#latenightthougts

[scarlettsoulxiii]

Ewww the sadness just creeped up.

[klaus-nether]

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[waiting-all-night]

Leaving someone toxic was not easy. But once you’ve done it then the hard part starts. You begin to realize how bad things were before and you look at yourself and wonder how the hell you could stay with them for so long. But then you realize they had power over you and how damaged you are now. And how am I gonna heal? How am I supposed to forget what you have done to me. They keep me up at night.

leaving someone toxic

[capricornenigma]

Night Time Vibes

Am I the only one who can't go to sleep at night, without meditating? After a busy day and after so many different interactions. Its only right to give your mind sometime to slow down. Take 30 mins to yourself and just unwind. The sleep is always amazing after!

[addisonbritt]

Here’s the thing about his deployment;

I'm so angry and I can't figure out why.

Everything happening around me makes me want to hit something. Or someone. There's a dull roar rising from the depths of my stomach to the heart beating in my chest. It swells to a point of almost bursting, physically aching, throbbing and relentless and rising in volume until I can hear the blood pounding in my ears. There's a burning behind my eyes, a watery film that wants to turn into tears but ends up suppressed by pride and rage. There's a thickness in my throat, a resistance that makes me clench my teeth and hiss sharply instead of shouting out. Now matter how I try, I can't swallow it.

It hurts, oh my God, it hurts. 

My hands are trembling. I can feel a constant pulsing to the ends of my fingertips as the pressure in my veins rises to meet the physiological demand of the stress. It's not a breakdown but I almost wish it was, because at least then there would be a release, like flood gates breaking open before a dam. Instead it just builds and builds and builds until my chest hurts so badly I want to rip my heart out of my ribcage and not feel it anymore. I don't know how to get through this.

I don't know how to last the next eight months with this pain. It was supposed to get easier. The ones who've done it before say eventually you learn to enjoy the time apart. It's been 81 days, and it's not easier. Not even a little. The days get better but the nights get worse, trying to remember how he smells and how he feels and what he tastes like when he kisses me. Every night it's less clear and it chips away at me like shards of glass against sandstone. I want to scream at someone at the top of my lungs that this isn't fucking fair, and he's miserable and I'm miserable and we're good people so why do we have to be miserable on opposite ends of the earth? I want to hit something until my knuckles bleed, throw something until it shatters into a million pieces, because rage is a terrible thing and it simmers quietly in my veins and rumbles low in my chest, waiting, waiting in the name of appropriate behavior. So I won't throw my things, or split my skin against the wall, and my words will evaporate from m y  t o n g u e  i  n   s  i  l  e  n  c  e   .   .   .

[hilmikur]

Hidup adalah perjudian

“Satu-satunya perjudian yang legal di Indonesia adalah hidup itu sendiri”

- Hilmi

Itulah kenapa Tuhan melarang kita bermain judi. Karena sejatinya hidup kita adalah perjudian. Akan berantakan jadinya apabila ada permainan dalam sebuah permainan. Well, itu cuma intermezzo aja hahaha

Oke, tulisan ini mungkin sedikit berat untuk dipahami. Tapi sadarkah kawan, bahwa sejatinya hidup kita ini merupakan perjudian? Dalam hidup ini, kita akan selalu dihadapkan pada pilihan yang sangat banyak, mungkin bisa dibilang “tak terhingga”. Dari sebuah kejadian yang memunculkan pilihan, kemudian pilihan yang kita pilih menuntun kita pada kejadian-kejadian lain yang ujung-ujungnya mengharuskan kita untuk memilih. Masa depan kita pun merupakan misteri yang menuggu untuk kita ungkap. Setiap manusia di dunia ini pastilah memiliki impian atau rencana, dan hal itulah yang menjadi tujuan di masa depan kita. Kita akan selalu dihadapkan pada pilihan-pilihan yang tentunya memiliki peluang berhasil atau gagal terkait dengan rencana yang kita buat.

Menurut KBBI, judi artinya permainan dengan memakai uang atau barang berharga sebagai taruhan. Dalam konteks kehidupan, uang atau barang bisa kita kategorikan secara general sebagai resource. Setiap orang memiliki resource dengan kadar yang berbeda-beda. Resourcenya bisa berupa waktu, tenaga, uang, dll.

Begitu pun dengan hidup ini, apapun yang kita rencanakan/impikan selalu memiliki dua kemungkinan, yaitu gagal atau berhasil. Untuk mewujudkan semua keinginan dan impian, kita harus berani bertaruh. Mempertaruhkan semua resource yang kita miliki untuk memenangkan permainan. 

Dan hidup itu sendiri, sejatinya adalah hal abstrak yang tidak stabil. Ya know, it’s like a slime I guess. Solid, but fluid. And our choices are the building above it. So, it’s unpredictable. So, it’s either you win or die trying. Good news is if you lose you learn. Jadi siap kah anda untuk terus berjudi?

[teletubbiecat]

Did you ever have things that “disappeared” after having friends over as a child. Maybe sometime they stumble over it and think of you. Just maybe?

[sweet-disaster-92-blog]

#LateNightThougts 💡