Uni has almost killed my will to study languages. ❤️🩹
With the university, many things changed. Yes, I started learning my favorite language, the one I always have been dreaming of Japanese, but the university, especially the master's degree turned what I loved the most into a nightmare. Did you read the evil and intrusive thoughts I wrote in this picture? I have said all of these things to myself at least once, and I hate it.
Sometimes I think I was deceived. I have been studying languages mostly at school throughout the entirety of my academic journey, and I loved it, besides German, I have always had a pleasant experience and prepared teachers who made me fall in love with studying a new language.
With the university, many things changed. Yes, I started learning my favorite language, the one I always have been dreaming of Japanese, but the university, especially the master's degree turned what I loved the most into a nightmare. Did you read the evil and intrusive thoughts I wrote in this picture? I have said all of these things to myself at least once, and I hate it.
Besides doing my best and trying to fight some mental and physical issues I have been having for a while, studying Japanese became almost the worst thing I have ever done in my life, sometimes I wished I had self-studied it instead of majoring in it.
The written exams were basically just a"let's see how well you memorize the example sentences of the book" kind of thing, definitely not the best approach. The same goes for kanji and vocabulary, everything was tested to see how well you memorize, not how you can actually move freely in the language.
This extremely wrong (at least in my opinion) approach almost killed my will to keep studying languages in general, so that's why during the last year I have basically quitted self-studying, I needed to use all of my energies to do more than my best to pass those freaking exam.
Now I am here telling you that I made it and paid a high price, but at least I am here loving languages more than ever! I am still trying to adapt to my new working schedule, understand what goals I want to achieve, and prepare a solid plan, but step by step. Rushing will never be productive!
💭 What about you? Did you have a similar experience? Feel free to share it in the comments, this is a safe place for anyone!