complexion was pale, his golden eyes were faraway, as if trying to still focus back on the present.
He looked wrecked.
“What happened?” you pleaded, reaching down to cup his face.
His upper lip curled. “It was Gwi-ma,” he spat, before suddenly wincing again.
“What did he do to you?” You asked, voice breaking. “What can I do to help?”
“You already are,” Rome whispered as he nuzzled into your side, fingers flexing where he was touching you.
“Just… being near you helps,” Abby agreed, voice still rough but sounding closer to human.
You frowned, wishing you could do more. You continued running your hair through their hair, hoping it helped.
After another moment, Romance finally stood up. “Come on, let’s at least move to the couch so our darling can sit,” he said, voice low. He wrapped his arms around your waist, purple patterns still faintly marking his skin, easily manhandling you onto the corner seat of the couch.
The rest of the boys followed like you were magnetic. You were seated between Rome’s legs, while the other boys piled in and on top of each other just to make sure they still had a hand on you somewhere.
It’d be sweet if it didn’t make your heart ache.
“Are you guys… hurt?” You asked quietly.
“He doesn’t hurt us physically,” Baby growled.
“You guys have mentioned hearing his voice before… Is that what he did? Is it normally this bad?”
“He-” Jinu started, then stopped for a moment, fingers digging into you further. “He twisted his words- made it all involve you.”
“I just kept seeing you bleeding out in front of me,” Abby breathed, voice catching. “Your blood could never come off of my hands.”
“I just kept seeing you leave,” Baby whispered. “No matter what I did, I couldn’t bring you back.”
“Anytime I tried to reach you, you always chose someone else," Rome said, voice full of anguish.
Your heart twisted in rage. “I'm gonna kill him.”
Abby snorted. “You're gonna kill Gwi-ma?”
“Yeah! I am!”
Jinu looked up at you, golden eyes filled with desperation. “He's looking for you. He wants you dead. You can't-”
“No,” you cut him firmly. “He grabbed you guys to get to me, because he can't find me. He's lying. It's all he can do.” You huffed. “I'm not saying I know how to do this, but if I was able to pull you guys to me like that I mean…”
“Trust me darling,” Romance whispered, gently kissing the back of your hand, “you saved us more than you can realize.”
“We just- I need to figure out how to make sure it doesn't happen in the future,” you whispered. “I don't want you guys to get hurt again.”
The five boys snuggled closer, the desperation to their touches having subsided greatly. You even felt Mystery begin to purr.
It gave you time to think.
“What if… we try to talk with Huntr/x about this?”
Instantly all five boys tensed up.
You instantly started explaining. “Listen, they hate Gwi-ma, and we hate Gwi-ma. They might know more about how we can fix all of this, make it so you guys don't get taken from me again.”
Baby growled against your side. “I don't like it,” he grumbled.
“Look, they definitely took note of me at the Semi Finals,” you said. “But they were still entirely nice to me. If I come along, I can help explain it to them.”
Abby's growl matched Baby's. You ignored them and looked at Jinu. “Can you try and get Rumi to meet up with us tonight?”
Jinu sighed, eyes shifting back to brown. “Alright angel, we'll try it.”
“If they even look at you wrong, I'm ripping their arms off,” Baby growled.
You pet his head with a smile. “Well if they try to attack you, I'll also try and kick their asses.”
Baby froze, staring at you. He licked his lips. “You sure you want to leave the bed tonight?” He asked, voice a little deeper than normal.
You snorted, shoving his head playfully when suddenly a thought crossed your mind.
“Shit, I need to text Ari.”
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When Darkness Finally Meets the Light (Chapter 23)
Pairings: Saja Boys x fem!Reader
Tags: Reincarnation, Soulmates, Polyamory, Angst
Rating: T+
Summary:
The longer you are a demon the easier it is to only feel negative emotions or, worse, no emotions at all.
But there’s a legend, a whispered story of hope amongst demons, about finding a soulmate. They’re not once in a lifetime, as in if you miss them they never come back. No, many souls are old. They’ve seen multiple lifetimes. The older the soul, the more powerful they are up until a point- there comes a time when a soul reaches its epitome and moves on after their death, their final experience.
You find a soul like that, who’s also your soulmate, they say it can bring back your soul, your emotions.
Your desire to live.
But can it truly heal the curse of being controlled by Gwi-ma?
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Before you all went to bed that night, you made sure to text Ari and let her know about the signing.
“Wait, am I coming to the signing?” You asked, looking up from your phone.
“Why wouldn’t you be?” Baby asked.
“I mean, I’m not your manager or anything, I’m just me,” you replied. “I guess I just don’t know how it’d look if I was just… there?”
“Well we want you there,” Abby said simply.
You snorted. “And you guys always get what you want, yes?”
Romance knelt on the bed, leaning over you. “When it comes to you darling,” he said, reaching over to cup your chin, “I’m afraid we won’t budge.”
Your heart fluttered at his close proximity, a faint blush creeping up your face. “O-oh, okay.”
Romance smirked, leaning in to kiss you. You leaned up to meet him, sighing softly in contentment. Before you could keep going, Rome pulled back, winking at you. “Sleep well darling.”
You ended up sleeping cuddled up between Jinu and Abby. At one point you heard Abby murmuring softly to Jinu before the two shared a kiss.
You fell asleep with a smile on your face.
The next morning, Ari excitedly told you she was near the front of the line for the meet and greet. You grinned as you got ready for the day, showing the text to the boys.
Abby snorted. “We all know she’s there for Hutnr/x’s autographs, not ours.”
You laughed. “I mean, that’s probably true.”
Once you all managed to drag Baby out of bed and into actual clothes, you piled into the car Bobby sent and were driven to the signing location.
The car dropped you off around the back. You were all led to a large room, where a long table was set up underneath a sign that read, “Huntr/x & Saja Boys.” The Huntr/x girls were standing in the middle of the room, chatting with Bobby. On the table there were several different posters and pictures printed out to sign for the fans if they didn’t bring their own things.
“Ah, good morning!” Bobby greeted, waving at the group. “We have coffee and breakfast items available just over there,” he points at a table. “Feel free to help yourselves!”
“Do you want anything darling?” Romance asks you.
“I can get it myself,” you tell him, but he just smiles.
“Nonsense.”
You roll your eyes fondly. “I’ll take a coffee and a bagel please.”
He kissed the side of your head. “Coming up.”
“Oh, Y/N!” Bobby said. “Here you go.”
He passed you a badge that says “VIP” and “Saja Boys” on it.
“Oh, thank you,” you replied, smiling at him before slipping it over your head.
“You look good with our name on you sweetheart,” Abby purred, leaning over your shoulder to kiss your cheek.
“You know people are definitely going to question who I am after this event, right?” You commented, raising an eyebrow.
Baby came back over, chugging a coffee. “Then let's get ahead of it,” he said, stepping in front of you and opening the camera on his phone. He raised his coffee to get it in the picture. “Smile, doll.”
Baby snapped a picture of him, you, and Abby. You saw him add the text, “Our GF is gonna be at the signing today, so be nice,” over the picture before posting it to his story.
You laughed. “My god you're a maniac.”
Baby shrugged. “They'd find out eventually,” he brushed up against your side, smirking. “As much as we'd like to keep you to ourselves, we also want to show you off.”
Your phone buzzed in your pocket and you fished it out to check what it was.
It was a text from Ari.
“Did Baby add a picture of you to his story??”
“Oh my god…” you muttered to yourself, shaking your head. “You saw that already? What do you have their notifs on?”
“No LOL the other fans out here do, though, and some of them are freaking out and speculating.” She replied. She sent another text right after. “They have no idea they're standing right next to her bestie 😏”
Romance appeared beside you, handing you a coffee and a bagel on a plate. “Here you go darling.”
“Thank you Rome,” you said, leaning over to kiss his cheek.
Bobby clapped his hands. “Okay, the doors open in 10 minutes. Let's discuss seating.”
The two idol groups followed Bobby over to the signing table. They ended up sitting intermingled, with the goal of fans not having to choose one group over the other.
Your phone buzzed again. “Before you know it you're gonna have that verified mark I'm telling you.”
“Maybe you will too!” You replied before typing out another text. “The doors open in like 8 minutes, so I'll see you soon!”
You slipped your phone back into your pocket and walked over to the table.
Bobby smiled at you as you stopped beside him. “By the way, Y/N, there's a lounge in the back if you want to step away at any time. Obviously you're welcome to hang out here, pull a chair up even, just wanted to let you know.”
“Thanks Bobby, I appreciate it,” you replied, smiling back.
“Of course! If you need anything at all, just holler, okay?” He looked at the two groups. “Doors open in 5 minutes!”
With that, he walked away to talk to some of the security staff that were stationed around the room.
“So if you guys did something last night, it made the bond with Jinu stronger,” Mira said, leaning in to keep her voice slightly down.
Jinu's eyes widened. “Really?”
You beamed, something in your heart unclenching. “Good, I hoped so.” You glanced at Jinu and blew a kiss at him.
“Ew, not in front of my coffee,” Mira gagged.
“I think it's cute,” Zoey said.
You smiled at Zoey before looking around. “Well, I should probably find a seat or something off to the side-”
“There's room by me sweetheart,” Romance said with a grin from his spot at the end of the table.
“Guys come on, I don't want to be in the way,” you muttered, looking to the Huntr/x girls to back you up.
Which, of course, they didn't.
“You won't be in the way,” Zoey reassured you.
“Plus, the boys being taken may make some of their fans convert back to us,” Rumi pointed out.
Mira snorted. “Yeah unfortunately that's probably true. You should've seen the outcry from random men online when I first kissed a girl.” She rolled her eyes. “Heaven forbid they couldn't date me in their minds anymore.”
“Two minutes!” Bobby called across the room.
“Let me grab a chair,” you said, setting your coffee down at the table and pulling one over from across the room. “If it gets too crazy, though, I'm leaving.”
Abby leaned over the table to look at you, winking. “Don't worry sweetheart, we'd protect you.”
You shook your head fondly and settled in next to Romance. You debated getting out your phone, but decided it would be rude.
“Wait! Y/N, take a picture before all the fans get here,” Zoey said, leaning over the table to slide her phone down to you.
You slid open the camera and flipped it around, holding it so you could easily see down the table. “Say Golden!”
Your boys grumbled playfully but all posed for the photo while the Huntr/x girls laughed. You snapped a few before handing Zoey her phone back. “Make sure you send some of those to me, too,” you told her.
“Oh of course!” She said before you saw two of the security members walking towards the main door.
Bobby came over and stationed himself in front of the table as the influx of fans poured into the room. He quickly got them organized and reminded them they could only get one item signed per person.
The room was buzzing with excitement as fans snapped photos from the line. It was honestly surreal to be on this side of it, even though you knew they weren't here for you.
For the most part, you just listened in and smiled as you watched your boys interact with the fans. Seeing them smile and coo over the different fanart and merch the fans brought for them to sign warmed your heart.
They deserved to see that they matter to people.
You zoned out slightly, just enjoying the positive atmosphere, when you spotted a familiar face at the front of the line. You grinned as Ari waved at you before making her way over to Mira, who was sitting next to Romance.
Mira smiled at her. “Oh hey! You’re Ari, Y/N’s friend, right?”
Ari beamed. You swore you could hear the squeal she was holding in. “Yeah! So good to see you again,” she said before sliding what she brought for Mira to sign.
“Oh sick, it's been a while since I've looked at our first album,” Mira commented, quickly signing the vinyl. “Here, Abby, pass this to Zoey. Tell her it's for Ari.”
Ari looked like she was about to faint when Zoey and Rumi excitedly signed the vinyl, waved at her, and passed it back.
Mira handed her the record. “It was nice seeing you. Have a good day.”
“You too! Thank you!” Ari said. “Bye Y/N! See you at dinner.”
You waved goodbye to her as more eyes glanced over at you. You saw several people talking to their friends and typing in their phones as they would occasionally look back at you.
You wondered how long it would take for them to find your Instagram.
“Hey Romance!” Baby shouted, pulling you from your thoughts. “Quit hogging Y/N!”
“She can go wherever she likes, thank you,” Romance replied smoothly.
You sighed, rolling your eyes playfully. “Let me go appease him for a bit.”
You moved to stand when Romance grabbed your wrist, tugging you down just enough to kiss your cheek. “Miss you already, darling.”
My god, this man.
You heard some fans giggle and coo as a blush rose to your face. “Sap,” you grumbled softly to him before moving your chair over between Baby and Jinu.
That's how the next two hours went. The boys kept demanding your attention and unabashedly paused to flirt with you between signings.
Surely there were compilations online about this already.
The signings wrapped up just as lunch time rolled around. The two idol groups waved bye to the last of the fans before giving their lunch orders to a PA who was coming around asking about them.
“And for you?” The PA said as they got to your seat.
“Oh! I'll do just a classic bibimbap please,” you told them.
It felt weird being waited on.
Baby came over to your seat, draping himself onto your back. His head rested on top of yours as he held his phone out in front of you for both of you to see.
“You're trending, doll,” he said as he scrolled through the tag “#sajagirl” on TikTok.
“I don't even wanna check my phone,” you said. The videos on there were mostly from today, but you spotted a few grainy photos from some of your previous outings with the boys. People sure were sleuthy.
“You've gained at least 10,000 new followers on Instagram,” Mystery drawled from his seat beside you, their phone also out in front of them.
“Oh my gosh, the internet is also shipping us together,” Mira groaned as she showed you her phone. It had several edits of the boys supposedly having “undeniable chemistry” with the Huntr/x girls.
You laughed. “You shouldn't be surprised. Fans will ship anyone together.”
“Both groups are trending right now,” Bobby announced as he walked over to the group, checking his phone. “Most fans seem to think it's just a publicity stunt for the Idol Awards, but look at some of these cute edits!”
He showed a few fanarts and photoshop jobs from the signing. Several included you, but many focused just on the idol groups, too.
How did people make fanart this fast??
“We've got Rujinu, Sajagirl, Miromabby, Babystery, Zoestery, and Sajacule as some of the top tags,” Bobby continued. “The internet is eating this up!”
You decided to brave checking your phone and saw you had thousands of notifications from Instagram. You cleared them all and noticed you had a text from Ari.
“Omg girl you're trending?!”
Your curiosity got the better of you and you decided to check out some of the tags. People were speculating how you became their girlfriend, if you were actually dating all five of them, and if you dating them was somehow also a publicity stunt.
You wondered how long it'd be until articles were written about it.
Bobby clapped his hands together, interrupting your train of thought. “Well! Food should be here shortly, then you all are free to go! Great job today everybody.”
As Bobby walked away, some PAs helped rearrange the tables to face each other so you all could eat at them. Just like Bobby predicted, the food came in less than a minute later and was quickly distributed to everyone.
“So,” Rumi said as the group started to eat, “what are your guys’ thoughts on performing a song together?”
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When Darkness Finally Meets the Light (Chapter 10)
Pairings: Saja Boys x fem!Reader
Tags: Reincarnation, Soulmates, Polyamory, wee bit o angst
Rating: T+
Summary:
The longer you are a demon the easier it is to only feel negative emotions or, worse, no emotions at all.
But there’s a legend, a whispered story of hope amongst demons, about finding a soulmate. They’re not once in a lifetime, as in if you miss them they never come back. No, many souls are old. They’ve seen multiple lifetimes. The older the soul, the more powerful they are up until a point- there comes a time when a soul reaches its epitome and moves on after their death, their final experience.
You find a soul like that, who’s also your soulmate, they say it can bring back your soul, your emotions.
Your desire to live.
But can it truly heal the curse of being controlled by Gwi-ma?
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You stared up at the ceiling before your alarm had even gone off, the face of the boy still clear in your mind.
Yujin.
Those bright blue eyes.
You knew without a shadow of a doubt who it was.
You picked up your phone just as the alarm started to ring, quickly dismissing it and opening up your texts.
“Is your name Yujin?” you sent before you could second guess yourself.
Your phone was ringing not even a second later.
You answered.
“How do you know that name?” Baby’s voice rasped, deeper than usual.
“I thought you had beef with the sunrise,” you half-heartedly teased, though your voice was quiet.
“Y/N,” Baby all but growled. “How. Do you know that name?”
“It was in my dream last night…” you finally breathed. “I knew it was you.”
You heard some creative cursing, the phone clearly pulled away from his face for a moment, before he was back. His voice sounded desperate when he spoke. “Tell me you weren’t who I think you were.”
You had a feeling you were exactly who he thought you were.
“I was the tutor’s daughter.”
“Fuck! Shit, I can’t-” he spat before his voice became muffled, held away from the phone’s speaker again. “Min! Come take the phone. It’s Y/N. I need- I just-”
There was a shuffling sound before a different voice came over the line.
“Y/N?” Mystery asked. “Are you alright? What happened?”
“I…” you tried to say, but the emotions from the drea- memory were washing over you again.
The confusion. The hint of anger. The anguish.
And… betrayal?
“I had a dream of- I remembered Yu- Baby's life. I knew him,” you finally managed to say.
“Ah,” Mystery said, some rustling happening in the background. “How do you feel about that?”
“He… I loved him,” you choked out, tears trickling down your face. “I thought he and I- but then his family died and some part of me thought he had something to do with it. But my family was forced to leave, and I didn't even get to say goodbye-”
A sob escaped and Mystery hummed sympathetically. “I'm sorry starlight. That must have been hard to relive.”
You took deep breaths, trying to focus on letting the feelings pass. You knew the actual memory was from decades- likely centuries ago, but it felt fresh to you.
“I'm sorry, I know it's, it's me but it's not me and I…”
“It is you, and you're experiencing it for the first time to you,” Mystery said, speaking calmly. “It's okay to be upset by it.”
You took a few more deep breaths, trying to focus on the present as the tears slowly subsided.
“You need anything?” Mystery asked after a moment.
“... I think I'm okay,” you responded softly. “Is… Is Baby okay?”
“He probably needs a moment. It's not my story to tell, but that memory is laced in sadness for him, too,” Mystery replied. “I'm sure he'll reach out to you soon.”
You forced yourself to get out of bed, shuffling towards your bathroom. “I… I guess I should go. I still need to get ready for work,” you mumbled.
“If you need anything, just text us,” Mystery said.
“I will,” you whispered back. “Thanks Mystery.”
“Of course starlight. You have a good day.”
“You, too.”
You went through your routine on autopilot, mind feeling fuzzy. It wasn't until you checked your work bag that you spotted your dream journal where you'd tucked it last night.
You stared at it for a moment before sighing and grabbing it. You could at least jot it down, maybe it'd help you move on from it.
As you were writing down the last sentences, your phone buzzed in your pocket. You finished off the story, feeling your composure give slightly. You took in a deep breath, letting it out slowly before finally checking your phone.
“Baby just about bit my head off. Said he's gonna walk with you this morning. I'll meet you after work, hope that's okay darling,” Abby sent.
“That's okay. I'll see you this evening.” You sent back, stomach clenching anxiously.
You picked up the pace, pouring your coffee in one of your travel cups before slipping out the door.
As you pushed open the front door to the building and stepped outside, you spotted a figure hunched over nearby. They had on an oversized hoodie and their hands were shoved in their pockets.
Immediately, you felt the tension leave your body, your anger evaporating.
You walked over to him calmly, stopping next to him. “Hey.”
Baby jumped slightly, eyes snapping over to you. You saw them flash gold for a moment, but what really caught your attention was the red rimming around them. He opened his mouth, only to slam it shut again. His gaze looked panicked.
You glanced at the bus stop and then nudged his shoulder. “Come on, let's walk.”
You quickly got out your phone and texted your manager, letting her know you had a small emergency and would be an hour late. She texted back quickly and told you to take care. Nodding to yourself, you directed Baby past the bus stop. You were taking the long way to work today.
The two of you walked in silence for a while. You could tell Baby wanted to talk, so you gave him the space to do so when he was ready.
A few blocks later, he finally spoke.
“I…” his voice cracked and he cleared his throat. “I'm sorry.”
You glanced at him but held your tongue, which seemed to encourage him to keep going.
“I- fuck, I mean. I just- I fucked up in every way possible,” he continued, voice catching at the end. “My family- they didn't deserve that. You didn't deserve that.” You saw his shoulders hunch further. “I'll never be able to apologize to them, and I didn't think I'd ever be able to apologize to you either.”
“What are you sorry for?” You asked softly.
He laughed bitterly and it reminded you of how he laughed when you'd tried to console him about his family. “What am I not sorry for? I was a spoiled brat and it lead to me losing everything.”
He kicked the ground and huffed. “It happened shortly after my father had approved me courting you. I…” he scowled, “I know how I acted, but I never felt like I was enough to be worthy of you.”
He took in a shaky breath, still looking at the ground as you both walked. “That's the first time I heard him in my ear. He told me I was nothing, that I was never going to be good enough… but that he could make sure I was. He said he'd give me everything I deserved.”
“And I believed him,” he whispered. “I became such an ass after that, feeling so confident that I had solved all my problems.” He scoffed. “I even remember being handsy with you- I was so…” He shakes his head.
“And then my family-” his voice got choked up and he stopped. “I- I didn't hate them. I didn't even hate my brother. I just couldn't be happy with all I had. I didn't want the throne, I just wanted more, but I already had it!” His voice got louder in frustration.
He paused for a bit, breathing heavily for a moment. “... The worst part was that even after everything, I lost you.” He finally glanced at you, his eyes still red rimmed. Once he looked back down at his feet, he continued. “I was so busy, at first, with the funeral arrangements and the passing of the throne- but then I know my advisors were keeping you from me. Those fuckers- they didn't want a commoner,” he rolled his eyes at the word, “to step foot in the throne room, much less taint the bloodline.”
“They wouldn't even tell me when you were leaving, I just came out of a meeting one day and you were gone.”
“I tried to find you all day,” you whispered, and his gaze snapped over to you. “They kept intercepting me, saying you were too busy.” You crossed your arms, holding them tightly against yourself. “I wanted to say goodbye. I hate that I didn't get to.”
“... I found your note,” Baby admitted quietly. “That night, after I realized you were gone, I went to our tree and sat under it… and there it was.”
He shook his head. “They never told me where your family moved to. Every day I grew more resentful and angry at myself. It built and boiled until my patterns took over my body and I was dragged down to where I belonged.”
You immediately looked at Baby, eyes narrowed in concern. “You don't belong there.”
He glared at you, scowling. “Yes I do. You of all people should know-”
“Yeah, me of all people. I do know! You were suffering and he took advantage of that!” You snapped.
“We could've had lifetimes together,” he hissed. “You would never have wanted for anything if I hadn't been-”
“A normal person with insecurities?” You bit back. “We all get in our own head sometimes. You cared about me so much that you were afraid of fucking it up. That's normal! He is the one who twisted that. He killed your family and ripped me away, not you.”
Baby's jaw clenched, but you kept your gaze on him.
“Nothing you've said to me today has made think any less of you,” you told him, voice quiet but firm. “He took advantage of your vulnerability, of your fears.” You shook your head subtly, feeling your eyes well up again. “You didn't ask for them to die. You didn't want that. The fact that you're still mad at yourself now, centuries later, shows that you're a good person who made a mistake. That you didn't deserve any of it.”
“Then why did it happen to me?” He hissed. “If I didn't do something to deserve it- My family certainly didn't do anything wrong so it has to be my fault.”
You saw Baby curling in on himself again and you immediately glanced around. Spotting a nearby alley, you grabbed his wrist and dragged him over to it. The second you were out of sight, you pulled him into you, hugging him as tightly as you could.
It was like a string snapped. Baby's arms wrapped around you, hands grasping you like his life depended on it. His head went to your shoulder and you felt his body shake as silent tears soaked your shirt.
You tucked your head into his neck, feeling your own tears escape, too. “I'm so so sorry that happened to you Yujin,” you whispered. “Neither of us deserved that, but we're here now. I'm here now.”
Your fingers curled into his shirt. “I forgive you.”
You heard a choked off sob in response to that. “But how do I forgive myself?” He whispered, voice breaking.
“By living,” you replied just as softly, “one day at a time. And if you need me to tell you every day that you didn't deserve it, until you believe it, I will.”
Baby clung to you, as if afraid you were going to disappear. You didn't mind, as your own emotions were coursing through you, too. You just held him close until he finally stopped shaking.
“Don't you need to go to work or something,” he grumbled petulantly against your neck.
“I told my boss I had an emergency and was going to be a little late,” you replied.
“... I don't deserve you,” he whispered.
“Well no one is entitled to any relationship, so it doesn't matter what you think you do or don't deserve,” you told him. “I'm here and I want to be here. That's my choice.”
After a bit, Baby finally pulled back. His gaze was locked with yours for a moment before he leaned in, giving you a gentle kiss. “I'm sorry,” he said again.
“I know.” You replied softly, cupping his cheek. “I forgive you.”
Baby's hands shifted down to your waist. “I don't want you to go to work today,” he grumbled.
“Sorry, they don't allow clingy cats at work,” you teased lightly, kissing his cheek when he hissed playfully back.
He huffed, turning to slip an arm around your lower back as you both began to walk once more. “I just… I feel like I just got you back,” he admitted quietly.
You leaned into him. “I've been here, and I'm not going anywhere. You'll see me again in a few hours.”
He grumbled something under his breath, leaning his head against yours.
You directed your route over to another bus stop. It wasn't your usual, but it was one that still connected to your work. As you waited there, Baby shifted behind you, slipping both hands around your waist as he buried his head into the crook of your neck.
You grabbed your phone out of your pocket and sneakily took a selfie.
You thought about sending it to the group chat, but instead made a separate one with just you, Baby, and Mystery.
“I have a clingy cat on me.” You captioned it.
“Need any help with him?” Mystery sent back.
You reached back and patted the top of Baby's head. “I think we'll be ok. I'll let you know.”
You nudged Baby gently. “Do you want Myst to meet you at my work?”
He sighed. “Fine.”
“Can you meet us at my work?” You texted back.
“I'll be right there.”
Baby remained clingy the whole bus ride. As the two of you stepped off near your work, you spotted Mystery hanging out on a bench. They stood up as you walked closer, meeting you half way.
“Come on Yu,” Mystery said, grabbing Baby's waist from behind.
Baby growled at him, but didn't put up a fight otherwise. You turned around and gave both of them a kiss. “I'll see you this evening.”
“See you later doll,” Baby said softly. There was a slight desperation to his gaze, but he stayed in Mystery's arms.
You paused, leaning in and giving Baby one more, lingering kiss. Your heart clenched, but you made yourself step back and turn away.
It'd only be a few hours, but already it felt like centuries.
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