#lesian

[cleradin7]

have I ever mentioned how bad I want a gf?

[spiveyuri]

lesbian lesbian lesbian every character I see is a lesbian I make them into lesbians lesbian lesbian lesbian

[domquinn]

Ah yes bunny, I do understand your legs hurt from my fingers but don’t you want mommy to be happy with you? Just a few more pumps and mommy will kiss it better

[ephemeral-draco]

being aroace and a lesbian is really funny i feel like a horse. like yeah they dont usually eat meat but very rarely a small vertebrate passes by 👀

[our-queer-experience]

Out as lesbian closeted as genderfluid, my goal is to slowly start showing subtle hints that I am genderfluid so when I finally come out my mom just says "I kind of guessed lol"

So far I have: Asked for a binder (technically doesnt have to be a trans thing but my mom sure did think it was- she's getting me that compressor thing from target instead, so binder-lite kinda /pos), got my hair cut shorter despite for most of my life wanting it super long (again not necessarily a trans thing but it's still a potential hint. I think), didnt wear a dress while going somewhere (unusual for me; but that was only once so far), have shown a slight preference to big hoodies and shorts/pants instead of my usual dresses, AND probably the biggest hint is I put a genderfluid flag on my bulletin board in my room (still subtle though because I'm not sure my mom actually knows the genderfluid flag + somewhat hard to notice) (it's also next to a trans flag which she does know but once again it's kind of hard to notice lol)

I'm pretty sure- at least knowing her- if she already knows before I come out then it's less scary bc it wouldnt be like a surprising thing to her but instead have been built up for a while

good luck with coming out, anon!

[mystictechnologyhistorysoul]

It's January 14, 2021, and it's been 4 days since you left. 

Things have been...okay. School is tough, dad isn’t home most of the time, and the sight of myself in the mirror still makes me shiver. But you know that, how could you not? We were there for each other for 3 and a half years, you knew everything about me. And maybe that's where I went wrong. After you left, blocked me and removed me from your life, not a single text to explain why or what was happening in that beautiful mind of yours; you left me dumbfounded. 

You. 

Who are you? I realize that we always spoke about me and my clichés of the typical troubled teen, the divorced parents, being replaced by a better daughter, poor, stupid, ugly, and so much more. But what about you? Why didn’t you talk to me when you felt down? Did you not trust me enough? And is that my fault? Four days is a long time to think; overthink. Four days is a long time, especially when you’re lonely. 

‘What a hypocrite’. Right?

I was the one who asked for a break, wasn’t I? I was the one who fucked up, but I asked for it. So why am I so sad? Why does the time for myself that I so desperately asked for hurt? 

I wonder how you are.

But, just like today, I saw you smiling. Your little Zoom box showed me a look on your face that looked...unbothered. Happy, even. But I don't know, I never know. You never told me anything. I'm a fool, but you know that, and so do I. When I saw your giggling smile I didn't know how to react. Be happy for you? Hurt at your lack of care? I didn't know, so I just stayed numb. Our friend shared with me the voice message you sent her. And she warned me, it wasn't nice. You weren't nice. She warned about the imminent heart break I would have when I heard you, but honestly, maybe it was overhyped, overrated. You said you were tired of me, tired of me using you, specifically. And I'm sorry if I did. I'm sorry if I used you. I'm sorry if I sometimes let my insecurities control my mouth and form my words, and I'm sorry it had to be you on the other end. That you had to be, as you called it, my “free personal therapist”. 

Maybe I should've kept my mouth shut. But I couldn't. I was talking to a friend, she's older than me by 3 years, I already told you about her. She's been helping me think about life and what I want. I admired her, but when I told you that she made me realize something, you misunderstood that for love. Love for her. But that wasn't true, it never was. 

I wanted to tell you that I realized I didn't want to live like this, like me. I wanted time to think about where my life was going, to breathe before I take my next step. A step towards a dream that might not be worth pursuing. I realized that I wanted to be able to love myself, to find myself. I realized that I didn't want to drag you into my hell, but maybe it was already too late for that. However, I still wanted to try. I wanted to try to make my existence something that made things better and that didn't exist for something or someone. Something that was there for the sake of itself. But like I told you, I wanted time to reflect, to sort my words out and understand what I was feeling because I don't know. I don't know anything. 

I don't know how to feel about anything anymore. I didn’t know if I can say with certainty that I wanted to be with you when I didn't even know if I want a tomorrow. I couldn’t say it because that would be cruel from me, to say such a thing before thinking. Wouldn't it be cruel to leave someone, especially a lover, after being together for a long time through suicide? 

Wouldn't that hurt you? 

But regardless of that, I didn't know what the best thing to do was. To lead you on in a relationship that will end with one of us in the grave? Wouldn’t that make me, the bastard? I guess in either scenario the outcome is still the same though, I’m the monster. 

Was the today worth the tomorrow?

If I hurt you today, will you be hurt tomorrow? Or will you be better without me?or what if I'm with you today, but not tomorrow? Would that happiness of the today be worth the sadness of the tomorrow?

I'm sorry if I took the wrong decision, if there even is such a thing as good or bad. 

But some part, deep down inside me knew that this would happen. I knew it, and that’s the worst part. 

In the end, all was said, even though it might not have been heard, but it was said and done. You blocked me without reading my messages or giving me some sort of closure. You were tired of me. 

I only wished that you understood, and that you also knew I didn’t love her the way I did you, so that it would give me some sort of closure. 

I deserved a better goodbye

[dykespreadinglove]

lesbians either be like: yeah we know each other since 2 hours but we already adopted a cat

or: yeah we have been talking for 2 years but idk if she likes me. yes she tells me that she loves me every morning and every night,

yes we kith,

yes we live together

yes she proposed to me

but I dont wanna come of as predatory, maybe she means it in a platonic way

[raesha-glenworthy]

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