#lav rants

[lavender-long-stories]

Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the feeling of wanting to shake people and tell them to just make things. Over ten years into writing and a hoard of stories that wouldn't have existed if I hadn't started somewhere to show for it, I have this advice: Even if you think that it's going to be bad, even if you think it's going to cringe, even if you think it would be better if you waited until you got better, just make it now. You won't get better without making things. You won't have the things that you wanted to see to look at if you don't make them.

If it's really as terrible as you think, make it again later after you have improved. No one will stop you. Only you will stop you.

Make things. I beg you.

[lavenderherbb]

Holy shit???? It’s fucking Hank????? This dude is in everything Jesus Christ.

[lavender-long-stories]

You know what I hate more than those 'Hey I am a comic artist. {Insert empty compliment because this is copy and pasted.} Want to work with me? Here is my discord.' spam comments on AO3 I get on every single upload?

The long haul pitch.

Not me but a delightful friend had a few comments from someone and then connected with them in DMs, chatted with them for a bit and thought they were genuinely interested in the fanfic before they pulled the 'I am a comic artist, would you like collab' and then ghosted them when they said no thanks.

This makes me violent.

HEY, comic artists! Put your commissions on your own page! If you want to do work for a community, do some of your own pieces in that community and offer commission under your OWN POSTS. Stop with this pyramid scheme ass tactics of cold call messages and meeting with someone with the sole interest to just pitch them. YOU LOOK LIKE A SCAM. Is that what you want your art to look like? Is the buck that important to you? Greedy monsters.

This is not how you behave in a fandom space.

I want to beat you with a copy of My Immortal. 🔪🔪

[lavenderherbb]

‘Fandom so small we can fit in this’

‘Fandom so small we can fit in that’

My fandom is so small we could fit on a bike.

Me. I am the fandom.

I have never met or seen another person who has read the Gray Man books.

The movie? Yeah, I’ve seen some of that. The book? Not a single person.

[lavenderherbb]

Role playing on this app is so weird because like- what do you mean there’s multiple people playing their own versions of the same character? What do you mean everyone actually interacts with everyone despite that? What do you mean it doesn’t have to make sense? What do you mean you don’t have to explain anything? What do you mean I can go crazy and not worry about it???

In short, I’m having a blast.

[lavenderherbb]

I literally cannot wait for this movie oh my god. I’ve been waiting for this since it first got announced a while ago. And it’s Ana de Armas???? Hell. Yes.

[lavful]

My mom pointed out to me that I covered my mouth while speaking to the barista and spoke quietly, so I cried on the car ride home because I didn’t remember it that way and I thought I behaved perfectly neurotypically

I cried harder once we were home because I thought about how unfair it is that I can’t just be myself / act naturally / act the way I want to in public. Social norms dictate that we act a certain way in public (i.e. speaking up, looking people in the eye, generally being pleasant) so we have to or there are consequences. It’s unfair for me and of course all other neurodivergent people, and it hits me sometimes and I cry about it but then I just have to move on.