#l&o

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If you all were ever curious on how i sit in chairs, tbh, i sit like Nolan 💀

You won't catch these legs hanging off a chair if I'm sitting in it, propped up always <3

(screenshot is mine)

[girlvasectomy]

let's all beat him with rock

[knitmeapony]

So what's the wildest thing that's true in the Law and Order universe (and just actual L&O, not stuff like which detectives are also on Sesame Street)?

My favorite weird fact is that Detective Stabler punched an astronaut.

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Sunday

warning: minors dni, fingering, oral (f receiving), brat behaviour (if you squint), OC

Rafael Barba was devoted to his work. It was something Céline admired but hated at the same time. It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon, and most people were outside, enjoying themselves. But, here she was, at One Hogan Place, bored and frustrated (even though it was her choice to tag along).

His gaze bounced from file to file, digging for the slightest opening that would allow him to tear down the defense, and then there was Céline, pushing around his coffee cup to get his attention.

“Cariño, no.”

“But I’m bored, Rafi,” Céline whined with a pout, batting her eyelashes. 

Her twinkling doe-like gaze made Rafael swallow hard. It was a tactic that usually worked so easily – the last time she made this face, he called in sick – but, this time, his focus remained unshakeable. “And, if I recall correctly, you promised to behave,” he hummed, shifting through the photos of the crime scene.

Céline huffed, wrapping her arms around his neck from behind. “Then I’d like to add one condition.”

“And that is?”

“I want you to touch me, that’s all I ask.”

“Querida, you know that’s a lie.” The look Rafael gave her made Céline grin, knowing how each time she innocently asked for something simple, it always led to Rafael ruining his suit and rescheduling whatever he had planned.

“Just your left hand, hermoso, and I'll let you work.”

The pet name made the corner of his lips twitch. “Fine,” he conceded, undoing the cuff of his left hand, rolling the sleeve up. Who was he to deny her, well, anything?

Excited, Céline quickly cleared a small portion of his desk and sat on it, hoisting her skirt up, her legs spreading so naturally. Rafael felt breathless when he saw that she was bare, her slit already glistening.

“You were never planning on behaving, were you?”

“This is me behaving,” she said, pecking his lips playfully.

A soft moan left her lips as she watched him coat his fingers with his spit before slowly plunging them into her cunt – he groaned at how easily they slipped inside her. She shuddered at the sensation, his fingers pumping in and out of her while his thumb circled her clit, bringing her tad bit closer to the high she seeked. 

Eventually, Rafael’s focus completely shifted, zeroing in on the DD5 he was reading. His thumb no longer working, his fingers gradually slowing down. Howcer, his focus was back on Céline when he felt her hands on his wrist, trying to fuck herself with his hand. Nothing coherent came out of her mouth, just a string of whines and broken sobs, unshed tears in her eyes.

Rafael was entranced by the sight, his pen dropping from his grip, his cock twitching. He took his hand away, making Céline babble incoherently as she tried to put his fingers back inside, but he swallowed all of her sounds by kissing her, gently pushing her down. His hand caressed the curve of her neck before squeezing her tender breast, eliciting a loud moan from her.

A string of saliva connected them as he pulled away and her eyes were glassy, completely dark with arousal. She was far too gone to even form a thought. He gave her a crooked smile as his hands spread her legs further apart, his face inching towards her core. Her heart hammered against her ribcage with anticipation.

Rafael decided to punish her for a bit, peppering the insides of her thighs with fluttering kisses, nipping at the soft skin. Her hand found purchase on his hair, trying to bring his mouth to her cunt. When he felt her trembling, a string of cum dripping down to the desk, he finally gave her one long lick, lapping up her juices. Her choked cry echoed loudly in his office, her thighs squeezing his head. Pushing in his fingers at the same time he caught her clit between his teeth, tugging, her back arched as she pulled on his hair..

He sucked on her clit, curling his fingers, brushing against that spot. Céline saw stars, her ears ringing, as she began to beg. “O-Oh my god, R-Rafi. Pleasepleasepleaseplease.”

“Please what, cariño” Rafael asked, his warm breath fanning against her sensitive, swollen clit. “Use your words. Tell me what you want, querida.”

“Please, let me cum. I promise to behave. Please, let me cum. Please.”

“Good girl.”

Céline felt the knot in her stomach tightening at the wet suction of Rafael’s mouth and his fingers stretching her, bullying that spot again and again. She clenched around his fingers, hips rocking against his hand, and she felt him smile against her cunt, sliding a third finger, chasing the air out of her lungs. 

At that moment, Rafael couldn’t bring himself to care that some of the files were ruined with her tears, drool and arousal. All he could hear was their erratic heartbeats, the sinful sounds her wet cunt made each time he moved his fingers, and all he could see was Céline, completely at his mercy.

When the knot in her stomach finally snapped, her eyes rolled back into her head. Another broken cry left her lips as she convulsed, tears streaming down her face and onto the pile of documents.

As he stared at her shaking form, her blond hair spread like a halo, her cheeks a soft shade of pink, she looked so devilishly angelic. There she laid on his desk, completely ruined, while he, too, was ruined, for his sharp mind could only think of the ways he could have her begging for more. But he contented himself with licking her clean, his hands forcing her legs open whenever she tried to close them.

“I love you, querida, but you’re banned from coming into the office with me from now on,” Rafael said as he carried her to the couch, gently laying her down.

A crooked smile spread on her face. “Fair enough.” She didn’t refute the ban knowing that she could have it revoked whenever she wanted. Before he could leave, she caught him by his tie and tugged him downwards, catching his bottom lip with her teeth before kissing him. Tasting herself on his lips made her insides coil, but she released him with a simple peck on the lips. “Have fun,” she whispered coyly, her eyes twinkling with mischief.

It was only when Céline fell asleep, a blanket draped over her, that Rafael was able to pick up his pen again. But as he stared at his legal pad, trying to read what he had jotted down, all he could think of was the taste of her cum on his tongue.

[cabensonsgirly]

Just curious why nobody sends in req's but likes my posts asking for them😪 Honestly what's up? Am I that scary?😭😭

[22plus15]

pina at the end: "this tía doesn't lose a single final... but she is shy today"

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Law and Order Theory: Mike Logan has C-PTSD

As I have stated previously, Mike Logan is one of my favorite Law and Order characters. I find his character fascinating and I want to know more about him, since the show did not give us a lot. I make headcanons to fill in the blanks. This started out as one such headcanon, but I realized that there is actual evidence to support this. Also, I have not seen anyone else discussing this, so I thought I might as well put my thoughts on it out.

The evidence:

First things first, what is C-PTSD, how does it developed in a person and what is its symptoms?

C-PTSD stands for Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and it occurs when one has experienced what is defined as Complex Trauma, which is commonly prolonged or repeated exposure from either one or multiple traumatic events and there feels little to no escape.

C-PTSD shares some symptoms with PTSD, but there are some additional ones that might add layers to the healing and diagnosis process.

According to this WebMD Article,

What to Know About Complex PTSD and Its Symptoms

What is complex PTSD? Triggered by chronic trauma, complex PTSD adds problems with relationships, emotions, and self-esteem to the usual sym

C-PTSD symptoms generally fall into a few core symptoms, most of which Mike Logan fits perfectly into. Feel free to read the above article or another before reading the rest of this post.

(Also, please note: I am not presenting myself as someone who is an expert on C-PTSD or and registered psychologist. This is just me presenting evidence to support a fan theory. Also there are way more symptoms of C-PTSD, not just the ones listed below. If you find other information that either helps prove or disproved my theory, feel free to either reblog or put it in the comments.)

Now, time to present my theory:

Re-experiencing: We don't actually see Mike having any flashbacks or nightmares, but that doesn't mean he might not be having them. Given the fact that the first we ever learn about any trauma he experienced as a kid was "Indifference" [1x9], and it seems like it only came up because of how much Carla Lowenstein reminded him of his own mother who used to hit. However, I think the opposite is more likely the case - Memory loss. Mike has repressed the memories of his abuse, which yes, can also be a symptom of both PTSD and C-PTSD. In fact, he even flat out admits this in the episode "Bad Faith" [5x20] when he tells Cragen that he repressed the experience and doesn't have a clear memory of what happened with Father Joe Krolinsky.

Sense of Threat: Again, we don't see any signs of Mike being jumpy or hyper-vigilant, but also keep in mind, he is a police man, and a detective at that. He could not have it this particular symptom - or he could have trained himself to mask it so that he would not be perceived as "jumpy" by his coworkers, who could have seen that trait as liability in the field, which is not untrue.

Avoidance: This we actually see in the show. Mike has actively avoided churches and religion unless it is related to a case (i.e. "God Bless the Child" [2x5]) or it is a funeral for a friend (i.e. "Confession" [2x1]). He even states in "Apocrypha" [4x7] that "Next time I go to church, six of my closest buddies will be carrying me." This indicates that unless it is absolutely necessary, Mike would prefer to never step foot in a church again.

But then why do we never see him have an adverse reaction while being in or near a church, you might ask? Probably for the same reason we never see him jumpy or having a flashback - he has either learned to mask, or even repress his reactions enough that nothing looks off to his coworkers or the people around him. It is also possible that him being in "work mode" is a factor in this. He is a police officer, he cannot show weakness on the force. Not to his co-workers and certainly not to the suspects.

Trouble Controlling Emotions: I almost feel like I don't even need to explain this one, but I will anyway! It is very easy for Mike to get angry with people, especially suspects who give him and his partners a hard time. He seems to almost always be on the verge of decking anyone who makes him even slightly upset. There are many examples (way too many to list here), but the most notable one is the one that getting him 'exiled' - punching Councilman Kevin Crossley in "Pride" [5x23]. You can see on his face that he knows he fucked up, so why did he do it in the first place? Easy, in this instance, he wasn't in control of his emotions. Granted, anyone in Mike's position in that instance would have trouble keeping it cool (brief recap: an angry mob was trying to get to Crossley, Bricsoe and Logan were trying to get him to safety, but Crossley was uncooperative. In fact, he was actively making it worse. Mike's punch actually allowed him and Lennie to finally get the man in his car and get him to safety, but it still heavily damaged Mike's career). Someone with a cooler head probably would have found a better way to handle it, but Mike has never been one to keep a cool head.

Negative Self-View: Like the first two, this one is admittedly trickier because we don't see a lot of Mike's inner view of himself in the OG. We don't see his private life, or hear his inner thoughts. However, even in the OG, I can't help but feel like Mike doesn't have a good sense of self-respect. The closest I can think of is in "Confession" [2x1], where Mike is seen to be very reckless in regards to his job, position and even his life in a sense. Like he doesn't care what happened to him, as long as Max's killer is brought to justice. While this is noble, it is also incredibly reckless and he gets chewed out for it by Stone. We do get more evidence of this in CI, though. We see that he carried around the newspaper article of him punching Crossley around, as if he is reminding himself of his greatest failure. Both these things indicate a lack of self-worth on Mike's part, and also points to him feeling like a failure in some ways - he failed to protect Max and he failed to keep his job and reputation in Manhattan.

Relationship Problems: And last, but not least, Mike relationships! Despite seemingly being known for having a lot of girlfriends, they don't seem to stick around. In the OG, this could have been written off that Mike was young and not ready to settle down, but even in CI he is not shown with anyone steady. This could be for a multitude of reasons (job, sexuality, just didn't work out), but it is also possible that Mike has trouble forming meaningful connections due to C-PTSD. The relationships might have ended because he had trouble opening up and forming those deeper connections, as well as feeling unable to emotionally open and let his guard down, even around his romantic partner. This can also hold true for platonic relationships, as we get the sense that he didn't talk to those in the 27th after his transfer until the "Exiled" movie, though that could have also been self-preservation on some of their parts, but I refuse to believe that with Lennie. All in all, when you have trouble trusting the world, it can be hard to trust other people.

So what "gave" Mike C-PTSD?

As stated above, people who have been diagnosed with C-PTSD have experienced repeated or prolonged trauma. Many times, this translates into childhood neglect or abuse, the latter is something that we know Mike suffers from. He was physically abused by his mother and sexually abused by his former priest, Joe Krolinsky.

Conclusion

In my findings, I think the main trauma that influenced Mike's theorized C-PTSD is what Krolinsky put him through, though his mother's abuse is certainly a factor and he clearly has trauma surrounding her as well. However, I say his terrible experience with Krolinsky becuase it has the most obvious effects on his life: losing his faith in the Catholic Church, possibly his relationships, and not having trust in most authority figures. Still, those are just my thoughts and you are free to agree or disagree.