#kyxrambles

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Y'all didn't ask for it but here's my opinion on the dynamic change. They've said before that they have slight personas on the show. That Link isn't actually "mean" or anything like that. I think this is something to do with Rhett wanting to be more in the heart. The more Rhett's talked about therapy and gotten more open the more Link also seems to relax. Maybe this is their way of slowly removing those personas and just being purely Rhett and Link. We've heard Rhett say Link is chaotic before and honestly he is. I think the change is good and I am not going to question it or complain. After all Rhett and Link are always gonna be Rhett and Link no matter what.

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Sometimes I think about how Rhett says he’s really the shy one out of the two of them. That he relies on Link a lot to help keep conversions in public. I think as a socially awkward person and one who is rather shy and soft spoken I get what he’s saying. Being shy it’s hard to keep conversations going without fear of “am I talking too much? too little? am I using the wrong tone of voice?” and finding someone who can help balance that out in you is hard. For Rhett, Link is the person who he finds it easier to talk with and in turn helps him talk to others. Growing up I had a friend who did that too but then we drifted apart and I never found another person to do that again. But now I have Nicole and I’ve realized I was so damn wrong. I had never had someone who understood me like Link understands Rhett. There’s a reason it works so well for them, Link able to fill in the words whenever Rhett can’t seem to and vice versa. It’s a matter of 2 things. Trust and Listening. They’ve been friends for long enough Link has learned how to figure out when Rhett is struggling with keeping the conversation. Knows when and when not to take over for him. Now that I have Nic I know the reasons why what Rhett and Link have in their friendship is so special. It’s years of building trust, years of listening to the other even if it means holding in your own excitement or sadness for a little bit longer. They’ve had years to prefect this and I’ve had 5 and a half to finally understand it. 

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Going back and reading fanfic I loved so much in like 2019 and realizing how out of character Dean was is so strange to me? Like what did I like about it? I have to say it was a good fic but both Dean and Cas were extremely ooc.

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Good Omens isn't gay but it's LGBTQ+

I saw someone on Twitter say the following "Good Omens is a gay love story between two men. Neil Gaiman is making a mockery of himself encouraging Genderfluid/Non-binary people and the idea that Aromatic or Asexual people belong in the LGBT community. Further more he's making people believe that there is a difference between pansexual and bisexual. He needs to stop this and let the gay men have their representation!"

Okay, first of all this made me angry for many reasons but I'm gonna reframe from getting angry at said person in their replies and instead make this post here. Neil Gaiman has stated on multiple occasions that Angels and Demons are sexless beings and therefore are not gay men. But that it is indeed a love story and they are very much in love. He's stated that he doesn't see why they couldn't be Aromatic or Asexual and has encouraged Genderfluid and Non-binary pride art.

Genderfluid and Non-binary people are finally getting some form of representation in a popular show. The fact people want to take that from us is aggravating to no end. Asexual and Aromatic people can relate to the main characters for once and yet people want to push gay on them and erase the representation of ace people. While I could yell and scream for them to change their minds and allow us the chance to feel represented it's only going to feed into their trap of hate.

I've also seen pansexual and bisexual people say they can relate to characters. That the four horsepeople make them feel represented. Neil Gaiman aimed to represent these things through casting and he succeeded so well it angered those who refuse to accept us as part of the LGBTQ+ community. But he refuses to feed them with a simple "Yeah they're gay and in love" Because he knows it's not the right thing.

Furthermore Aziraphale is not a typical skinny person and it brought representation to those who aren't skinny. There's a sense of belonging to read fanfic were a non skinny character is being body worshiped or seeing fanart were their body has stretch marks and they're still seen as beautiful to others. So yeah in a simple summary: Fuck people who think Neil Gaiman was queerbaiting us with Good Omens because it is in fact a love story but just not a solely gay one because other sexualities and gender identities exist so fuck you very much for trying to take our representation away.

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Nothing is more validating than having a dream where someone you are a fan of, fictional or real, helps you through a breakdown. It may sound super fucking silly but the truth is Crowley and Aziraphale explaining that I'm not afraid to pack because I might be a trans man and not Genderfluid but it's because I'm scared how other would see it. That because of the stigma non binary people and Genderfluid people face around "Just afraid to admit they're fully trans" has made me horrified how people would react.

I guess in some ways it is rather sad and pathetic it took that to make me calm down. Except it's also a rational thing most people do. In my psychology book it said that often when seeking the answer to something we are to scared to ask out loud we conjure up someone we trust to answer it. That most of the time we already know the answer we just are to afraid to face it. Which I think holds true to why people have dreams often of loved ones that have passed. Maybe it's silly of me to have to conjure up a fictional angel and demon to explain to me that I'm going to be okay. But in the end whatever helps you helps you. There's no rule book on how to overcome fear and not every method helps everyone.

This was long and practically pointless but I guess I enjoy sharing my thoughts on things like this. Oh well.