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the sadness in Aziraphale's eyes when Crowley puts his glasses back on AND the small smile at the end when Crowley finally looks back up at him in hopes that he would follow him up to heaven

[leoreadss]

Nachos Friday - A "Mindful" Mind Story

A real conversation happened in my head between two very smart people (Me and Also Me) [but don't tell the third one, she's cucu]

Me: Uh, it's half past four and I haven't had lunch yet.

Also Me: *whispering* naaachoos

Me: Maybe some veggie on white rice?

Also Me: *not very whispering* NAAACHOOS

Me: Uh nachos! But I don't have tomato or cilantro or minced meat...

Also Me: Oh you don't need them, I certainly don't need them. They asked me back to Hell, and I said no! I'm not rejoining their team and neither should you....

Me: You wot?

Also Me: *clearly sobbing very loudly*

Me: Oh boy. Are you all right? *hand them a tissue*

Also Me:

Me: C'mon. Let's make you some tea while I prepare the nachos, will you? *hand the tissue box*

Also Me: *crying incontrollably*

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till this day, I'm not sure if this look on aziraphale's face is "don't worry, I know what I'm doing, trust me" or a look of embarrassment and shame because he chose heaven over Crowley, OR a disappointed look because Crowley rejected his offer.

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the way aziraphale brushes off idea of having to leave the bookshop behind when Crowley brought it up while he was convincing aziraphale to stay behind with him

and how he uses the excuse of the bookshop to STAY BEHIND when the metatron asks aziraphale if he's ready to leave

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I just realized how aziraphale is looking away at such an angle, it's literally like a 90° turn when Crowley pulled to kiss him.

I think this is also when I realized that maybe that's the reason why Crowley kissed him too, because aziraphale wasn't looking at him, so Crowley wanted to get his attention again😭

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this scene continues to make me cry till this day, THE AMOUNT OF EMOTION IN THIS SCENE IS OVERFLOWING.

"and I would like to spend- euemhm... " POOR CROWLEY, HE REALLY DOES MEAN WHAT HE'S TRYING TO SAY AND IT BREAKS MY HEART EVERY TIME.

HE WAS LITERALLY HOLDING BACK TEARS, HE'S CHOKING UP, LOOKING UP AND ALSO TRYING NOT TO MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH AZIRAPHALE AWWWWWWW.

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this statement from aziraphale still makes me tear up and cry till this day.

you can see Crowley immediately puts on his sunglasses to hide his tears 😔

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someone tell me what this smile means, I still have ABSOLUTELY ZERO IDEA.

because at first it's a worried kind of look but then it shapes into a smile???I can't tell if it's a forced smile or a genuine smile.

if it's forced, it could definitely be aziraphale telling himself " it's going to be fine! I'll figure it out"

but if it's genuine, it could probably mean "can't wait to be supreme Archangel and make a difference in heaven! "

no idea...