I just don’t feel it anymore
I remember when I started out this blog years ago with the intention of creating Vaporwave wallpapers, in those days I felt like I could use some moral support thanks to the issues I was facing at the time. Joining the Vaporwave trash culture community really helped me cope with the lack of warmth in my life and helped me to ultimately get it back. The time I spent with my cohorts at Latinwave [now Eternal Vibes and Caribbean Ventures] taught me a lot about dealing with people in a proper manner when it comes to productions and Matt from Power_Lunch has been very supportive of my productions... But I feel like I have overstayed my welcome. Ever since I began to experiment with my other aliases I received mixed reception and outright reject from labels when I attempted to submit my work. I tried to connect with the local producers to no avail and eventual humiliation... Despite all these things I moved forward experimenting with how far I could take the genre art movement from my end, I feel like I finally reached the end of that barrier. I don’t plan on just giving up on doing the things I like to do, it’s just that I don’t feel the same way I did before. The state of mind I was then is slipping away from me now as I grasp again for the familiar things that made me feel alive before my fall. Right now on the night of the 27th of March, 2019, I am listening to the first audio production that set me to where I am today... Unknowing to that 15 year old reject, that tune represents everything she eventually will accomplish in life.
I won’t exactly leave the scene just yet, I promised a few works with a few people and a few, final submissions Eternal Vibes. But I want you to understand that my time in this scene is close to ending and I would appreciate it if you somehow still tagged along.
